Sunday, December 28, 2014

Eating Well

Today feels like a new day to me. Of course, every day is literally new... but as the dark has lifted slowly and gradually, each day is a bit better. And today I feel an inner happiness and peace I have not had in awhile. It's a different kind of happy than the kind that is induced by joyful events; even at my lowest, I've felt happy when I spend time with family, or open presents at Christmas, or see a pretty sunset. What I am talking about is that underlayer of happiness that remains when all the laughing and parties and fun stuff is over. You know... kind of a "base" emotion, a way you ARE when no one else is around, when you are just lying in bed at night about to go to sleep or standing in the kitchen washing dishes. I guess I have felt kind of numb for awhile now, as my base emotion when I am alone. Over the last few weeks I have noticed that dissipating bit by bit, but the past two weeks the difference has been truly noticeable! I am starting to feel like my old self again, and that is a wonderful feeling! I actually *want* to go outside and walk, to go swimming, to eat some things that are good for me. I am getting back the real motivation to take good care of myself and make changes for the sake of my health and lasting happiness. It's a very good feeling.

This afternoon I'm making a recipe I used to make often after Easter or Christmas (when we usually have leftover ham): Ham Bone Soup. It's full of beans and vegetables and smells so good simmering for hours on the stove! I have to say I enjoyed chopping the onions, celery, carrots and garlic just as much as I liked making all the Christmas goodies earlier this month. I just like to cook, and I like to feed people and see them nourishing themselves with what I made. It's been a part of me for so long.

I have been thinking once again about things like whole foods vs carb counts. I know I can lose weight eating bean soup, because I did it before: lost the first 50+ pounds eating whole grain crackers, hummus, oatmeal, and the like, along with plenty of protein and produce. So I often think I should do it again, just the same way: count calories and exercise. But I also know my body is not the same as it was back then, and I did stall out eating that way before. I think the advice I have gotten about keeping my carb count to 100 grams/day for weight loss is solid, but I'm not sure what that means long term. No bean soup again, ever? I dunno, I am not sure where beans and starches are going to fit into my plan. But I know I *feel* like eating well and exercising. So that's a good start. So that's what I'm doing!

I hope you enjoy the last bit of the old year, and that we all have a blessed, happy, and healthy 2015!


Anonymous said...

I'm glad you're feeling better. :)

About the low carb/bean thing. As much as I hate-to-dash (Where is that sarcasm font when I ned it?) the all or nothing approach to eating--there's no reason that beans can not be part of an eating plan the allows for 100 grams of carbohydrate a day. No reason whatsoever.

Just look up how many grams of carbohydrate are in a cup of Navy or white benas and go from there.

Hugs, Lyn. So glad the darkness is lifting. Don't over=think your way back into it.

Anonymous said...

Sooo, I looked it up.

One cup of COOKED Navy beans has 20 NET grams of carbohydrate. The rest of the carbs (19 grams) is undigestible fiber. It also has 252 calories. Per several sites.

So. You could have enough soup to hold at least 4 cups of beans and still have carbs left from your 100 grams.

I hope you're enjoying it right now! :}

My ham bone is in the freezer and I'll be making soup in a couple of weeks. My husband, sons, and grandchildren love it. Me? Can't stand the stuff, but I do like cooking it and watching them eat it. :)


Susan R said...

So wonderful that your depression is lifting. You serve as a role model to me because you never give up. I wish you a wonderful 2015 Lyn!

Lyn said...


thanks! Wow, I guess I could have looked that up and figured out that it could fit into a lower carb plan. I guess I have "villified" beans due to them being off limits on Medifast, AIP, Paleo, etc. I would like to enjoy them in moderation, and a half cup would be plenty!

Thank you Susan, I wish the same to you!

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog since 2008 and you are starting to sound like you did back then: optimistic, bright, cheery. I knew you would be okay :)

I am counting on some weight-loss pictures coming next month! You will do this!


Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn
I hope you'll be very careful about restricting while you're trying to normalize food.
Take care, best always.

Diana said...

Wow, how do we do it? Always on the same path at the same time. We must be soul sisters or something. I'm exactly where you are now. I've been reading along for months (or has it been a year), and I have so many of the same feelings.

Anyway, we're both on the healthy, happy path now. Good luck to both of us! I know we can both do it Lyn, we've done it several times before. We have to just look forward, and only look back to learn from our mistakes. Take care my friend.

Lyn said...


I thought the same thing! It's great to see you back. We will do this together!

Sean Anderson said...

This post is so wonderful to read. You're in a good place, Lyn--slow and steady, one day at a time.. wow, so nice!! You're right on target with your thinking--I know for me, when I was on the brink of turning things around, I had to look at what worked--bringing back those elements and adding additional accountability and support it did look and feel a little different, stronger than before.
I LOVE your attitude. Never give up!!

Anonymous said...

Yes, you stalled out before with calorie counting - but you stalled out at a much lighter weight than you're at now. My point is, don't think you need to pick a plan today that will take you to your ultimate goal. You don't need to have THE ANSWER from the start. Your body changes, too, when you lose weight and you can't eat today for the body you'll have once you lose 30 lbs., anyway. You just need something that works for now.

This article has some relevant advice: