This morning I woke up refreshed, got my daughter off to school, and came home ready to get lots done! The weather is perfect for a nice walk with the dogs and some good old fashioned house cleaning, so after a Medifast shake I got started on the chores. I was in one of those moods where everything feels right and you just want to keep moving. It was awesome! I worked in the yard for ten minutes, played with the dogs a bit, came inside and folded laundry and washed dishes. Then I started on some other tasks, humming along and feeling super productive. But ten minutes later, I was sidelined by this darned foot pain. The aching and burning was bad enough that I had to sit, even though I wanted to keep working. I was done with walking for the day and it wasn't even 10 am yet.
As I sat in my recliner trying to find some tasks online and paperwork to do while sitting so I could feel productive, I got so frustrated. Here it is, a gorgeous day. Here I am with a big energy boost... enough that I felt like walking the dogs a couple of miles, vacuuming and mopping the whole house, and tackling some garage decluttering... but instead, I had to sit. It feels like such a waste.
I see the "last hope" podiatrist (a new one I have not seen before) on Wednesday and I promise right here and now that if he can help me and if I EVER get this ridiculous plantar fasciitis under control, I will NEVER take walking for granted again. I will walk in the morning, I will walk in the evening after dinner. I will clean and garden and be productive and not waste the gift of healthy feet. I cringe to think of the years I wasted sitting on the couch all day BECAUSE I was morbidly obese and didn't "feel like" doing anything... when my feet were perfectly fine and I could have done more. Yes I had knee arthritis... still do. But the pain of arthritis is *nothing* compared to this aching, burning, stabbing, debilitating pain I have now. It has just gotten worse over time. I just want it to stop. I pray this doctor can help me and get me literally back on my feet again.
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