Friday, March 3, 2017

FAT Tuesday


I really appreciate all the comments, thoughts, and advice I got in the comments of my last post and via email. It's so good to know that even when I am feeling down and not sure which way to turn diet-wise, people are caring and supportive and not judgmental. That means a lot to me. For those who were worried I was falling into a depression, don't worry! It was just a normal fluctuation in mood. We all have happy days and harder, sad times... and overall, I am feeling good and happy (although not content about my weight right now, but that is what motivates change).

Well, I'm still too fat. But I had a kind of cool experience this week at church. We had a special service for Ash Wednesday this week. That's not something I am very familiar with. I wasn't raised observing Lent, but when someone would remind me that it was "Fat Tuesday" you can bet I was all about that! Even this year, we joked about it and ordered pizzas for dinner and one of my sons brought home a box of Cadbury Creme Eggs for "dessert." I never noted any spiritual significance to any of this, personally, but I got to thinking more about it during our service. The sermon talked about how giving something up for Lent is not about torturing yourself by giving up something you really like. It is a reminder that every time you think about wanting that thing you gave up, it reminds you of your need for God. There was more to it than that but I thought that part was pretty insightful. So although I did indulge in the Fat Tuesday pizza and candy, I decided to give up sugary desserts for Lent (until Easter). If I want something sweet I will stick with fresh fruits or sugar free sweets. I am also adding daily Bible reading to my goals, even if only for a few minutes a day. It can only make things better!

Aside from those small changes, I am doing a few other things to try to remedy my problem of being too fat. I'm making sure to keep walking a couple of miles most days and I decided not to buy chips anymore. I can still have them if they are available at parties, dinners, or potlucks but just won't have them at home.

I know those are two very small changes in how I eat. I was eating chips and/or desserts a couple times a week, so I think cutting those things out will help. I feel like I am teetering on the edge of weight loss or gain: a small uptick in food would result in gaining weight, and a small restriction will result in loss. Everything else is staying the same for now, except for the continued walking. I lost 7 pounds in January and maintained in February, so I'd expect to start losing again in March with these couple of changes. I don't want to do anything drastic or overly restrictive to "rock the boat" emotionally so to speak. I am still cautious about keeping my recovery from ED first and foremost... keeping the emotional calm about food that took me so long to cultivate.


10 comments:

Sana said...

Have a wonderful Month of March!

Anonymous said...

Your persistence is refreshing. Too many people are in a rush and will do "anything" just to lose weight short term. It's good to see someone who is working out the long term.

Maria said...

Are you familiar with Lisa Tykhurst's (spelling ?) bible study ' Made to Crave'? You may want to check it out. It gave me a lot to think about regarding my relationship with food, my relationship with God, and how the two are connected.

Anonymous said...

There is also, Women, God and Food by Geneen Roth. And the 12 step organizations that basically promote the same ideas. OA (Overeaters Anonymous) and EDA (eating disorders anonymous)
To check out.

Lyn said...

Maria~

I have heard of it but not read it. I will check it out, thanks.

Anon~

I think I read that book some time ago. I like Geneen Roth's books but have never been able to make her intuitive eating approach work for me. I hadn't heard of EDA so I will see if that is something they have locally. Thanks!

MaryFran said...

I am in he same place as you. Teetering on the edge of gain and loss! i also need to make the few small changes to make myself fall into the 'loss' category!!!

We can do this!!!

Anonymous said...

Hope you are finding balance and on track to losing this month

Anonymous said...

Freedom From Emotional Eating by Barb Raveling - It is a bible study and it changed my life. I am losing weight every month by renewing my mind with God's truth and wiping out the lies of Satan and by me. This is the most beneficial diet book if you want to call it that i've ever read - I change my boundaries every 40 days last 40 was no refined sugar no bagels 3 meals 2 snacks per day and only 1 diet soda per day and 1 cup of coffee. I made the boundaries and then refine them every 40 days I do nothing else no counting calories no obsessing over the scale etc. I lost 14 pounds. The reason for limiting the beverages was to insure i drank more water... i cut out bagels because i think i love them... and so i wanted to break free from them....please try it I think you'll be amazed. You can get it on Amazon. I also love her app I deserve a donut. I don't want this to read like a solicitation but I see so much of me in you that I felt that if I hold the key to unlocking your chains then I must tell you about it. I did weight loss surgery and it works but weight loss surgery doesn't change your thinking and the things you tell yourself and the things youve programmed yourself to believe all these years are nothing but strongholds that will control you forever until you change them. You deserve this Lyn - You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Honor Him by loving yourself the way He loves you. I am praying for you my friend.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing, from one anonymous to another. :) Im going to buy this book from Amazon. It looks great and as a Christian woman, I would love to read this. I know that so much of my struggle is spiritual and goes further than "I love food." Thanks for the recommendation!

-Natalie

PamL said...

Lyn, here's a really interesting article I just read that relates to Hashimito's, which if I remember correctly you were possibly diagnosed with. It's worth reading.
http://goop.com/the-medical-medium-and-whats-potentially-at-the-root-of-medical-mysteries/