Friday, December 5, 2014

Picture of a Regain: 68 Pounds Gained


Well this was about the most miserable post ever...

I used to so enjoy taking progress pictures for my blog. From my very first "30 Pounds Gone" photo post to the exciting "100 Pounds Gone" post, it was great to compare these pictures and see my progress from the "before" pictures on the front page of my blog. Every ten pounds I took pictures. I was so excited, proud of how my hard work was paying off, and amazed at the transformation of my body.

Seeing the pounds pile back on as I've regained weight has not been so fun. Seeing the fat layering back onto my body in different, strange ways has been alarming. I tried. I fought. After the initial, rapid regain, I've been going up and down the same 20 or 30 pounds for a couple of years trying to recapture that weight loss success I once enjoyed. But every time I'd lose, it would eventually come back even faster. Unstoppable, it seemed.

It feels like I am in a car going 90 miles an hour, strapped in the passenger seat and about to crash. It's like slow motion: I see the wall or truck or tree ahead that we are hurtling toward. I know it's happening; I slam my foot against the floorboard in a gut reaction, even though I'm not the one driving. Or maybe I am, but when I slam down my foot, the brake pedal is gone. It feels like that. Out of control. Terrifying. You might think that's an exaggeration. But if you have ever gained ten pounds in a week, or twenty in a month, and no matter what you do you can't seem to stick to any plan of action for long enough to get 30 pounds back off, you know this frightening feeling. Yet when I step back and take *all* the emotion out of it, my mind tells me, "look, there's the brake. Apply it. There's a path around the collision course. Take it. You do not have to do this." Easy to think. So very hard to do.

I am trying to do it... to stop letting my emotions drive my actions. I am working at being more logical in the moment... putting the food down and saying no to the things I want to eat instead of letting my panic, sadness, or anxiety grab the wheel and steer me into trouble. But for now, here's where I am.

I took these pictures after Thanksgiving, weighing 243 pounds. That is a gain of 68 pounds from my low weight of 175 back in October 2010... over four years ago. I did not really want to take these pictures, much less post them. When I looked at them I thought, "oh, I don't look that bad." But then I went looking at my old progress pictures on my blog: 80 pounds, 90 pounds, 100 pounds gone. And I started to feel sick, just sick at how far I had come and how good I looked and how I threw that away. I never would have DREAMED I would "let" myself regain this much weight... never! Yet here I am. comparing the pictures is devastating to me and I want to cry because I want that back. I want a time machine to go back and hang on, hold on tight and not let that accomplishment go. But all I can do is look to the future and pray I will be strong enough, committed enough to make it happen again.

So here are my "68 Pounds Regained" pictures.

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Compared to my 100 Pounds Gone pictures:


Really upsetting to me... very much so. 

I have to console myself with the thoughts that a) I still look a lot better than I did in the "before" pictures at 278 pounds, b) I can fix this. I have to believe that.

Going forward from here I will take pics every time I hit the old "ten pound" marks so I can compare them to the ones I took originally. This one is close to the old 238 pictures so I will wait 15 pounds for the next ones. See you at 228.

52 comments:

Lissa said...

Lyn, my heart hurts for you. I am, as always, in awe of your honesty. NEVER give up!!! *hugs*

Susan said...

Lyn, you didn't let yourself... it happened because of things going on on your body. Auto immune issues, inflammation, thyroid, a long time on packet foods.. but be encouraged. Through it all you learned many healthful things to do for yourself, the latest be on an anti inflammatory diet which is a pretty healthy way for everyone to eat and doesn't taste bad either. One thing I find counter productive is to have a daily fixation on yourself. Give it over to the Lord and put your efforts on eternal things..set your affe tions on things above and all these other things shall be added unto you. I'm more concerned with your relationship with the Lord than your relationship with food. These things are all passing away He is eternal One day we will all give an account.. cast your burden upon the Lord and He will give you rest.
Susan

Winner at a Losing Game said...

Lyn,

This is exactly the way I feel. I had vowed to never do this again. Yet, here I am again at the same as my highest weight. I think the thought of doing this again was way to overwhelming for me so I decided to take a more drastic measure and have weight loss surgery. My surgery date is January 8 and I am both excited and frightened. I can only hope that this will be the tool that finally helps me keep this weight off for good.

