My eating is still off. I am not eating any junk (candy, bakery stuff, no more pizza or chips) but it seems whenever I let my carbs go really high like I did a few days ago, it is hard for me to get them back down. I crave carbs.
In fact, yesterday I was having some nostalgia as I ponder the comments recently left for me, and I started longing for a simple bowl of steel cut oatmeal with walnuts and berries in it. I was rationalizing to myself about how healthy this would be and made myself 1 serving (1/4 c dry) oatmeal with 2 Tbsp nuts, 1/3 cup of blueberries, some Stevia drops and 1/4 cup of 2% milk. I thought, maybe this will help me feel better. Maybe I don't really have to eat low carb. This is gluten free and sugar free and surely my body will be thankful for the nutrition. Well, my body was not thankful. I felt awful. I got the old familiar headache, slight nausea, and just felt completely awful for a couple of hours. And then I just craved more carbs all day. I think eating that many carbs (40g) at a sitting makes my blood sugar all kinds of unstable. And unstable blood sugar, in me at least, causes headaches and a sort of shaky feeling.
I managed to eat on plan about 80% of the time this week. I've eaten tuna mixed with light mayo in Romaine lettuce leaves, Indian spiced chicken breast with broccoli, and just plain salad. I feel better spacing my food in the Medifast fashion, with a shake or other low carb/high protein mini meal every 2-3 hours.
I think back to when I was a kid and sometimes I get a little angry at the way I was taught and allowed to eat. Who gives a toddler chocolate ice cream for breakfast?? I mean really?? I can almost... ALMOST understand the "standard American breakfast" I was usually given of Cocoa Krispies, Fruity Pebbles, Frosted Flakes and Cocoa Puffs... but ice cream? Why was my lunch so often a hot dog on a white bun with a side of Cheetos? Why was a second grader given potato chips in almost every packed lunch for school, along with a sandwich on Wonder bread? Why was I given Coke, and taken to McDonalds so often I almost thought I lived there? How do you justify having a pantry full of Oreos and giving your kid Kraft macaroni and cheese every weekend, letting them slather margarine on everything, melting Velveeta on their broccoli, giving them a bowl of processed cheese spread for an after school snack, and frying their eggs in bacon grease? I dunno, it just frustrates me because all of those things set my tastes for life. But none of it matters now, really. I am just PMS venting.
I emailed the Medifast dietitians about possibly adding more produce to to my menu (with a 4 & 2 perhaps, which is a different Medifast plan) and am just trying to stay off the carbs and wait til I hear back from them.
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