Sunday, January 20, 2013

Weight, Sleep

Weight today is 216. That's one pound down this week.

Sleep log last night:
Got to bed at 10:30
Fell asleep around 11
Woke up for no apparent reason at 2:30. I have no idea if there was a noise or what. I just woke up and laid there.
Fell back asleep around 3:30
Woke up by dog alarm around 7, which is later than usual.

So I got about 7 hours! Much better than it has been lately.

Speaking of sleep deprivation, did I ever tell you about the time I suffered sleep paralysis? It was terrifying. I thought I was dying. It was early in my daughter's life, after she'd come home from the hospital with all her monitors and oxygen and issues. I was the only one trained to titrate her oxygen and give her medication, and it was a round-the-clock job. I did not have any help, not a mother or a sister or a cousin to assist me. Friends were not "allowed" to come over due to risk of infection. My husband at the time also did not help in her medical care except to occasionally change a diaper, rock her or hold her while I took a quick shower. So I was getting next to zero sleep. In fact, for about 6 months... maybe longer... I existed on an average of 2 hours of sleep every 24 hours. I was a walking zombie. It is a miracle I was able to function, but I did. I was on hyper-alert all the time because at any given moment I could have one of several monitor alarms beeping at me to fix this or that. It was insane. One day I laid down on my mattress which was on the floor next to her crib. I went to sleep, but when I woke up, I was paralyzed. I was fully awake but completely unable to move. It was like those nightmares where you've been declared dead and they are zipping you up in a bodybag or closing the coffin to bury you, but you're totally aware yet unable to scream out, "stop! I'm alive!" Truly a horrifying experience I hope to never relive. It lasted about ten minutes by my best guess but seemed a lifetime, and then my ability to move returned and everything was back to normal again.

Nowadays I generally get five hours of sleep a night. I am working on that to get it up to a solid 7. I have not been a really sound sleeper since my daughter was born.

Today I am being intentionally lazy. After the last couple of weeks, it is just nice to sit and relax and sip decaf coffee and read for half a day. It's been a good weekend for that! Who knows what chaos the coming week will bring, so I may as well enjoy some down time while I have it. I do need to get the house cleaned this evening and tomorrow morning for company. Looking forward to it!

Enjoy your Sunday!


Anonymous said...

No doubt you woke up Lynn because your brain accustomed to it with your daughter disturbing your sleep. Those neural patterns can be changed..just takes time.
Your little girl needs to learn to 'self soothe' and to sleep alone. It is a developmental milestone. Please don't deprive her of that because you are too 'tired' to get her on a proper sleep program.

Lyn said...


she did not wake me up last night. She did sleep in her own bed. I would never deprive my child of something because I am "too tired."

Brandi Kennedy said...

Congrats on looking out for your own health by making sure you get enough downtime and good rest. I say, if you let your little one crawl in beside you, that's your choice. But it is a good idea to have told her (like you have blogged before) not to wake you if she needs to sleep with you. As a school age child, she is old enough to understand that you need good rest too, and good on you for standing up under all the pressure!

Anonymous said...

I've had the experience of sleep paralysis probably 5 or 6 times before. It's a really weird feeling, but it didn't really scare me as bad as it did you. I think it happened to me a couple times as a child. I remember wondering as a kid if I was the only one this happened to, because my family didn't understand what I was talking about. I also sleepwalked as a child, so I wonder if this is related. I remember reading about sleep paralysis later, and was glad to understand what it was. Hope you get some well deserved rest and improve with your foot pain! :)

Oozaroo said...

Sleep paralysis is terrifying, and it has happened to me more than once!

Anonymous said...

I've had sleep paralysis once. It is disconcerting. I thought the mention of sleepwalking was interesting as I also sleepwalked as a child.


Betsey C. said...

I had something similar happen to me one time when I was recovering from the flu. I woke up and couldn't move, but also has the feeling of a heavy weight pressing down on me. Did you have that feeling too? It was frightening, but only lasted 30 seconds or so. Congrats on your weight loss this week, Lyn!