Wow, what a day. Not so much going on physically, but just emotionally, I felt so deflated today. I had such high hopes after getting that first shot and having my right foot 95% pain free. I was so excited and sure the left would be the same. Maybe it still will be, but today I felt really let down about it. With the right foot the results were almost immediate. With this one, I am still hurting. What's worse is that because my left foot became *more* sore after the injection, I have been favoring it and using the right foot more, and now the pain in that foot has increased ever so slightly. It's kind of demoralizing, after so long being in pain and thinking I was going to get at least a couple of weeks reprieve. Maybe I still will... I dunno... but yesterday and today I was hurting. The site where the injection was given bled a lot and instead of a teeny poke hole there was a 'slash' mark, and it hurts. And the heel is more tender, to the point I cannot walk one step without some kind of padding under my heel (supportive shoes). I knew 'making it worse' was one of the risks of getting these shots, but I figured if it improved one foot it would also improve the other. I think it depends on the accuracy of the injection, though. I will say that if you add up the pain from both feet today, it is still less than the pain I have had all year, so I will try to go with that and be positive.
This morning I went and limped around the farmer's market for about 3 blocks. I took my daughter and we had a nice time in the sun. I did have to stop and sit about halfway through, but I managed to buy myself some fresh young garlic, yellow squash, and zucchini. Then I ate a scoop of ice cream.
I think I was trying to comfort myself. Old habits die hard.
Aside from that slip-up, my eating has been really good lately, with lots of fresh veggies, blueberries, cherries, nonfat Greek yogurt, baked chicken thighs, lean grass-fed beef chili, sun tea brewed on the back deck, and flaxseed meal thrown in here and there. I have also been making sure to take all of my joint health and anti-inflammatory supplements including D3, fish oil, turmeric, C, and a new glucosamine/chondroitin/MSM/HLA complex. I had to take Aleve today to function and the Dr said I could take 800 mg ibuprofen or a meloxicam over the weekend. We leave early tomorrow for our little trip. I am struggling to feel excited about going even though I was *so* looking forward to it. I hope I can walk when we get there. If not, though, at least I can swim. I *do* feel happy about that, and about spending time with two of my kids. Even when other things aren't going well, they bring me joy every day. I am so thankful for them. I know they will bring me smiles no matter what!
I will blame this whole funk on PMS because this evening when I started feeling really emotional about it all, I looked at the calendar and that's what time it is. I know I will feel better in a couple of days, even if the feet don't improve further.
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