Today as I was walking on the pool treadmill for what may be the last time (unless insurance approves more visits), I made a decision. This decision isn't based on anything but my own personal inspiration and desire to be able to move freely again; it's the simple decision that I am going to make my biking a priority. I haven't done that lately; I bike here and there, when I feel like it, if something 'good' is on TV, if I am on the mood. But because of the discomfort of biking and the lack of energy I have after months of inactivity, I am more likely to put it off and not get to it more than once or twice a week. As I was walking, something in me remembered that awesome feeling I used to have when I was biking 5 or 6 days a week... the strength in my legs, the increased endurance, the elevated mood. You know I have never been a huge fan of exercise; I'd rather mow a lawn or rake leaves or do some other lifestyle activity to get my movement in. But I can't always do those things now, and I miss it. I *can* bike, so, I decided, I will. Even if it's only 15 minutes a day, I will bike. I don't want to lose the bit of fitness that returned when I started pool walking, so whether more PT visits are approved or not, biking is now a priority.
As far as food goes, this week I've been doing pretty well. I've been more careful about carbs and sugar and salt. I've been eating 5 or 6 times a day (3 meals, 2-3 100 calorie snacks). A company sent me a box of frozen vegan meals to try; some of them are super high in carbs, so I've had to modify by not eating the grains or only eating half a portion and adding my own vegetables. I've been eating those once or twice a day and will review them in a day or two. The rest of my diet this week has been simple: black decaf coffee, chicken sausage with Egg Beaters and light cheese, tuna salad, nuts (in moderation), Wonderslim and Medifast meals, and the occasional sugar free decaf Americano with cream. I am not tracking calories (yet) but I feel better this week, less bloated, and happier. Oh, and I did go shopping for jeans, too. When I went to the dressing room to try them on, I took a stack that included a size 16, several size 18's, and a size 20 (all in women's sizes). I wasn't sure which of these would fit me, but I was betting on the 18's. As I've said, my poor old battered size 16's finally gave up the ghost last week, and they've been a bit tight. The other size 16's in my drawer are still too tight. Well, fit varies by brand for sure, because I was shocked when the size 16 Lee jeans fit me perfectly. I went ahead and tried on the 18's and they were all too gappy and big. Whew... I am really glad about that. I am going to buy another pair later this week but two should be enough, since I have some 16's in the drawer that are going to fit me again soon. In the past, biking really reduced my lower half measurements quickly, and I believe it will have the same effect this time.
I am very thankful for my therapists, who worked with me and have helped me SO much to build up my endurance and range of motion and reduce my pain. I am thankful for the doctor and the new medication he prescribed that is also helping. I only got a two month prescription, so I am hoping when the prescription is gone the pain will also stay gone. I am having pain in my feet at about a 4 out of 10 most days now... tolerable and I am able to do so much more. I still can't walk the dogs a mile or stay on my feet for long periods, but hopefully that will come. It feels like spring, I have new hope and I am working to create the life I want to have.
Friday Update and Reality Check
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