I finally feel like I am actually "re-doing" my weight loss journey, rather than just spinning my wheels stuck in the mud at the same 5 pounds. I spent a solid year going around and around 217 pounds... 4 pounds higher, 4 pounds lower, up and down, back and forth. And now, finally, I am heading back down and away from that number. I'm down to the lowest weight I have been since I got plantar fasciitis and went from 199 to 216 in 2 months' time. And then I stayed there. I worked to get out but never succeeded.
Now I finally feel like I am succeeding and am ON my way... rather than just trying to GET on my way. Today I got a compliment. Someone I care about very much said to me, "You've lost weight!" and complimented me on the changes and the work I have done to get there. Now maybe to you, that doesn't sound very exciting. Maybe if you are losing weight, you get those kinds of compliments a lot. I used to. But I honestly cannot remember the last time anyone said something positive about my weight or my body. It has been... years. In November 2010 I hit my low weight of 175 pounds. I was basking in TONS of raging compliments. I felt amazing. People told me I looked great. In July 2011 I weighed 184, and by September I weighed 201. And I tell you, the absolute silence when people saw me was deafening. All compliments ceased. People just looked. I could see it, I knew their thoughts, "wow, she's gaining it back." Well actually I do remember there was ONE occasion sometime between then and now when I was on a ten pound downswing and a friend noticed. But aside from that compliment, there hasn't been anything. Today's very sincere and spontaneous comment really touched me. It fueled me to make good choices all day. I kept thinking, "I am finally getting this weight back off!" I am. And it feels so good.
I will never quit.
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