Friday, November 23, 2018

A Little Better


After snapping myself out of the eating coma I was plunging into last week, I am finally feeling a little better... a bit more hopeful. It's depressing to be so limited in what one can physically do, and there's definitely emotional fallout after having something scary happen. The good thing is that I have been working on separating my eating from my emotional state, and I'm coping a little better in that regard now. Maybe it's natural to fall back on what "worked" for years: stuffing feelings down with food, eating to feel calm, turning to that old familiar way of giving myself something "good" to make up for something bad that happened. But you know, I have some new coping mechanisms now. I have support from family, friends, and church. I have the clarity of knowing I *can* get by and even thrive when I choose something like resting, reading, calling a friend, or writing out my feelings to lift anxiety and sadness. It does work. I just have to remember to choose those things rather than cake or buttered toast.

Thanksgiving was wonderful although I was not able to do much of the cooking. My kids cleaned the kitchen and took out the trash, and two of my sons brought over a bigger dining room table with a leaf so we can have 8 people at the main table and still have plenty of room (my old one had 6, and it was very cramped to fit even 7 around the table). My husband chopped the onions and celery for the stuffing, cut up the sweet potatoes, cut up the apples for the Snicker salad, and put all the leftovers away. My daughter in law (who is expecting my first granddaughter in January... yes!!!!) made an apple pie and brought some frosted cookies. (My oldest and his wife had a baby boy this summer, so now I will have TWO grandkids!!) We had a wonderful time visiting, playing video games, and watching movies and I still got to rest. My plate looked almost exactly as it has for the last several Thanksgivings: turkey, mashed potatoes, gravy, stuffing, green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, corn, cranberry sauce, and a roll. Later I had some Snicker salad and a small piece of apple pie. Moderate and plenty. Leftovers today.

I know it is going to take some time to fully heal and be back to my normal level of activity. I have good people in my life who will pitch in to help me as needed, and I also appreciate the encouragement I have gotten here in the comments and by email. Thank you so much for supporting me!

2 comments:

MaryFran said...

I’m glad you had an enjoyable Thanksgiving! I’m also happy to hear how your family pitched in to be there for you to make thanksgiving special!!!

I’m relieved to see you pulling yourself out of your food coma funk!!! I think I will always default back to eating my emotions...it’s a large part of who I am. I think the victory is in recognizing it and turning it around in a timely manner!!! You did that! Woohoo!

h2oratt said...

Really glad you had so much help. Your husband sounds wonderful.