Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Feeling Great!

Since I hit my recent regain high of 260 pounds at the start of the month, I knew it was time to reverse the physical "damage" that the emotional eating recovery has cost me. It was worth the price of a gain to get to where I finally am emotionally, but that doesn't mean I want to stay fat forever! Plus, my blood pressure has been slowly creeping back up. There are still health concerns that have much to do with my size, what I eat, and my activity level: the blood pressure, the sort of high blood sugar (not to the pre-diabetes level yet, but I don't want to get there either), the autoimmune thyroid disease, and the arthritis. All of those things will benefit from me losing weight, so that's what I am aiming for. I am not so concerned about getting triggered by dieting anymore; I think that healing process is done now. Food has become normal and I am able to look at any food objectively. That is a pretty cool thing. I can see a cake and really FEEL like I don't want to eat that because it isn't good for me. The taste and emotion of a cake is not the primary driver anymore. I guess if you've ever had that kind of emotional, obsessive relationship with food, you'll understand. It helps that eating healthy foods makes the junk less appealing, too.

I'm not weighing in right now because I am focused on adapting my eating to a lower carb framework; that won't change no matter what the scale says. That's another thing that's different: my eating is not going to be scale-driven anymore. The scale, however, will be eating-driven. So I will check in with it around the first of the month.

Dinner tonight is in the crock pot already: chicken thighs (yes organic, free range!) with onions, fresh pumpkin, garlic, curry powder, salt and pepper, chicken broth, and coconut milk. I'll add fresh broccoli and mushrooms an hour or so before it's ready to serve. The family will get rice, but I don't need any! I love curries and will be enjoying my delicious meal without adding any extra carbs.

Hope you are well and life is happy for you all!


Luna1959 said...

Sounds like you're in a good place Lyn! I'm happy for you! Dinner sounds yummy too!

Anonymous said...

I agree, carbs are key. I keep trying to find a way of eating that involves carbs, but as soon as I eat any (particularly wheat products like bread and pasta) I get hungry all the time. Carbs also make me get hypoglycemic attscks. It's a lot easier to calm the urges when carbs are low, but it's hard for me to do. When I get in a good place ithink one piece of bread won't hurt, then when I get away with that, a little more, and back on the merry-go-round. I think some of us are just carb intolerant! Best wishes for 2017, year of the rooster!

Lyn said...

Thanks Luna! I feel like this is the place I've been trying to get to. Even when I had lost 100 pounds I was not quite to this place emotionally. I think getting *here* is the key to losing without regain.


I'm pretty sure I will have bread again at some point, or a small piece of cake for a birthday or something, but now is not the time for me to do that. I know getting those things out of my diet help me lose weight. I know that also will help in maintenance so my habit will remain to eat low carb as a general rule. I just feel better overall eating this way :)

For those who commented several posts back or emailed me about some "lost" posts, thanks. I think I found them all as drafts and re-published them. Not sure why they reverted to drafts.

Anonymous said...

When are you posting again?? I miss your posts and am very curious how the weight is coming along!

Lyn said...

last Anon~

I might post tonight or tomorrow, but will definitely post a weigh in for February 1, as that is when I am getting on the scale next. Thanks for asking!

LHA said...

Lyn, I have followed your journey for some time and I appreciate you taking the time to blog. Interestingly, you have arrived at exactly the same place I arrived a couple of years ago in terms of what you think your eating needs to be to lose weight and keep it off. Like you, it took me many years of losing and gaining to get to this place. I save the carby foods for very special occasions and eat low carb and sugar free the rest of the time. I am still struggling at times when I do decide to eat the birthday cake/Christmas cookies, etc. I eat it, I enjoy it, I don't feel guilty, and I try to get right back to my regular eating afterward. Sometimes this still sets off cravings and overeating for a few days afterward, sometimes not. Anyway, as you go forward I am interested in seeing how things work for you. I expect I will learn some new things by following your journey. Best of luck going forward!

Janet said...

Hi there!

What did you do to accomplish freedom from triggered eating/disordered eating? VERY curious as I am where you were/are in terms of regain/struggling with disordered eating.


Lyn said...


It was a long and complex process, so I'd hate to try and describe it in a comment. I might try and summarize it in a post sometime, but if you read over my posts from the last year you can actually "watch" the process happening. The past six months or so are where a lot of the mental work went in to "normalizing" food and making food, dieting, and restricting non-triggering to me. Hope that helps for now... I was not blogging as often this past year so it shouldn't be too hefty a task :)