Anonymous said...

I weigh about that much and I wish I looked as good as you do. I look forward to more pictures. Focus on this 5 pound, the next 5 pounds, the next 5 pounds. Christmas is a bad time to be losing weight though so don't be too hard on yourself if you maintain this month.

Karen said...

Glad you updated your photos.

What is your immediate plan? I know until I set a plan that included a health coach and bench marks and held myself accountable ( I paid out of pocket for Medifast, used my vacation money that year) my slippery slope thinking ruled my binge brain

Here's to getting the kind of support that will carry you to the next 10 pounds. Health coach FA, OA, Onward.

divad said...

I regained too. I lost 92 lbs in 2009-2010 and gained 93 back. It is possible to lose it again, as I am currently trying, but it's emotionally painful. As I've been losing again, 25 more to go, I hate that people wonder if I'll regain it again.

timothy said...

I think the pics were a good idea as hard as it was to take/post them, it make the reality "REAL" now it's out there and yep a pic says a thousand words but now you've done the worst part and shown it to the world and you can use it to focus your intent and make those choices that work for you, I look forward to seeing the next set of pictures!

LHA said...

Lyn:
1. Yes, you can fix this.
2. You have made a good step forward in looking at where you are now and being realistic about your current weight.
3. Your determination and your persistence are fantastic.
4. Do not give up!
(I also echo Anonymous who said take it 5 pounds at a time and don't look at the road ahead. It has to come off one pound at a time no matter what!)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn-
First time poster long time reader. You did not 'let this happen' to yourself. You have tried and tried and tried- with lots of challenges and health issues included- you have continued to try and try and try differnet plans, approaches no matter how hard it was t okeep coming back. Please loose the self cristism - where would you be if you had not tried tried tried i wonder?

Hows about you be kind to yourself today and look back on all the honest effort you have put in. This is a journey this regain is going to be part of the same journey as the 100 pound journey and your future health journey. Its all the same road and i have NO DOUBT you will keep trying trying trying and will get there a step at a time along that windy old road!

Keep going and be kind to you!
I think your tenacity is inspirational. take care.

Deb Willbefree said...

I know how much courage posting these pics took and, from experience, I know the effort is worth it. (If you haven't been to my blog lately, there's my "now" pictures on my last couple of posts.)

Reality hurts...then heals.

Deep breath, then that second step forward. (Posting was the first.)

Hugs,

Deb

Karen P Garden Girl KP said...

Lyn,

PS- Also consider groups like Sam Lomeli at Tips of the Scale (private support group). Why: Sam's description of his support group is especially for people who may not have had the greatest support systems growing up or at home. Something really pops for me that this may bring you together with others that have overcome binge eating and many regains.

Another good support system: Heather at Half Size Me. Lots of of people who have dealt with and are dealing with regain and loss after regain.

Both are low cost and have good moderation (no shenanigans because the mods are really good).

I found that I use a separate food addiction group to deal with my binge brain, but I need a separate weight mainteance support group (food addiction group doesn't support weight loss and the weight maintneance group has other abstainers but doesn't have 100% support for abstaining.

That's the reason I keep asking you what your plan is. Match your current weight loss/health plan with your support group. Always, always okay to switch up support groups as you need ( coordinate with your therapy, etc.)

Without matched support, I do believe that regain will happen. Key piece. When I pay a small amount stay on the straight and narrow and show my failure talk to the curb. I don't mind paying a small amount to well run programs. Well worth it. And yes, you can afford it. The price of 2-3 drive through meals. Seriously cheap. Serious pay backs in long term success.

Good luck and here's to the right match. Onward.

Karen said...

PS, Kudos for enabling moderation. Long over due and a good boundary to set.

Anonymous said...

I think you took an important first? step. It took courage to post those photos and your weight. What is your plan?

David Dane said...

Lyn,
I regained from 174 back to 240. Part of it was depression from losing my mom. A big part of it was my scale broke, and I didn't replace it. Now, I am a big, big advocate for looking at weight every day. A lot of weight lose guru's say no don't do that. Well, if you know anything about manufacturing, then you would know ever step of the process is monitored. with that thought in mind. We are a bit like machines, and we need to be monitored. When I got my new scale and began weighing everyday, I was able to change my eating to get the result I want. I am now around 208 , to 212 consistently. For a long time I hovered at 215. I will go down further. Now, about taking all this personally. Don't do that to yourself. I started something new. I have begun eating later in the day, and cutting off eating early in the day. I have a window where everything rests, and my food is able to digest before going to bed. Last night I broke the rule, but it's more rare. Keep at it dear... it's going to be for the rest of your life doing this...

