Thursday, October 16, 2014

Facing the Scale

I've been avoiding it for a long time, but yesterday I decided to just get up this morning and weigh. I guess I just didn't want to know, was afraid if there was a gain I'd feel worse (I have been feeling bad enough without adding one more thing) and honestly have had very little motivation to *do* anything about my weight anyway... so what's the point of weighing? Well as I said yesterday, the point is my health, and I need to get refocused on *that* (and weight is, at least in obesity, connected to what's going on with my health).

So here we go. Scale this morning said 232 pounds. That's up 6 pounds since Sept 1. Last time I weighed was on September 5 at 229 pounds. Obviously being off AIP means not only eating more volume but also eating more of the foods that create inflammation, hunger, cravings, and health issues. Completely stopping the exercise was not the best idea either.

Anyway I'm also back to writing down what I eat in my notebook (not measuring, not counting calories or carbs, just writing the foods but not amounts) because that is what worked for me before. Also easing back into activity with some walks and hopefully some swimming this week.

That's all for now; will update more when there is more to say.


Connie C. said...

Hey, you faced what the scale actually says. Now you know what you're dealing with and can move on from there. You know what to do. You can do it!

Anonymous said...

Aww, Lyn, I hate when that happens. On the bright side, you're only up 3 pounds since Sept. 5. 3 pounds in just over a month means that you weren't diving headlong into food.

You and I both know how to gain 10 pounds in a week. Good job on not practicing THAT skill. :}

Sorry for the gain, glad it wasn't worse, acknowledging that you did, indeed, practice restraint.


Anonymous said...

Sometimes, trigger foods simply need to be removed vs. "controlled" for those who find themselves not being able to control themselves around certain foods/flavors. It's all about doing what works. It may not be what we would like it to be, but, rather, what must be done. Health is infinitely more important than food rewards that trigger binges or keep us in a space of constantly fighting with ourselves.

Lyn said...

re: an unpublished comment~


I decided not to publish your comment as it seemed personal and, I think, just meant for me. We're all human, we all make mistakes. Apology accepted. Thank you for being able to 'voice' that to me. Take care :)

timothy said...

I have no sage words of wisdom of earthshattering advice. you KNOW and understand whats going on and what to do. thinking of you and sending energy/prayers your way!

Anonymous said...

I am at the same place. Keep on, keeping on. It is hard.

Anonymous said...

Sometimes we are in that magical zone of really wanting to change and to do all the endless work to get there and sometimes we are not. It feels like a rollercoaster doesn't it? Wanting it so badly and being in the zone, so focused and then... just not being able to do it. It's the story of my life as well. I wish psychiatrists could figure out what's going on in our brains when we are so driven and dedicated to weight loss. Turn that into a pill, please. All I can say is, I hope the desire to be in "the zone" comes back soon. Hang in there!


Amy said...

Grrr! Sometimes I wish scales had never been invented! When I lose my mojo and just don't feel like focusing on the weight, I find it helpful to do something that makes me feel special or pampered, a long bath, an at-home facial, new nail polish or perfume, etc. It helps me remember there is more to me than my body size and I deserve to feel good, whether or not I'm losing weight. It keeps me in a better place, mentally.