Sunday, August 6, 2017

10 Years of This


This past Friday marked my 10-year Bloggiversary... ten years since I started this blog back in 2007. Ten years of this! I lost 103 pounds and gained most of it back, and last year I swore up and down that I was so done messing around with this and was DETERMINED to get the weight back off by my ten year blog anniversary, or quit blogging.

Obviously I have not gotten the weight back off. I hit 260 pounds at the start of this year, and have only lost about ten pounds since then. I also made a goal last year to finish my "Fat Mom Across America" biking journey by my ten year anniversary. That didn't happen either.

Well, enough with the talk and no action. So I won't be posting again until I am under 240 pounds. If I never get under 240 pounds, I won't be posting again. At all.

Hope to "talk" with you again soon. But if not, it's been a good run. I loved the wonderful highs of seeing my body getting smaller and healthier, reaching new goals, seeing the difference in photos every ten pounds. I so enjoyed the great community that blogging created. Getting to experience the rewards of all my hard work was worth it, and a blessing. Thank you for being here along the way.


46 comments:

Leslie said...

Best always to you Lyn. I believe you can and will achieve your goals, but you must know that you are 100% you, no matter what. Smart, caring, and kind. Earnest, hard working and passionate. A real human, just like the rest of us.
I identify so much with your struggle and am always striving to love and care for myself just as I am in the present. I know you are doing the same. I hope it isn't long before you're back to share your successes, not just the physical ones. I always miss your posts when you're on "hiatus"!

401Sue said...

Great! I look forward to hearing from you. YOU got this!

Kai Klaarika said...

I hope to see you back as soon as possible! Good luck! We can do it!

Astrid said...

Sending good thoughts your way. Thanks for sharing your journey with us

Anonymous said...

It's not the fastest runner that finishes the race. It's the persistence that matters whether you are walking, crawling or trotting. Sure, everyone claps and cheers and gives medals to the one who crosses first, who runs fast and never wavers. But what I truly appreciate is the one who, hours after the other runners have quit or gone home and there are only a few left waiting, crosses that line having dragged themselves, suffered, pushed through the pain and finally MADE IT. That is you my friend. I will be waiting at this finish line no matter how long it takes, because I know you are never going to give up. You will make it and we will be here cheering for you!

Amy said...

I really love reading your blog, not just when you're losing but always. I hope you keep blogging no matter what. Saying you'll only talk about weight if you are a certain weight is like asking a suicidal person not to talk about wanting to harm themselves until they are already feeling better. I think blogging is like hashing through things, working it out on paper. I will miss you if you don't blog, but I will think about you and be cheering for you with or without the blog.

TheAgonyOfBeingFat said...

Look forward to hearing from you in September!

Rose Sperlonga said...

Thanks for sharing with us Lyn! You'll be back. Its almost therapeutic to write. I love to read your blog... like someone else said not because of weight but because you keep it real. You show the pain and not just the glory that we all face .

I wish you luck!
You'll get there!

:)
Rose

Anonymous said...

I have enjoyed your blog almost from the beginning, and wish you the very best! I really hope you will "come back" one way or another! You have had an impact on many people like me who don't comment, but read every word you have to say! Thank you.

Anonymous said...

Nooooooooooooooooo :( :( :( Say it isn't so!!!!! Lyn, your blog is my absolutely favorite in the whole wide world. I'm so sad that you won't be blogging. Ahhhh I've been following you for years. :( Ugh. I'm hoping you get under 240 really fast. Please came back Lyn. We all need each other. Sending hugs and I wish you the best! -Natalie

Anonymous said...

I hope to see you posting soon as you achieve 240. You are so very bra e to even post a blog. I have enjoyed traveling along the journey with you even if it's only online. If you decide to use another platform for support please let me know. I'm on my fitness pal. Best of luck to you and sending prayers.
Theresa
Teagranny5

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn, It's Nan from Phoenix. I gained all my weight back too, so I can sure empathize with you. I recently tried starting back to water aerobics and joined Planet Fitness to do weight training on the machines. I lost 5 lbs. without even changing my diet, although I sure need to do that. Give weight training a try if you haven't done that. I think you will see some results again. I think weight training could be your key and you can do it at home if you don't have access to a gym or don't want to do that. I have the same thyroid condition you do, so I know how hard it is to lose weight and keep it off, but whenever I do weight training consistently, with or without any aerobic type exercise, I lose inches and pounds. Try the exercises in Jorge Cruise's book, 8 Minutes in the Morning. I lost 25 pounds a few years ago in approximately 3 months doing those exercises. It's 2 exercises a day for 6 days a week. Use hand weights and even some ankle weights if your knees allow that. I increased the weight as my body got used to a particular weight. I could only lift 2 pound weights when I started. After 3 months I was using 5 to 6 pound weights. It takes about 15 minutes per day. Then I walked for 15 minutes or so on most days. Best wishes to you and I hope you find what works best for you. I sure don't like strict dieting any more. Once I stopped dieting, the weight all came back. I hope you will still post every now and then. Love, Nan from Phoenix

Alison said...