Lori said...

Lyn,
Once again you articulate what I feel so well. I am in the same boat. I lost 92 pounds and have regained 52 of it!!

It was hard just typing that in the comment and that doesn't include pictures.

I, too, have yo-yoed the same 10 pounds. I can't seem to get past that number.

Clearly, the weight must come off, but there are other measures of health and wellness that also need to be taken into consideration. For instance, better eating overall for you.
Lori

Marianne Molleur said...

Hi Lyn:
You successfully kept of 30+ pounds for more than 5 years. That's not so easy.
It seems most of the regain is your Medifast loss... and very low calorie diets almost always end with regain. You're not any more of a failure than the other 95% of people who regain. Please be as kind to yourself about this as you would be to any of us, your commentors.
Stay in the (head) game. Don't panic and think "one more diet and then.....(whatever)." Keep talking to your ED counselor. The only way to make peace with food is to make peace with yourself.
Best always,
Marianne

Orderly Mind said...

You want to stop letting your emotions drive your eating, but your eating also drives very negative emotions. This seems like a trap you set yourself. I'd suggest talking about this with your ED therapist. It seems that, as long as you carry guilt, shame, etc. over your failure to lose weight, you're exacerbating your situation. Also, I think you need to stop thinking fat people are people who have failed to be thin (as it seems to be how you initially saw your ED therapist). Being fat is not failure just as being depressed is not failure. They are difficult conditions that people manage the best they can. Unless you forgive yourself and reframe your thinking, you're just adding to the negative emotion pile that you're already living with.

Taryl said...

Add me to the list of yoyoing old timers ;)

Some of mine is hormonal, with yet another pregnancy and my thyroid was way out of whack. Suddenly upon doubling my dose the ravenous hunger and huge weight gain halted. Huh. ;)

Some of it, too, is just diet fatigue. And a tantrum. And a million small things, from illness to stress, that I used as excuses.

It happens. And we can fix it so long as we don't give up on ourselves. I'm back on plan today after a week off. Again. I'm due in about four weeks and could just phone it in, but I'm not doing that. Each day counts, even pregnant, and I wont forget the days I work hard and succeed at my daily goals just because the day before or after I had a harder time!

You've got this. I know it doesn't feel like it (I get into that spot as well) but just focus on one foot in front of the other. Even that is a miracle - you can walk without pain right now, compared to this time last year. That's HUGE! One victory at a time, noting the setbacks before moving on again. Rinse and repeat. That's what we all have to do, whether it is easy or hard (and man, does that vascillate back and forth!). You're not alone.

simply~sweet said...

I am in the same boat after losing 80 lbs and gaining nearly ever pound back. I know how devastating it feels. I told myself I'd never see those numbers again or have to buy a bigger size. Pants that used to fall off of me will not go over my hips.

Just take it one day at a time girl. You can get where you once were!! You're a fighter!

Amy said...

If willpower, self-loathing, and deprivation worked, women everywhere would be losing weight like crazy and it wouldn't be such an amazing feat. But our brains get in the way, act like rebellious teenagers, our minds cry out to be soothed and protected from this harsh world. We can't stick to a diet because long-term deprivation is not natural. And we ARE deprived because we WOULD rather have the cheesecake instead of the broccoli, but society tells us we don't look right on the outside, and nothing else about us matters, and we buy into that. And worse, we internalize that sentiment as well. You have gained weight, but that's just your shell, not your worth.

O. said...

You need a strategy.

I know you say you don't binge any more and I believe you, but it is possible to eat emotionally without binging and to overeat without binging and — reading between the lines — I get the sense that is what you've been doing. You describe yourself as out of control. I get that, I think a lot of people can identify. It's easy to lose control with food.

That's why you need a strategy for how you're going to deal with this — more than just a diet template (like Atkins, "Paleo", AIP, or whatever) but a way of coping with your food triggers. Pick a way of eating which isn't overly restrictive, and then make it as easy as possible for you to stick to.

