Wednesday, March 7, 2018

Yikes!


We got home late last night from our trip out of town for medical reasons, and this morning I decided to just go ahead and weigh. Often when I go on a trip, I wait a day or two for the "trip bloat" to drop off, but in the spirit of always being honest with myself and not skipping weigh ins just because I think I won't like the number, I got on the scale. I'm up four pounds in three days! Wow. Well I know WHY and it's not just because I was in the car for hours and sitting in waiting rooms and doctor's offices for long periods. That might account for a pound or so, but the rest is actually carb bloat. I went a little overboard with the carbs on this trip. I took the phentermine, but I think in some way I wanted to have the whole "food for comfort" experience. Seeing your kid go through medical stuff is stressful. I didn't want a salad. I didn't want a bunless burger (although I did, in fact, have one for lunch on the trip). I wanted a nice, warm, grilled sandwich with soup. I wanted more potatoes than I usually allow myself. I wanted a slice of that homemade pie in the diner, and a scoop of ice cream at our favorite shop. So I had those things, and felt no guilt or shame or sense of "I shouldn't" because I don't have rules about forbidden foods anymore.

But I do have an overall "way of eating" that generally is a lot lower in carbs than I was this week, and I do want to keep losing weight... and not start a regain back to hell. So when I make these kinds of choices, I have to keep in mind the big picture weight-wise and health-wise and not let a couple of higher carb meals and a few pounds gained turn into a week, a month, a year or high carb meals and dozens of pounds gained. So today is correction course and the rest of the month is back to the usual, lower carb eating plus the increase in exercise.

Feeling good and content today, and ready to make these positive changes stick.

8 comments:

Melodie said...

Again, all I can do is stress what a big help a therapist could be in this matter.....
May I ask why you seem to be putting off finding one?
Just genuinely concerned.
I know you keep saying that none is in network but these days so many therapists are willing to work from anywhere via Skype and if you explain your situation (long term weight issues and now a sick child) you might be approved for a sliding fee?

Lyn said...

hi Melodie~

Are you the same Melodie who asked about this last week? You might have missed my answer to you about being on a wait list to get in. If you're a different Melodie I apologize! As I said in my post a couple days ago, I am starting counseling again soon. I already found one who I hope will be a good fit.

Anonymous said...

How are you able to eat so much while on an appetite suppressant drug?

Lyn said...

Anon~

Usually phentermine stops working after a couple of months. It's still working somewhat for me, but not nearly like it used to. But, an aside, I'm not eating a large volume if you compare to "normal" portions: one scoop of ice cream, or a sandwich with soup, is not overeating. But compared to the first few months on phentermine when I was full on 600 or 700 calories a day, it seems like a lot.

PamL said...

I used to think, too, that whenever I did something special, I “deserved” a treat. And taking your child in for medical issues would certainly qualify. However, I’ve been working through a book that someone in your comments recommended once- Freedom from Emotional Eating, by Barb Raveling, a 40 day Bible study on overcoming emotional eating. It’s been awesome, and I highly recommend it. I’m only almost halfway through and it’s helped me so much. What I have realized is that when I want to eat not for hunger, it’s usually due to some spiritual or emotional need that I have. Anyway, I can’t do the book justice by describing it, but I highly recommend it. It’s helped me really evaluate why I want to eat and what I want to eat, and it’s transformed my life. I’ve lost about 40 pounds in the last couple years, with about 10 to go. I have a feeling I can maintain the loss this time!

Amy said...

I like that you are normalizing foods and that this trip and those carbs are behind you. That water weight will go away quickly. Keep on the good path, it seems to be falling into place for you!

LHA said...

You are definitely on the right track. For me the important thing after a trip/holiday/special occasion is to just get right back with the correct way of eating without obsessing over a regain or feeling guilty for what I ate. We are human! The real problem occurs when we ignore the temporary gain, or give up in disgust with the "what's the use" attitude. This is a day by day endeavor, and all that really matters is you stay aware of what's going on with your eating and adjust as needed. Great job so far! Good luck going forward.

Anonymous said...

I think you have mentioned this book before to her and I purchased it because of your (and others') great reviews. I've not read it yet but I plan to start it soon!
-Natalie