Thursday, August 18, 2016

I Don't Want to Ride


It started yesterday. Have you ever had that kind of busy, emotionally and physically draining day where all you can think about is getting home, taking off your bra and plopping down with a bag of chips to watch mindless TV? (No? Am I the only one who decompressed that way??) Yesterday was that kind of day. Lots of driving, taking care of a sick kitten, taking a dog to the vet and going shopping and hitting the mall, meeting another mom and kids for a playdate. Getting things ready for school, paying the bills, and running errands. Then coming home to company for dinner but having to get back in the car again to take my daughter bowling with friends... and then having to go back and get her afterwards. Just total general Mom stuff... nothing huge... but it didn't give me time to let my brain relax or sit down and chill for a bit, at all. I even missed my usual quiet time in the morning having coffee because I was out the door by 6:45 meeting other rescue folks to help some animals. I'm not complaining... I chose this life and I do love it. But generally I love it more with an hour or two of free time in my day. I soooooo did not want to bike in between all of this... but I did it - twice.

Yesterday I did two rides of 3.7 and 2.4 miles, for a total of 6.1 miles. I did it grudgingly and muttered to myself a bit on the bike, but I did it because I am committed and I want better health for myself. And I want to reach my goal of getting this 3,035 mile ride across America done by my blog anniversary next August.

The scenery was pretty as usual, riding through Washington and passing by Martin Island on the Columbia River.


I do love the views here in the Pacific Northwest. It's pretty flat along this stretch of highway.


That was yesterday. Want to know how much I rode today? That's right, a bit, fat zero miles. Even though I was home for most of today, I did not feel like riding the bike AT ALL. I wanted to watch TV and eat chocolate bars all afternoon. But instead I am working on laundry and cooking and cleaning, more basic Mom stuff. I feel happier today and am still committed to getting on the bike before the day is over. I'll hop on after dinner and see how far I can get!

The difference between the old me and the current me? The old me gave in and ate chips or candy bars and watched TV and skipped the biking. The current me says NOPE, and gets on the bike anyway. I am finally getting back into the mindset that i was in when I lost this weight the first time: the only option is to DO IT.

I will update my miles in the comments later and also on My Virtual Mission.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Riding when you don't feel like it is a victory! Be proud of that.

Lyn said...

Tonight's ride: 5.3 miles. No, I did not want to do it. But I did it anyway, and I feel good about it!

nic0ll3tt3 said...

I think everyone has days like that! It's very very normal. :)

Kudos for keeping at it though! On days like that, I like to just remind myself that yes, I DO enjoy the gym, and I also tell myself that this is just a habit. That my workout is a habit and that this is just what I do (even if my brain is telling me it doesn't want to). I don't know why, but this seems to work for me a lot!

-Nikki

Anonymous said...

Have you stepped back to take a look at how yesterday's "busy/annoying/different" day could possibly be playing a role in your not wanting to bike today? Yesterday you had to do a lot of things you didn't want to, or didn't feel like doing. As a result, you may feel that you deserve a break- where you just zone out or decompress (and don't bike). I see this as a similar pattern with many weight loss bloggers- sometimes their triggers are not as easy to recognize as they might think. If you think of exercise as a chore, it will always be a chore. Shift your thinking so that exercise IS the equivalent of you taking your bra off and surfing the net in your recliner, and you'll be across the country in no time!! Go Lyn!

Gina said...

You hit the nail on the head with this ride. What we feel like doing doesn't nourish us the way following through with the discipline of self care. Sometimes we have to treat ourselves like our favorite child and deny the demands for more whatever and provide the discipline that they need. You may not always succeed in that, we don't always with our kids either. But over the long haul we raise responsible adults. I celebrate your choice to be disciplined and treat your body to some good biking even though it probably sucked - until you were done and then you have done it again! Keep pedaling sister!

Anonymous said...

I am so proud of you of disciplining yourself to work towards your goal, even if you don't feel like it! I wish I can gather that courage too pretty soon! Roxanne

Anonymous said...

If you make triple strength coffee, add 1/4 cup of honey, cool it and ice it, drink that in a water bottle as you ride and it gives you energy to go longer. Good luck!

Anonymous said...

I'm glad to see you're able to ride again. Was raining here tonight and had to resort to the gym.

Take care - Kim

Anonymous said...

Yikes anon, a quarter cup of honey has 250 calories and 70 carbs and wouldn't be very filling.

Anonymous said...

I think you found the root of your problem, now you just have to work at overcoming it. You are always looking for something better, easier, more entertaining, etc. even with sticking to stuff--like medifast for a while longer--you had to change things up. Is there possibly an aspect of ADD in your life? You have such a hard time sticking to things, always changing, never just doing something because you have to. Or maybe you do things so much over and over that the area of your life you want change. Whatever it is, just keep going, no matter how much you don't want to or eventually even hate it. As I tell my kids there are many things in my life I don't like doing, cleaning the toilet, washing dishes 3 times a day, mopping the floor, but I still do it. Life is not all fun and games and full of things to entertain you. Sometimes, you just have to lump it and do it. I really thing that is how eating to live comes into reality instead of living to eat. Eating has become just fueling my body to me. Is it less enjoyable than years ago of going to a restaurant and eating whatever I wanted, stopping at the store and picking up the latest ice cream and bakery items and new flavored chips and eating them all before I got home? Yes. But overall, my life is more enjoyable because
Instead of eating by myself, I am doing activities with others, my family and friends that I was never able to do because of my body size or my ability or my embarrassment level, kayaking, power walking in the mornings with a local group, working at my sons band fittings--on the ground--hemming, learning to race props out on the football field for half time while everyone is looking at me. I hope that you will continue the fight and not try to "change it up." We would love to have you out here living life instead "taking off your bra" and hiding on your couch, watching tv. The more weight you lose the more energy you will have to experience life and the love of excess food is the price of admission. Are you able to pay that steep price? No one else can help, it's gotta all be you! You've done it before but didn't stay long. Forget the extra skin (I have 15 pounds of it hanging around my butt--but still am down to an 8--it will all work out--you may just have to lose a little more to compensate for it), and remember the enjoyment you had and lost.

Cassie

Anonymous said...

No please don't take that much honey when you are trying to loose weight!

Anonymous said...

Agreed.

Alison said...

I'm proud of you for riding when you really didn't want to. Been there, done that. Like you said, the only option is to just do it. Unless you're injured or sick of course. But I have days where there's nothing wrong with me except I just don't want to go. I'm always proud of myself after I go [to the gym] and do my miles, and I'm proud of you, too.