As a personal example, I ate low carb for a long time and I felt great on it but when I got busier and money got tighter it wasn't sustainable for me any more — it's hard to find low-carb options on the go, I don't always have access to a fridge to store protein-based lunches, etc. So I mixed carbs back in and started watching my calories instead. It's nice in some ways because there are foods I can eat now which I couldn't have eaten when I was low-carb, but this includes a lot of trigger foods for me — stuff which I never would have expected. For example, raisins. Raisins! I started putting a small serving of raisins in my porridge in the morning and thought I was being really smart by buying a kilogram at once, until I started picking at it during the day — a handful of raisins here and there really adds up in terms of sugar and calories. I had to throw the whole thing out; now I only buy the kiddie-sized snack packs. I don't want to deny myself raisins but this is the only way I can exercise portion control with them.

What I'm saying is: it's super hard to lose weight and maintain a loss. I don't think that success has anything to do with willpower so much as it has to do with taking the ability to lose control away from yourself. I only buy things like raisins and chocolate in small individually-wrapped portions because it's a lot harder to kid myself if I reach for more after one serving that it's "just a couple more" and "doesn't really count". The more barriers — physical or psychological — you can put between yourself and the food you want to eat on impulse, the more likely you are to stop and think, the less likely you are to eat it when you get that urge. That makes it a lot easier to be mindful of what you're eating.

You're kind of lucky in some ways because you have the incredible privilege of knowing what your resting metabolism is, knowledge most of us lack. I think if you tried going back to calorie counting — logging with SparkPeople or MyFitnessPal — and were able to structure your life and your food environment in such a way as to make this as stress-free an experience as possible you would recapture some of the success from when you first counted blogging. Particularly if you mixed in some light cardio and strength-training exercises. You know that if you work a food plan it will result in success, so pick a plan — not something needlessly ultra-restrictive like AIP but based in whole foods and with a weather eye on your calories — and make it as easy as possible for yourself to work, and then work it consistently. Because what's the alternative? You can do this. You can take control.

Josie said...

First step in the right direction. Keep going.

Weigh yourself every day, not once a week. I think you got in the habit of weighing weekly, then eating something as a "treat" and spent the rest of the week working the treats off, just to spin your wheels and get back to where you started.

Break the cycle.

Josie said...

PS. You look pretty damn good for over 240lbs. Wtf. I was the blueberry girl from willy wonka at my highest weight, 228lbs.

Susan R said...

Hi Lyn-Well, you get an A+ for being courageous and facing reality. That is never easy for any of us no matter what our struggle might be. I admire that more than any weight loss accomplishment.

Anonymous said...

completely agree with "O"!!!!!

I'm in the same situation.. not "in control" but taking the triggers away makes me less likely to binge...

This person has offered the right advice!

Sezza182

Connie C. said...

I also agree with "O." I think the super restrictive plans are part of what is triggering your emotional eating. I think counting calories and focusing on exercise again is the way to go. Even a little activity is better than none, and going over your calorie limit a little is better than going over by thousands.

Stacy Phillips Certified Health Coach said...

Hey Lyn I totally understand what you are going through! And I know what you mean when you say it feels like you are hurtling 90 miles an hour toward a fate that you DON'T want, which is continued weight gain. One of the things that used to terrify me was the thought that no matter how big I thought I was at the time I was feeling horrible and like a failure, I could ALWAYS GET EVEN BIGGER! Oh man talk about TERROR!!!! Knowing that helped me take ALL emotion out of my actions. I still FELT emotion, fear, discouragement, hopelessness, etc, but I chose to take the ACTION I needed to take with my next choice that I KNEW (not that I FELT, but that I KNEW factually) would apply the breaks and allow to go the direction I wanted with my health. I began to understand that my body was not my enemy, and that even though it would always gain weight if I overate it was simply being a good little soldier, following the instructions that I was giving it daily. Change the instructions, change the outcome. So, I did. I began changing the instructions. You already know my story, you already know my successes but you have only seen the "highlight" reel. You haven't seen the "oh my heavens my son's labs just came back and I'm terrified so I'm going to go eat some gummi-bears" clips. In spite of still having those occasions periodically, each day I choose health again. And again. And again. And I can tell you it IS possible to lose and maintain. I know you know that, and I know you are searching for a way to make it work for you. Thinking about you! =)

Kristine said...

