Thursday, July 14, 2016

Self is Last


Do you ever feel like you just can't get enough things done in a day? I am having that kind of week right now. I have all the intentions to fit in a walk and a bike ride every day, but it isn't getting done. I am getting lots of *other* things done, but as with most Moms I tend to put my own needs on the back burner and put everyone else in the family first. It's crazy because when my kids were little I felt like I never had any time, but I was so sure that when they got to be teens and older I would be so free! I remember when I had 3 little babies/toddlers and one of my good friends had ONE toddler and three older kids ranging from 10 to 16. I thought, "wow, why is she still so frazzled? Why is her yard and house still a mess when she has all those older kids to do all that work for her?" Ha, yeah. Well I got a taste of reality when I had teens: teens are WAY more work than I thought! Even with really good kids who do chores and help, their needs do not diminish just because they are adult sized! Now my boys are all 20+ so they really *are* mostly independent. Three of them need very little from me aside from the usual support, love, and family time. But as they move out of the house, their old chores fall to me. And lately I have been on a rampage getting rid of things that were just collecting dust! I had saved lots of old toys, furniture, and household stuff thinking they would come in handy someday. And as they have moved out they have also left a lot of their stuff here in boxes and tubs... some that they intended to come back for later, and some that they will probably never want again. So my task this week has been sorting all the boxes that are stacked in the guest room and the garage, checking with the boys as to what they want or don't want that was theirs, and donating a lot of things to others in need. It is a lot of fun (I like to sort and clean and is kind of cathartic) but a lot of work and takes hours. I get sucked into it and then have to still run errands, cook dinner, care for the dogs, go to appointments and spend time with my kids who still live at home. My daughter has a lot of playdates and youth group stuff, and we hang out with friends a couple times a week. Bottom line is, I am putting my own physical health LAST by not walking and biking... and that has to change NOW.

I don't want to stay fat, I really don't. I want to see results from the restriction (I am back to eating mostly protein and produce in small amounts; if my eyeballing is close I am eating between 800 and 1200 calories a day). I feel better when I exercise, too. So yeah, no more excuses, I am getting in the exercise EVERY day.

This weight loss thing is annoying sometimes so I want to get it finished within a year and then just focus on maintaining the loss.

6 comments:

Distractions@work said...

I'm sure you are working up a sweat with all that organizing so don't be too hard on yourself but as you say, walking and biking make you feel great so I hope you make the time.

Gina said...

Hey beautiful! Sorting and packing and hauling off is exercise too! Especially for us big women it can be exhausting. Kinda like strength training through chores. It feels so good to purge belongings. Sounds like you are lamenting the cardio missing from your day. Good fodder for getting back to it! Enjoy the process and drink lots of water. Blessings - Gina

Lyn said...

Thanks guys! Yes, I've made time for it today and will continue to do so. Sometimes all I need is to write it out and make the commitment :) It feels in a way like I am moving on to a new phase in my life. I wasn't feeling ready to do that a year ago but now I am embracing the changes. And I need to be fit and healthy to enjoy this new time in my life!

Anonymous said...

Every Mom can relate to this. It's in our nature. Good luck with the exercise!

Anonymous said...

The last sentence of your post troubles me. I lost 120 pounds six years ago and have kept it off. But let me tell you, maintenance requires as much focus and discipline (if not more) than losing. I exercise pretty strenuously for at least an hour six days a week, and stay on my eating plan five days a week. I eat in moderation on the weekends. Add to that the fact that you no longer have the motivation of seeing the number on the scale decrease and it can be tough. Totally worth it, but tough. So as you move through the journey, just be aware that it never really ends. I guess that's life!

Andria said...

^^^ I would add that that's why it's important to find exercise that you actually like, rather than something you just do because you want to burn calories. I run because I love it first, and secondly because the myriad benefits I get from strenuous exercise are something that I miss very much if I can't do it. But it doesn't have to be running--rowing, spin class, weight lifting, as long as its something that you will keep going back to, it's less of a chore.

I just feel so much better when I exercise regularly and eat moderately, that it becomes far less tempting to backslide.