Well, we're a week into the new year already and how much progress have I made? None with the weight... none. I'm not frustrated, I am just surprised how quickly the time is flying by already and how easy it is to just let that happen. I've been busy, but like I wrote in my last post, I'm making the effort now to take better care of me. I'm not doing as great as I want to be doing; I think back to when the habit was... and priority was... to bike 6 days a week, to eat lots of healthy things and avoid the processed. It's harder to get back to it than it was to keep it. I will remember this when I do get it back.
I *have* made some progress in cleaning up my diet. I'd gotten into some bad habits this winter, like flavored coffees, lattes, stopping for a donut with the coffee, eating pasta sometimes... having many of the foods I've avoided for so long (mostly carbs). Now, I am back to drinking coffee black or with a splash of cream (no sweeteners of any kind) and skipping the baked stuff. I'm back to using squash or other vegetables in place of pasta and potatoes, although my veggie intake is still not up to par yet. Instead of crackers or sweets I have hard boiled eggs in the fridge for snacks. I've stopped eating after dinner and instead have a glass of steamed milk with cinnamon and vanilla before bed.
I haven't baked. I've been eating smaller portions and letting myself get hungry between meals. It's better. I am starting to feel a little better too, aside from the sugar-withdrawal headaches. I need to really make the exercise a priority; I am doing 20-30 minutes but only every other day or so. It's a start but I'm not meeting my goals on that yet. I'm working on it day by day.
I'm also doing some reading and learning from others about food addictions and how they are different from eating disorders. I am starting to understand why I am getting conflicting advice from an ED counselor versus people who treat their eating issues as addiction (not to all foods, but from what I am starting to understand, a chemical dependency on some substances... most commonly sugar and wheat). I think there is a lot to learn here and what I am learning is going to help me.
I am going to work this until it works.
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