I know exactly how you feel. i made the decision to do up my calories from about 1500 to 3500+ a day. I gained about 20 pounds and kinda freaked out. Did good for 2 months then caught myself trying to sneak my way back into dieting. It is so hard seeing myself gain weight, how I look in the mirror. I decided to stop looking at myself as some big overweight person and start seeing the positive things. I love my curves, my big bottom in jeans. Fuller breasts. I know for me this is the road I have to say on.I dont know if I will ever be thin, but I am ok with tat. I feel this huge weight lifted, like I can breath again. Its wonderful and scary.
You look wonderful.

Maria-McNeil said...

Talk about foot on the gas and not being able to stop!! I completely agree. I know what you are feeling, a loss of control, helplessness, lack of self-trust that you can do it or believe you can stop. Every day, I know what I'm doing when I reach for the food, yet I do it anyway! Then I punish myself with negative self-talk. It's like I can't stop when reality is, I know I can and have before, but now I don't trust myself. When I make a decision in the morning, I don't trust myself by the afternoon to follow through. It's sad but also scary at times. The pressure of "you're getting older" sticks in my head. I keep saying, monitor my thoughts, keep going, one step at a time, do small things to gain back the trust. I've lost over 60+ lbs before, I can do it again.

I'm routing for you Lyn, it's a long road, but just think about all the things you are learning about yourself - that's priceless!!!
Thinking of you...

Dr. Barbara Berkeley said...

Hi Lyn,
Here's the thing about regain. The fact that someone as motivated to stay thinner as you are, someone who blogs publicly about the process, someone who has a lot of knowledge, could gain weight back speaks to something very important. The body WANTS to regain weight and provokes regain in many tricky ways. It appears to the regainer that this is all his or her fault. It's not. I have two suggestions for you. 1. After your next weight loss, confine yourself to 100 carb grams per day for a good long while. Only add back additional carbs if your weight is stable after addition. 2. Instead of or along with this, consider asking your doctor to prescribe one of the current meds for long term weight control. Contrave is the newest one. It's only been out a couple of months but appears to be working well for those patients of mine who are using it. The idea is to find a med that possibly puts the damper on the increased weight gain that occurs after a loss. You might stay on it for a year or so after your next loss or even for a more long term period. You must start these medications when your BMI is 30 or above, but they are approved for continued use after this. This is of course with the proviso that your physician approves and you have no contraindications (like other meds you are taking) to its use. Like surgery, which changes the playing field and makes regain more difficult (although not impossible) this is just another option to consider.

Lyn said...

Dr Berkeley,

Thank you so much for providing your insight. Your opinion is one I truly respect and I will be putting your carb level suggestion into action today, and looking into the medication as well. I appreciate it.

Karen said...

Super glad you've got expert advice and are willing to consider it.

I know someone in real life who does well on a lower carb combined with meds approach.

With your permission, I'd love to blog about Dr Berkely 's suggestion. ( with a note its customized to you) are you okay with that? It , of course, would be a positive post.

Lyn said...

Karen~

I don't mind if she doesn't! I think it is excellent advice for me.

Dina Bee said...

You're really brave posting these. My weight has yo-yo'ed like crazy, I've regained over 80 lbs of what I've lost. It's a battle, but at least we aren't' giving up. I'm proud of you for keeping on. You can do it!

julia.angelina said...

If I could also add, you were right the first time. You DON'T look that bad there. You look perfectly lovely. If your low weight was an anomaly in your life, it might be useful to realize that it probably isn't where your metabolic set-point wants you to be- or else it would have been fairly easy for your body to stay there.

Your innate physiology has so much to do with how much you weigh. It's why there are some people who can eat anything and never gain an ounce. Innate physiology. Their unique metabolism. That's just the way the cookie crumbles. The better goal is to be as healthy as possible. Look at your life and see that every single thing you do is conditioning your body to be good at it. What do you want to be good at? Practice it. And don't discount your own instincts as a useful guide. You probably didn't "let" yourself regain the weight so much as your body was literally making you. Again I haven't read into the blog too too much, but I think I saw where you are in chronic pain. Chronic pain and inflammation are often signs of an impaired metabolism. Weight loss imposed on a body to make it go below set point will slow metabolism down to a screeching halt and in basically every single study ever done, all animals (human and otherwise) will overeat as a reaction to unintuitive weight loss, that is, weight loss as a result of food restriction. I.e, any diet ever.

