Friday, May 8, 2015

Now


I'm going to make an effort to update more regularly about what I'm doing and how it's working for me. I want to get my focus back on weight loss (and health, but not *just* health... I need to lose some fat, here!) and one way to do that is blogging more often. Sometimes I look over my blog and I can't believe the journey I've been on: losing over 60 pounds by eating healthier, counting calories, and biking, then not losing for almost two years and gaining back 20ish pounds, then hitting over 100 pounds lost with Medifast... and of course the partial regain, two years of being in pain and barely able to walk much of the time, and now here I am, about 40 pounds below my start weight and 60 pounds above my low. It has been a wild ride.

I remember a long time ago... maybe in the late 90's... I read a book about a woman who lost and gained weight repeatedly for over a decade. She'd go through the highs of losing weight, then crash and burn and regain some, if not all, of what she lost. Then she'd feel miserable and regretful and work at it again, lose weight, feel great, and regain. This went on in her book for over a decade. I was stunned that anyone would spend *so much* of their life losing, gaining, and re-losing the same pounds. I felt so sorry for her. What a waste of effort, I thought. When I lose this weight, I am NEVER going to get fat again.

I weighed 201 pounds when I thought that. Guess what? Yep, I am on the same track she was.

I don't know if this woman eventually lost all the weight and kept it off. I do know I have been blogging for almost 8 years now and still have not gotten to my goal. I had the taste... the wonderful near-high of losing over one hundred pounds and feeling like a normal, healthy person again. And I've lived the horror of regaining most of the weight, and have felt the terrible regret of "letting" it happen. Now I am at a point where I need to finish what I started. I don't want to be the woman spending a decade writing about losses and gains, losses and gains, with an end result of still being nearly as fat as I ever was.

Today I was up bright and early with some green tea. I made a healthy AIP scramble of sausage, onions, broccoli, and sweet potato cooked in avocado oil. Today will be a good day. Yours can be, too! The best time to lose weight is ten years ago. Then next best time to lose weight is now!

9 comments:

Heartful said...

The roller coaster ride is tough, that is for sure. I can't make sense of it myself. Not me, I say. But then it happens. So much easier said than done.

Winner at a Losing Game said...

Glad to see that you are going to work on the weight. It is obviously important to you or you would not blog or continue to struggle in this less than private way. I was thinking about how your blog has changed. Your best asset in my opinion was sharing your personal feelings and I don't see that so much here. It has become more of an account of what you eat or if you took a walk. I really enjoyed your more personal posts as it was something I could relate to. It was interesting and I felt a commonality. I have read that you don't want to share as much of your personal life and that is not what I am suggesting. Anyway, I hope the best for you in this endeavor.

Karen said...

I hope you can bring in a support team that will help guide you. Private , safe. Low cost or no cost. I've had 40 years of yo-yo, but going outside myself and doing the work of weight management with a coach or private food addiction support made the difference. Circle the wagons. No one stop shopping, but very doable

LHA said...

Good post. I'm sure it struck a chord with many of us including me. The bottom line is that you are not giving up. I try to remember that if I hadn't lost and regained several times I might be much larger I am now. At least trying to stem the tide of weight gain, even if it is over and over again, is something. Pat yourself on the back for persistence and keep marching forward.

16 blessings'mom said...

Yes, ten years ago would have been nice. But now is the next best option. I have been floundering around at this game for four years, but now have started a ketogenic diet, and feel pretty good. I haven't lost much yet, but my sugar cravings are gone, which has NEVER EVER happened to me. Sweets still look good, but I don't NEED to have them. I eat lots of coconut oil and butter and heavy cream in coffee....tons of veggies, very little fruit, and moderate protein. I am rarely hungry, and my hot flashes have mostly disappeared. Interesting stuff, what works for one doesn't work for another, and I wish you all the best on this path. Thank you for sharing, I love when I see that you posted:)

Della

Betsey C. said...

Thanks for this post, Lyn. I am 61, and have been either gaining or losing for 30 years now. How I would love to get off this roller coaster. One thing I am rather proud of -- I never stop trying. Let's promise ourselves that we will always try our best. And I agree with Delia, I am always happy to see a post from you, my dear cyber friend!

Betsey in Chicago

Anonymous said...

I am that woman too - BUT! I have lost over 100 pounds during this time...118 pounds at one point. I have regained some of it, around 30 pounds and am working to get it off again.

I'd like to share what I have learned:
When you lose weight the first time, almost any method will work, but the body is AMAZING at adjusting to a new environment, so each time you have to change it up.
After doing so many things, I have finally realized, for me anyway, and I truly believe for others like me who struggle for years to get healthy....we must cut out sugar. All forms of sugar, even sweet potatoes.
My doctor explained to me that our bodies will do whatever necessary to maintain a sugar level of 100. If you don't eat sugar or carby foods that turn into sugar, your body will be forced to turn fat into sugar. Therefore the result is fat loss....which equals weight loss.

I sincerely believe if you would be willing to eliminate sugar and carbs, your craving would go away(mine have)and you'd finally reach your fitness and weight goals.
Good luck with your journey :-)

Anonymous said...

I have been where you are. I can't get up the desire to lose weight again because I always get to a point where I can't lose anymore and eating normal leads to a large regain. So what is the point. I am starting to come to the conclusion that if I want to lose all the weight, and keep it off, for the rest of my days I will have to incorporate vigorous exercise. Humans are just not meant to sit around the house. Losing weight via food just isn't going to do it. Sure you will lose some but, you will always be at risk of gaining substantial amounts back and you will never get to goal.

It is the only option left.

Lyn said...

Thanks all :) I appreciate the support!

Anonymouses~

I agree. Cutting out sugar and keeping the carbs low (for me, around 100g/day or less) AND exercising is the key. That's what I have to do to get this weight off.