Tuesday, September 25, 2018

No More Crime

You know what? I really love how things are going lately. I am really busy, and tired, and I sleep well (when I sleep!) but I am able to go anywhere and adapt my eating to whatever is around me. No more worrying that someone might serve some "off plan" food and ruin my life. No more turning down something that I really would like to eat and then feeling deprived and eating twice as much later. I like that now, even when I am stressed, the stress is *not* about food.

Today's intake, for those interested:

coffee w/half and half
Burger King bacon, egg, cheese croissant... minus the croissant... with 4 hash brown tots and a mug of coffee with molasses, cinnamon, and sugar free caramel creamer
16 oz blended coffee (sugar free chocolate caramel, which I later found out was from "Big Train" mix and sugar free but NOT low carb. Oh well! It was really good!)
5 or 6 Ruffles potato chips, an ounce of chive cream cheese, and about 5 green olives
4 corn tortilla chips with guacamole and sour cream
bowl of chili (with beans, dinner at a friend's) topped with grated cheese and sour cream, plus a small square of homemade corn bread (buttered)
pumpkin pie (didn't eat the crust, but DID eat the whipped cream!)

Last night I was hungry at bedtime and ate Jif peanut butter off a spoon. Something about being able to do that made me feel so much more "normal" than I felt when I was not "allowed" to do such a thing... when I used to judge myself so harshly *just because* I ate something that's not a health food... out of a jar... not measured. You know, it's okay. It's just peanut butter. It's not a felony!

Hope your day was as amazing as mine. Catch you later!


Anonymous said...

What in your day was healthy??

Vickie said...

I notice that you are keeping your portions small. And you are being somewhat careful about keeping your carbs proportional (omitting the bun, omitting the pie crust).

I wondered if you have an idea of where your calories and macros are - ?

(I ask because I am a little worried that you have readers who think they can eat anything in moderation but are not keeping things at all proportional. And they are forgetting that you are on a med and they are not.)

I think we are all science experiments. And I think we each have a balance point and a losing point and a gaining point in our macros. I personally do not think someone can eat all carbs or mostly carbs, and lose weight, even if their intake is the right number of calories. I wondered what you think about that now -?

I’m totally get that you are not thinking “good” food and “bad” food.

(But I think you might have readers who are sort of running away with “I can eat anything” and also forgetting you are on meds.)

Anonymous said...

That’s so true! Food isn’t a crime ever. It’s so great to de criminalize in our minds . Good work!

Lyn said...

questioning Anon~

That would depend on what your definition of "healthy" is. I've blogged about this before; to one person (maybe someone on strict keto), a fatty steak topped with butter and a side of bacon is their "healthy." To a vegetarian, whole grain bread or oatmeal is healthy. "Healthy" is a loaded word when it comes to describing food choices. "What benefited your body and soul today?" might be a more helpful question for many. But to answer your question from *my* point of view, what was healthy for me was all of it. I might explain more about why in another blog post sometime :)


I am not worried about macros or counting; that isn't something that's helped me in the past. I will occasionally spot check on a day here and there if I need to in the future to keep my weight in a good range. I did a bit of that earlier this year just so I have a reference point, and that's partly why I take pictures for Instagram and share my day's food on the blog often. I can go back and reference that data if I start to gain or struggle with my weight in the future.

I have seen people who eat a high carb diet and lose or maintain, so I think it *is* very individual. We each have to work out what our body does best on.

I doubt anyone reading thinks they can eat anything and lose weight. It would only take a day or two of trying that out to see it doesn't work! I share what is working for me, and that does include keeping my carby choices limited. I am very open about taking phentermine, and when I skip it (like last week) but I definitely can't recommend it for everyone. Check with your doctor first!

Anonymous said...

Not obsessing about food is the healthiest thing anyone can do, statistically. That’s why diets don’t work

Anonymous said...

I guess I just think fruits. . . veggies. . . less processed is something we all need.

But you are right, everyone has a different idea of what healthy means. Just remember that number on the scale is only one tiny portion of what overall health means. I think that is something most often forget.

Anonymous said...

*nutritionally* what was healthy?

MaryFran said...

I find that I am much more relaxed when I’m not obsessing about what I’m eating. That said, I still do track my calories...it keeps me in check from the very real and present danger of going off the rails and eating 10 Reece’s cups. Because while I can have one (one pack) 10 would be out of control.

Amy said...

I think this is not a lot of food for one day because your portions look small. As a compulsive eater I totally understand that peace with food means better mental health and less emotional eating. You don't eat that stuff every day and you are not bingeing. I think that is a perfectly normal and rational way to eat. Listening to your own body makes more sense than any other plan designed by someone else. Every day will be different. Allowing/regulating foods means you are less likely to obsess over certain foods or food groups. Sounds sensible and successful to me!

Jo said...

For those of you asking what was healthy. I would typically consider chili a healthy food - most chili has a lot of vegetables! And nuts - even in peanut butter- are healthy. It isn't necessary to eat every micro and macro nutrient every day if your overall diet over a longer period includes what you need. It sounds like Lynn is in a great place mentally and after years of struggling I am so happy for her!

Lyn said...

nutritional Anon~

well let's see. Coffee contains potassium, trace minerals, and lots of antioxidants. Eggs and ground turkey (in the chili) provide good protein and other nutrients. Olives and avocados are *super* healthy and full of good fats and nutrients. Beans (in the chili) provide lots of fiber, protein, vitamins, and minerals. Other vegetables in the chili (tomatoes, onions, peppers, garlic) have lots of nutrition and so does the pumpkin in the pie filling (homemade). Blackstrap molasses is an amazing way to supplement your minerals! Dairy fats (in cheese, sour cream, half and half) are good for you, too, in moderation (recent studies can explain the benefits if you're interested). Now, I realize that some may not see grains or carbs of any type as "healthy nutritionally" but if you look up things like cornbread, it fits in there just fine with its fiber and complex carbohydrates.

Not much junk, even if you want to count a spoon of Jif as junk. 4 corn chips, 5-6 potato chips, the sugar in the pie filling and a sugar free coffee base.

For future reference, you can take any foods that I eat or you eat and look up their nutritional value and health benefits online. Just be sure and use reliable sources.

Lyn said...

MaryFran and Amy~

Yes! And that's why for some people who have never had an emotional issue with food and don't understand food obsession can just buckle down, eat fish and vegetables all the time, and lose weight and be fine with it. They don't get the mental/emotional aspects of disordered eating. One way of eating won't work for everyone!

Lyn said...


Thanks! You said it much more concisely than I did! :)