Thursday, December 28, 2017

Mid-Week Update


So the day after Christmas I was up another pound (thanks ham, potatoes, cheese, fudge, and cookies) which wasn't a number I liked seeing at all (220 pounds) but hey, I knew there would be some tick up in my weight if I indulged during the few days around Christmas, so it is what it is. My today I am back down to 219 again (thanks water and protein and not much in the way of carbs) and think the remaining regained pound will be gone by this weekend. I am loving the holidays and spending time with family and just relaxing! It's nice to NOT be on either extreme with my eating anymore; I spent many, many years binge eating everything in sight including lots of on-sale "special" Christmas candy for the entire month of December... and then spent several years restricting and trying to eat NO holiday indulgences at all because I HAD to be perfect on my diet and lose weight (which never worked out very well and seemed to always end in overeating and feeling guilty about it). It's a good balance, for me, to be able to eat for weight loss all month during holidays but then allow myself a serving or two of the things I want to enjoy during Thanksgiving and Christmas. So yes, I had a sticky bun, yes, I enjoyed some Christmas cookies and candy. I had stuffing and mashed potatoes with Thanksgiving dinner and cheesy potatoes and dinner rolls on Christmas. A few days is not going to make or break it for me anymore. I'm back to eating my regular rotation (low carb and low calorie) and feeling good about it! I'm excited for what feels like a fresh start for the New Year.


16 comments:

Anonymous said...

Seems like the phentermine is slowing down in its efficacy.

Anonymous said...

It is apparent that Phentermine is no longer having a therapeutic effect on your appetite. Even if you continue the drug, you are eating as if you weren't on it. These slight gains should never be happening when one is on a strong appetite suppressant. It is time for you to really check yourself if you're serious about doing it this time.

Lyn said...

Anons~

Since I don't take phentermine when I am having a planned indulgence, I'm pretty sure that doesn't have anything to do with it. I didn't eat cookies because I was hungry; I ate them because I planned to and wanted to on those days. Make sense?

Anonymous said...

Yes, that makes sense to me. I think it's wise to do what works and not always be white-knuckling it through every holiday and special occasion. If the phentermine is still working, that's great! I hope you make your goal.

Anonymous said...

Isn't it dangerous to keep the habits that made you gain weight in the first place (cooking, baking, eating sweets on holiday)? I think it would be better to just never eat those things again.

Anonymous said...

You haven't mentioned much about exercise. What sorts of activity have you had? How often and how much? Just curious.

Lyn said...

hmmm, lots of Anons these days. Interesting.

Anon/dangerous~

I've tried the "never eat a cookie/cake/candy/french fry/etc again" route, and as you can see from my blog, that has not been a good long term solution for me. It created a lot of emotional conflict and dredged up feelings of craving and obsession about food. I think each person has to handle things differently depending on what mental state caused their weight gain. Was it just not paying attention to their intake, or casually overeating without noticing? Was it just eating too many of the wrong foods and not enough of the right ones? Or was it an emotional trigger that stems from feelings of fear, anxiety, restriction, deprivation and the resulting binge behavior and obsession/compulsion? For me it was the latter, and reducing the emotional drama and intensity around food has helped me break those habits. I never want to binge again. I don't want eating to be drama. Feeling "normal" about food is the goal here, of course along with health and weight loss, so that's why I don't just slap my own hand and shout "NO!" when there is an unhealthy food I desire. I am not going to live that way anymore. This way of eating, with occasional indulgences AND weight loss, feels very good to me. No drama, no guilt, no rebound binge eating and weight gain.

Anon/exercise~

It's been mostly lifestyle exercise the last 2 months: raking, yard work, walking dogs, mopping, cleaning, being more active in daily life.

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn,

It sounds like you are enjoying your family time during this holiday season and using food in a way that works with your history (food addiction recovery) and your present (appetite suppression with Phentermine).

I'd like to hear more about the latter, in particular, how it works with the appetite going on and off Phentermine, any side effects or other experiences and how your appetite is during the holiday.

Looking forward to hearing more from you in the New Year!

Lisa

Betsey C. said...

Happy New Year, Lyn! I enjoyed my holidays in moderation, just like you did. I gained 1 lb. during Christmas week, which will come off quickly.

Lyn said...

Anon/Lisa~

Thanks, I really had a nice Christmas and feel happy... not stressed :) I will definitely do a blog post with more about my phentermine experience. But in brief, when I take it I don't get hungry much until 4-ish. When I skip it I get hungry sooner but not ravenous, and still feel satisfied with a small portion.

Betsey~

Thanks! I'm glad you had a good holiday season and I'm sure that pound will melt right back off!

Anonymous said...

I didn't know one could go on and off phentermine and selectively overeat/indulge. Sounds like you have found the miracle drug..!

Lyn said...

last Anon~

not a miracle, just an appetite suppressant. And not to nitpick but I didn't overeat. When I say "indulge" I am talking about eating a food I normally don't eat due to its nutritional profile, like a cookie. I pretty much am undereating for weight loss when I take phentermine (500-700 cal/day) and when I was off it I would guess closer to 1200-1500.

Anonymous said...

I hope that it keeps working for you! Bring in the exercise and strength training to keep the metabolism up?

Anonymous said...

Oh, yay! You're instagramming meals again.

In future if you do take holiday "diet breaks" I think you might want to photograph those too. That way you can see what a reasonable indulgence has looked like in the past. For me at least it's psychologically healthy to be mindful of my food even when it isn't "ideal."

Amy said...

It sounds like you are making peace with food, which is allowing you peace in other areas of your life! That sounds like a sensible approach that will likely yield long-term success! I’m so happy for you!

Anfisa said...

I agree. That way both you and your dr can actually SEE your intake most days.
Happy new year Lynn!