I hope you come back. You have been such an inspiration to me over the past 6 years, you have made a solid impact on my life. Just know you will be missed and thought of!

Susan R said...

I will miss you Lyn. I have always admired you for being so self disclosing. I know that was not always easy because as humans we try to hide our flaws. I wish you every bit of happiness that life has to offer. ❤️Susan

Anonymous said...

You can rock this! I checked your biking page and even with the stall, you have ridden more miles this year than Eric "Fat Guy Across America." Since he inspired you, perhaps you can use this as inspiration and finish your ride before he finishes his? That may inspire him back, to finish his trip!

Anonymous said...

P.S.
You don't "deserve" it more at 240. You're a gifted writer and that doesn't change no matter how many changes the scale shows. I should have started my comment with that!!!
Teagranny

Anonymous said...

Awwww no. Please don't stop blogging Lyn. Please.

Maria said...

A few years ago, I had this realization about how often I let numbers represent my self-worth. Credit scores, weight, salary, blood pressure...etc. I made a vow that I would never again let numbers of any sort define who I am. It was very freeing. If you want to write, write. If you don't, that's fine too just know that who you are is so much more than a number on a scale or a lab report. Thank you for sharing your journey. God bless you.

heidi said...

I had a realization a few years ago. I am going to be fighting my weight every day for the rest of my life. My sugar/carb preferences will lead to unlimited weight gain if I ate what I wanted in the quantities I want. Every day will be a day of thinking about wanting to be thinner and "eating healthier" than I naturally want to eat. I will think about it whether I am fat or thin. People who lose a massive amount of weight are NEVER able to quit thinking about it and eat what they what in the quantities they want without regain. There is no finish line to this fight. I will either berate myself for being overweight every day or continue to fight the fight every day. I have come to accept that. That is my cross. As far as crosses go, it's not the heaviest burden and I try to remember that. In a world where MANY worry about not having enough to eat, I am blessed that my biggest struggle is to not eat too much. I think once you get to a certain age and start experiencing the health consequences of obesity, there is no such thing as fat acceptance. So there is no hope of eliminating the daily mind struggle, which is what I truly hate about being fat. I hate all the energy I give to thinking about food or dieting. But I have accepted that regardless of size, I will be fighting my natural inclination to eat six servings of ice cream or a package of cookies until they are gone. That's ok. I only originally gained a lot of weight during periods of time where I quit trying and ate what I wanted and ignored the scale. As long as I am not actively gaining I consider it a success. Because at times I will have the ambition to lose a little and be hungry all the time... But it sticking to my current weight during times of apathy or stress that is the true trick.

christine said...

Numbers may not measure your worth but they sure can be a clue to the state of your health (fitness, finances,whatever). Ignoring or denying problems doesn't solve the issues the numbers are telling you about, and some of those issues can get worse or become irreversible over time.

So good luck, do what's best for you, change your mind if you need to, lots of positivity, etc. But not with your eyes closed.

Diana said...

Hello my dear Lyn. I get it. I'm so sick of this too, but as Heidi commented above, this is our cross to bear. The fight is for life, but it's really our only option. I know you love being active and I know you never give up. So really, the you will have to keep fighting the good fight to be at a healthy weight.

I know the challenges your daughter has faced has probably taken all your energy, and the thought of tracking a focusing on weight loss is just not on your radar right now. But it will be. I know you, you'll be back.

I know I mentioned this before, but there are some amazing podcasts out there now. It's like they've replaced the blogs and are a lot more helpful. Here's a short list of my favorites (although I have many more). If you can find the time, take a listen. They have a different, and I think more realistic approach to weight loss.

Half Size Me with Heather Robertson
Primal Potential - Mastering Fat Loss Naturally - Elizabeth Benton <--she has a great blog too
Cut the S#!t Get Fit -- listen to Episode 55 with Dr. Jade Teta

I had about 20 others I loved, but sadly I accidentally deleted everything on my phone and am slowly finding them all again. Take a listen. I think they'll help.

