So far this month I am down 2.5 pounds. I've been thinking about how I am going to keep losing long term, whether by this same calorie counting or by some other method. Eating only 1100 calories a day is not really what I had in mind for weight loss this time around, and I do worry about whether I can keep this up for the months needed to get to my goal. I have very little "wiggle room" to cut calories lower if my weight loss stalls at some point. I'm really not sure what to do.
I would like to lose faster, not because I am impatient (okay, some days I am) but because the longer this takes, the more days there are that I could fall off plan. I mean, I am pretty sure I can do 30 days without screwing up. But the more days you add on, the more likely I am to falter. At this rate I am looking at more than a year to get the weight off. Diet fatigue is real; I'm not tired of counting calories because I have counted calories for 19 days... I'm tired of it because I have counted calories for much of my adult life. I'm trying to view it as a positive: more data, more control over the outcome, more ability to see what is happening and what I need to change. I just think people aren't meant to diet/restrict for years and years. That's why it feels unnatural to me. I guess I have never really done something that feels natural and like a new normal, except back when I was first losing weight on the blog in 2007-8. THAT felt natural, and generally low stress. It did not feel like I was forcing myself to do something unnatural to me. That is how I feel now; no matter how I look at it, trying to eat 1100 calories and keep my carbs to 80ish does not really feel natural. It *does* feel like restriction, because it *is* restriction. In 2008-9, I was also counting calories (on Sparkpeople) but eating 1500 calories a day of whatever foods I wanted, and that happened to be mostly healthy, unprocessed stuff. I was having fun making my old recipes healthier, eating portions that felt satisfying, eating lots of produce. I was also riding my bike 5 or 6 days a week. I was losing weight and feeling good and it felt like this was my *new life* and I could keep doing it forever. But I stalled, it didn't work forever, after losing 64 pounds I just stopped losing, regained some, and couldn't "make it work" anymore. I truly wish I could go back to *that* model of eating, but now, even though I weigh more than I did then, I gain on 1500. Granted I don't bike 30 minutes a day, so I am working up to that and wondering if that will allow me to lose and maybe eat at a higher calorie level again.
For now I am just sticking with this tracking, increasing exercise, seeing what results I get from doing this for the month of July. I have another idea for August... but we'll see. I need to mull it over a bit more before I decide!
I am 38 years old, female, a degree-holding stay-at-home-mom, and I weigh 278 pounds. I have been obese for ten years now. Time to get out of this fat prison I have made for myself.
--This is the original introduction I wrote when I first started this blog in 2007. I leave it as a reminder to myself of where I came from. Currently, I am 46 years old and weigh significantly less...see the blog for details. I lost 103 pounds, then had a partial regain, and am once again working at weight loss and better health.
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