So look. Don't beat yourself up. Really. Will power can only take you so far, nature always wins in the end--- or you end up quite sick. Thin is not worth any of this nonsense. Finding a rhythm you can live with, a level of activity that enlivens you and a way of eating that satisfies as it nourishes, those are the goals. And let the chips fall where they may.

You were right the first time. You don't look bad at all. You look great. And you KNEW that until you compared yourself to something you were only for a brief period of time.

Maybe my perspective will help. I hope so. :)

Joanna Mikkelsen said...

Dear Lynne, you are not alone in regaining! I was at a darling weight two years ago, then - hello weight gain! I have wrestled with cravings as well. I totally relate to eating to overcome depression. (Have you ever driven through a Tim Horton's drive through with a two gallon jug of chocolate milk between your legs? I have.)

I know that you have heard a million pieces of advice, so I apologize if this sounds like "I am the expert here". I definitely am not! Have you tried the ketogenic diet? It has abolished my cravings. It also is helpful for inflammation.

Who Moved My Donut? said...

"O" - some great advice.

HikerRD said...

The picture taking of weight gain is about as constructive as weighing yourself when you know what the scale will show. Better to focus on changing behaviors and pull yourself away from the numbers and the critical analyzing of appearance. Focus on the positives and set some realistic goals for change.

Dar said...

Hi Lyn,
I just happened across your blog today. I am in awe of your honest and brave postings.

Only someone with a weight problem can understand how personal, painful and difficult this journey can be.

Thank you for sharing your triumphs and struggles. Know that you are not alone. I'm right there with you cheering you on and fighting my own fat loss fight.

Linda said...

Dear Lyn:

I use your chili recipe (came up on a low carb chili recipe Google search) and have only read your blog today. I, too, applaud you for continuing your blog and journey. Regains pretty much happen to most of us and we can all sympathize. You can do it - you did do it already - and you can do it again. Reading much online (such as your blog), logging my food and exercise on my fitness pal, and weighing daily help me. Keep going and take it 5 pounds at a time.
Linda

OsAngel said...

Hi Lyn,

Thanks for your posts. I get you, I am as well working on loosing the weight I put on after stopping smoking and a long term relationship breakup.
Your description of feeling like you are watching yourself in slow motion crash and not being able to do anything about it is so true and very much a real thing. I know that myself. It is years of habit and conditioning that takes us there, like a computer program that just runs. Before we weren't even conscious of it, now we watch and don't have the controls fully yet to change the course. Dealing with my weight now is a final hurdle to overcome after years of smoking it took years to finally overcome it. I would stop then start again so many times, each time would be a bit longer, but crash and burn I would all over again. Eventually I found every time giving up would be easier, I understood my triggers more. I see that food for me is an emotional comfort, I eat more when I am stressed or upset, and the wrong stuff. Long and short of it is, it does get easier. Every time we get knocked down, we dust down, pick yourself up and know ourselves that little bit better. Eventually we overcome because we never give up. Failure is only when we give up. You've got all that you need, you have the strength, you have done it before, look back to why what happened around the time you began to put back on, this is an area of weakness, address that then the weight will fall off.

Thanks again,

Shep Bostin said...

Lyn -
Kudos to you for being so brave and sharing your struggles and not just your successes. I lost 55 lbs. on Nutrisystem and gained most of it back. Now I have lost about 30 lbs. on Medifast so far, but have plateaued for about a month, and had a number of weeks with gains. Every day is a struggle for people like us with food challenges. Cheating leads to feelings of guilt, which leads to more cheating. I think Dr. Berkeley is onto something there - I truly believe that carbs - especially sugar - are addictive. It's not healthy to eliminate ALL carbs, but cutting their amounts WAY down is doable and eating only carbs that are in a very raw state (i.e., hard to digest) - no refined stuff. I wish you strength and success, and please know that your weight doesn't define whether you are beautiful - you are! - but it matters for your health and there are lots of us who share your struggle and support you.

M2M said...

I know the feeling but glad you're back in the ring again. Not giving up over the decades has never gotten me anywhere near my ideal weight but has kept me below 200 lbs. and morbid obesity.