Love you my friend. And I'll miss you until you come back!
Kind regards, Diana

FrenchyMcFrenchcake said...

Good luck! I have to disagree with the above commentators. Are used to think that way as well. But after finding a good specialist being in therapy and doing some other personal work I no longer feel that it is a life sentence. I've made great progress and I little longer obsess about my weight calories etc. I am near a regular weight but it's been slow and psinstacking process. In my case any diet or food program etc. has been trying to fix an internal problem externally I find that I can eat whatever I feel like eating at this point and not over eat. But again it took me years of therapy and hard work to get here.

PamL said...

Thanks, Diana, for those podcasts recommendations! I love listening while I walk, and I was kind of bored with my list right now. I like the Trim Healthy Mama podcast with Serene and Pearl. They have a specific way of eating, but their podcast also has a lot of great tips.

Lyn, good luck on your journey! For your own health, please don't give up! You can become healthy and happy. It takes a LOT of work and effort, but being healthy is truly the better choice. Good luck to you, and I hope to see you blogging again one day!

Kristi said...

Here is a thought for you to ponder.

So what if you are almost exactly where you were 10 years ago, can you imagine where you would be if you haven't been trying to for ten years? Do you want to risk the next ten years NOT trying? I'm assuming you would be in your mid 60's by then. Picture your life then after 10 years of not trying.

Deniz said...

Well said Heidi. The battle may be won but the war never ends.
Setbacks are never far away, but the best thing we can do (and often the bravest) is pick ourselves up and keep on fighting.
Lyn, you have been such a wonderful inspiration to me for years. I will be rooting for you and looking forward to reading of your success.

Anonymous said...

I admire you for blogging for ten years through your ups and downs.
It's not easy to keep blogging through weight gains

Anonymous said...

I am coming up to ten years soon. it is not all plain sailing, but is IS doable. please do not lose hope xx

Fat Grump said...

Lyn, I have followed your blog for years...I think I found you in 2009 and your words and your common sense have been so inspiring. You have articulated my thoughts many times.

I too gave up blogging, mainly because I wasn't making enough weight-loss progress to be worth reading any more. I enjoyed musing about the philosophical aspects of a woman facing life as it's lived and the choices she has to make if she is to lose weight successfully.

It takes incredible commitment, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year. I concluded it was impossible to live a life focused on what I ate and how I moved. It was messing with my head and well being, although ironically, my well-being was what it was all about. Self love is important but it's so easy to put it on the back burner.

I think you came to the same conclusions although your commitment to the cause remained much stronger than mine and I suspect you won't give upon yourself either.

I just want to say thank you Lyn for taking us through the highs and lows and for writing about it so well. Your story is inspiring and although like so many of us you've found long term weight loss an impossibility, your focus has been inspirational.

Time to just 'be' now, perhaps? I have tried to see my happiness in all its forms and appreciate that being overweight isn't good for me, but life goes on and I am better for not obsessing about my size. I too want to shed my excess weight but I am not prepared to sacrifice my mental health for a goal I find difficult to reach. I am the proverbial tortoise. I intend to cross the finishing line one day! I succeed or not by my own efforts but when those efforts muddy my life and thinking I have had to reassess what it's all about.

Lyn, I wish you and your loved ones all the best. I'll miss you being there, writing about the joys and the difficulties. Your honesty is a shining light in the world of weight loss ambition. Thank you, but please come back one day, whether you lose that weight or not. You have made the struggle real and I thank you.

liz said...

Lyn,
I know we will be reading your blog again soon. You can and will do this. My weight has parallel yours over the years. I refuse to stop fighting. Please keep trying.
My new mantra is SUGAR IS POISON! Which it is.
Praying for you

gemma said...

I'm rooting for you. You know you can do it because you have done it. Just keep going on and you will get there.

Diana said...

Lyn - I keep checking back to see if you've posted, and I feel sad when I don't see you here. I miss you!

I think I've mentioned this to you before, but here it goes again. Please check out the Half Size Me community. I joined six months ago and it's really changed my life. http://www.halfsizeme.com/

It costs $19.95 and it's worth every penny. The podcasts are free and you don't have to join to listen. They're so inspirational and there are five years of free podcasts available. Most people have lost over 100 pounds and kept it off for a number of years. The founder, Heather Robertson lost 110 pounds and has kept it off for 11 years.

