I am feeling really great today! I love the sensation of freedom from food obsession. I *know* it is not forever, I am not "cured" of wanting junk, and I will probably always have to guard against jumping into a pile of cookies, but *just for today* I am free. In this moment, I am well. And I love that. I loved it about the South Beach diet, I loved it about low carbing, and I love it about Medifast. Always, a few days to a week into eating 100% on *any* of those plans, I suddenly stop obsessing about food. *Poof*... obsession gone. Like today, I forgot to eat lunch until almost 2pm! Excuse me, but that is unheard of for a food addict like myself. On an average day, I am chomping at the bit to get to my next meal. But not now, not today. I feel great. My energy is returning. I am getting things done and feeling more sunshiny, for lack of a better word. I am happy. And I am back to the non-obsessed state that I think is as close to normal as I can get. Getting off of sugar and high carb junk is the key.
PMS, stress, and food exposure are the things that shake me. They push me... pull me, really... closer to going off plan. Those things drag my attention to food, shouting, "look at me! look at me!" when I am in the grocery store trying to buy fresh produce but walking past those awful endcaps full of junk. They whisper gently in the evening... "you deserve it. Just a little bit. So yummy." And all I can do is say NO and distract myself with other things, and remember that I do not want to go back to that pit of obsession. Ever. So now, today, while I have my food sanity/sobriety, I fortify myself and power up my determination to stay completely on plan. I focus on my goals, and I keep my attitude in line to get me there. Because stress is going to happen, and I have to get back in the habit of biking or walking or doing other things in response to stress like I used to.
Tonight I am doing a dual meal for me and the kids... something I don't do very often. I usually just fix a lean meat, some veggies and a salad for all of us, and perhaps some potatoes or brown rice or whole wheat bread for them. But sometimes I want to eat something they don't like and I want them to have something I can't eat (like beans). I almost NEVER prepare two completely separate meals, though. I like to keep it simple! Here's how it's done:
Brown 2 pounds of extra lean beef in a nonstick skillet. Drain.
Then I measure out 5 ounces (my portion) and put it in a small soup pot. The rest goes back into the skillet.
Open 2 cans of diced Italian tomatoes (5 grams of carbs or less per serving). Measure 1/2 cup into the small soup pot and dump the rest into the skillet.
Chop about 1.5 cups of cabbage and celery and throw it into the small pot.
Add a can of pinto beans and a can of kidney beans, drained, to the skillet.
Add a cup of chicken broth to the small pot and a cup or two to the skillet.
Season both with onion powder, garlic powder, and black pepper. Add chili powder to the skillet.
Lids on and simmer both for a half hour. Done!
The small soup pot will contain my entire Lean & Green dinner, which looks like this: Cabbage Soup.
The skillet will contain lots of chili for the rest of the family! I usually serve them some cornbread with it. Sometimes I just make the chili and dish mine out before adding the beans. But tonight I really wanted cabbage soup and my kids detest cabbage, so this is the easy way to please everyone.
Enjoy your day!
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