I've just stumbled upon your website, so I don't know what's your eating plan for reducing weight, but regardless I think you'll find the recent BBC series, "What's the Right Diet for You?" quite informative and motivating. All 3 episodes are posted on YouTube last time I checked. The program helps explain the physiological reasons for why we have these problems. Such knowledge is empowering.

Marie said...

You're still an inspiration to me! You're incredibly brave and you're human... Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us.

Doing a low-carb diet helped me lose 40 lbs. Within 2 years I gained it back. My weight has been a struggle all my life, as I feel like my whole life has been filled with a series of diets and guilt trips. It's tough. People who don't struggle with weight issues will never understand how tough it really is yo lose weight. It's much more than eating healthier, it's a readjustment of our habits and response to stress/emotions/exhaustion that may cause us to over eat.

I'm back on a low carb diet. It truly works for me and I feel wonderful. Good luck to us!

Gingey said...

Hey, I used to follow your blog about 5 years ago (think when you were doing Medifast), and I was also losing weight. Well, I had a kid, then lost baby weight. Had a second kid, and... well, the weight has stuck around. I finally got off my fat ass (haha), and went back on the same program. I'm so glad to see you're still blogging.

deedot said...

Hi Lyn, I know what you are going through because I have been there. May I offer to you what helped me. In 2009 I lost 50 lbs. on the MRC diet. After I started eating my old way again I gained it all back plus more. Then I developed diabetes. Well that changed things for me. I found Low Carb High Fat and last year I have lost 55 lbs so far. Still have 20 to go. I ran across a video on youtube called "Better Makes Your Pants Fall Off" Then I found a lot of video about Low Carb High Fat. It has worked for me. I am never hungry and have tons of energy. On my last blood test ALL my numbers were great. My doctor just laughed and shook his head when I told him what I was eating. My A1C numbers is down to 6.4 which is in the prediabetes range. I no longer take medicine for diabetes, I was taking 500 mg Metformin per day. But I know that I have to watch my diet at least until I have gotten down to the weight I want to be and maintained that weight for a number of years. I never gained back any of the weight over Thanksgiving or Christmas. I eat very little cards when I eat, unless we go out to eat, then I will have more carbs. Some days I only have a snack around 2 pm and then dinner. I am just not hungry eating this way. I know that I have to keep the weight off and eat this way to keep my diabetes under control. My doctor said that while my numbers says I have prediabetes, you never get over it after you get it. I'm praying for you and me too. Struggle with weight is such a depressing thing, I know, but just never give up.

deedot said...

Please check out Low carb High Fat. It works. Look on youtube at Low carb high fat. Watch the videos "Fat Head" and "Fed Up", The Diet Doctor, Dr. Eric Westman, Jimmy Moore and this one "Butter Makes Your Pants Fall Off" This way of eating is the best. every morning I have a cup of Bullet Proof Coffee, it is wonderful. D

Anonymous said...

I'm stuck at 146 lbs... any help?

Jebbica said...

Hi Lyn,

I hope all is currently going well in your health and fitness journey. I applaud you for being honest about regaining...that's one thing I am really worried about as I lose weight! I am almost 50 lbs down with 25 or so more to go, but I am afraid of maintaining as much as anything. I'll have to dig around on your blog more to see how it's going for you, but I really hope, in both our cases, that this story has a happy ending!

mrsluangraj said...

I just found this blog, it's so encouraging to me! I have lost and gained and lost and gained. Deal with constant struggle with weight! I'm currently doing good but it's comforting and encouraging that I am not alone. Even the most committed people have set backs!

heather stanton said...

I have just discovered this blog and am now in the beginnings of a healthy lifestyle change. To be honest I have tried before in the past and have yoyo'd my weight so much. I have read many blogs and this one really reaches out to me. From the before and after pics you have posted to your raw honesty to the kind things your followers have posted has really touched me and I feel this blog will help be a pillar in my weight loss journey and I sincerely want to thank you for being here. I look forward to many more posts!

Tom Ibach said...

I use a free calorie counter online (there are many)called My Fitness Pal...it works without any fad diets, don't eat this, don't eat that baloney...you will find yourself unwittingly changing your eating habits for the better...and AVOID AVOID AVOID processed foods....ANY kind especially "low fat" products...