They don't promote any specific diet. Most people do Weight Watchers or just count calories (like me), and a lot of people do Paleo or a version of it, and there are several other diets. You pick what's best for you. No one condemns whatever choice you make, they're just a really supportive group. Reminds me of the old days of blogging.

If you join, you get access to all sorts of material that Heather has put together to help people. The binge eating class was great for me, and it's all included in the price. Also you can get on the Half Size Me Community Facebook, which is wonderful. It's a closed group, and the people are awesome. The stories are amazing, and people post all sorts of information. Recipes, exercise ideas, posts of people struggling and comments of support and how they can beat this. There's also recommendations of other podcasts and websites that I didn't know existed. There's so much new stuff out there. It's not just about about eating less and moving more. There's so much more information.

I know you're like me, where we think we know it all, but we don't. There's so much knowledge out there and ideas on how people are beating obesity. I strongly encourage to at least give this a listen. I don't get anything for recommending it, I just think it would be so helpful for you. It'll fill that gap that blogging had for your. Please. Give a try. Just listen to a few podcasts. Half Size Me.

Take care and I miss you! I hope your well and healthy, and your sweet baby girl is doing good. You're always in my thoughts and prayers. Someday we'll meet up, I know we will. :)
Kindest regards, Diana

Anonymous said...

So Lyn, it has been almost a month since you posted this. I hope you will reconsider and come back with an update. We miss you! Your blog is part of my daily check in. I am wondering how you are doing and keeping a mental tab in my head. If you were about 250 lbs when you left, I can assume you are losing 1-2 pounds a week so you could be between 242 and 246 now. Keep it up and we should see a post from you within 2 to 6 weeks! I will keep coming to see. But if you have not lost weight please do reconsider and come back anyway because your writing and sharing is worth so much. Blessings.

Amy said...

Yes, I miss you, too! We love you as you are and enjoy sharing stories with you. So many of us are in the same boat, yet we're still afloat because we're in it together! I understand your reasoning but I still hope you come back no matter what and we'll continue battling the beast together!

Leslie said...

Thinking of you and missing you, Lyn. Hope all is well. I look forward to your return. No matter what shape any of us are in, we are enough, just as we are.

Anonymous said...

Lyn, like so many, I keep checking back, hoping you have posted something, anything.
Your struggle is our struggle.
Hope you and your family are well.
And if you chose not to return, I (we) undetstand............

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn,
Sorry you're still struggling. Best wishes always, Marianne

Steelers6 said...

I just came by to see how you and the fam are doing. Well, anyway, hello friend. I hope life is treating you well. All my best, Chrissy

Anonymous said...

I'm trying to think (hope) outside the box here and the fact that you approve comments to be posted gives me a little glimmer that you may (someday) be back. Pleaseeeeeese. :) Pretty please?

Anonymous said...

Still thinking about you and wishing you all the best. I joined WW (thanks to reading Diana135)
So far 5.4 losses in three weeks. Slow but sure!
Theresa

Anonymous said...

I also have hope because you are updating comments. I saw you updated your bike page too. Watching for any more glimpses of how you're doing. Soon I hope!

Susan R said...

Miss you Lyn!

Alison said...

miss you! hope you're doing ok.

Anonymous said...

Miss you Lyn.

Anonymous said...

Come backkkkkkkk

Anonymous said...

i just stumbled on your blog - wish you were still updating it - it feels like you are writing my story.....

Anonymous said...

Lyn,

I've been reading your archives and think you're a wonderful writer. You might consider that if you don't wish to write a blog you could pursue other creative writing projects. Short stories? Memoir? A novel? I don't say this to flatter you or blow smoke. I'm a big reader and I think you're talented, that's all.

I also thought that you might want to stop by halfsizeme.com or listen to some of those podcasts. They helped me out a lot, especially the sensible recommendation to cut calories as little as possible and to get exercise mostly by walking. I'm not affiliated with them, I just like the podcasts. I especially like that Heather talks a lot about moderation even though she's lost a ton of weight. You dono't see that enough but it is the answer for most people who actually maintain weight and health longterm.

Also and I promise this is the last thing, have you tried looking at your diet on cronometer.com? I just found this site and... omg I sound like an ad, but I swear I'm not. It's just cool how they let you track every single nutrient you take in to see if you have any deficiencies. It's totally changed my dietary mindset from arbitrary restriction like Paleo to 'OK, what nutrients do I actually need to ADD, not subtract?'

After all, if this is about your health longterm, even if you always weigh 250 pounds, you can take care of yourself better. The same goes for anyone reading this, by the way.

I'm sorry I'm anonymous. I don't have a wordpress account.