Friday, January 11, 2013

Update

What a quiet, peaceful day I am finally having. I'm sitting in my living room drinking coffee and eating a Medifast pancake, watching a few big snowflakes slowly drift to the ground outside the window. All the kids are at school or work. Everything is quiet and the dogs are napping on the floor. I love it.

I don't have anywhere I need to be today. I'm just washing sheets, cleaning a little here and there, and reading. Later I'll make my favorite meatloaf for dinner; veggie is still to be decided. I am so glad it's the weekend, too. I need a little calm, and I think this weekend will provide that! Yesterday was chaos, but not in the running-around kind of way. I did all my running around Sunday through Wednesday to the point of limping, but yesterday was the mental and emotional chaos that comes from dealing with difficult people and circumstances. I am working very hard to get appropriate medical care for my son and myself, but when you can't get in to see necessary people for weeks or months, that makes it hard. After getting my daughter to school and taking a class with my dog, I sat for four hours straight making phone calls and writing emails just for medical stuff. It's not physically hard but it is a drain on the emotions and mind. I didn't get *everything* in place, but I got enough done for now. I can reassess on Monday.

The scale is easing slowly back down; my eating is back under control with Medifast although I am still drinking WAY too much coffee as a coping mechanism... I think yesterday was the worst at about 8 cups. Two were decaf, but still. About half of them were black and half had Splenda and half & half in them. It is an absolute crutch, but somehow a hot drink in my hand while I am working on things makes me feel better. Today I am switching back to tea, since I am already on my second cup of coffee and can tell this is a hot drink kind of day! Luckily I do not like any sweeteners or milk products in my teas, ever, so as long as I stick with mainly decaf and herbals I can indulge as much as I like.

This losing weight thing is such a project. Really, I am both proud and frustrated about the whole thing. I know for a fact that if I had not made many of these permanent lifestyle changes (no sodas, no fast food, drinking more water, eating more veggies, smaller portions) I would be back at 280 or more right now. I *know* that those changes, along with completely stopping the binge eating, are what has allowed me to keep off 60 pounds for years now. I also believe that if I had been able to keep up the activity level I was enjoying at the beginning of this year, I'd easily be maintaining 20 pounds lower. There are still habits I am working on making permanent: being gluten free/grain free/sugar free, eating more fish, cutting out most dairy. As I work on these, I believe it will be easier for me to maintain at an even lower weight. Hopefully as I go down the scale, I will add small changes that help me in the long run for better health and weight.

May your Friday be as peaceful and relaxing as mine!


9 comments:

Samantha said...

Hi! Just wanted to drop you a note to say thanks for the post! I found your site when googling Medifast and I'm excited because I started on 8 January and I'm going through the first week. Love reading your posts, they're awesome inspiration!

Anonymous said...

If coffee gets you through so be it. As long as you are of the sugar and wheat I think that is what matters. Thank you for inspiring me; I am praying for you and your kids.

Amanda

Anonymous said...

I know the pain from PF..Absolutely horrible!!After suffering and not having other methods work I did get the the cortisone injection. Although the most painful 30 seconds of my life, the pain went away 100% after 3 days and has not returned. I almost cried when I realized how much life I had lost because I wouldn't get the recommended injection. I am wondering why, if this is so painful for you, that you will not try the shot?

Lyn said...

Anonymous~

because I have been advised that although it is being called plantar fasciitis, it is more likely plantar fasciosis and is a degenerative process rather than an inflammation problem. A cortisone shot is unlikely to work and possibly could damage the heel pad further; oral steroids had no effect.

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn

I love hearing about your peaceful day. You certainly deserve it! I hope things work out for your son and yourself. I keep you and yours in my thoughts.

LHA said...

I just caught up on reading your last three posts. You have a lot going on in your life! Like most of us, it is some good, some bad, but you seem to be keeping your mood up. I want to applaud you for not freaking out over eating off plan while traveling and keeping the less than perfect food intake in perspective. Traveling always leads me to eat a little strangely, but it is the horrible aftermath of guilt and shame that usually leads me to eat more! It sounds like to me you used admirable restraint and didn't overeat terribly. I hope you enjoyed some of the food while you were eating it too!

Sorry about the PF. Someone in my family suffers from it and has had good results from the cortisone shots. To me, it seems like it would be worth a try for you, but of course that is your decision. It is impacting your life so negatively that you are almost forced to try anything that might work.

I have seen acupuncture work true miracles for several ailments on other people. (My job has put me in contact with people using acupuncture.) If you do decide to try it, I would recommend using an M.D. who is trained in acupuncture rather than some random person who may not have proper education. I believe you can find a list of medical acupuncturists online. I was very skeptical when the first person I knew used it but totally amazed at the result. It would be great if it could work for you.

As for the scale.....go back to the old trusty one! Consistency is all that matters when gauging weight loss.

Thanks for a real, honest and amazing blog. I am amused by those comments from people who don't understand some setbacks and deviations from plan. They don't live in my universe! I admire your attitude and your persistence and you have a lot to be proud of.

Anonymous said...

I used to drink coffee at home black and w/a very small bit of creamer and half a packet of Splenda when out. I now only drink black coffee during paleo days. I don't like tea as much, but am planning to get some sampler packages of herbal and green teas to find some that I like.

In the winter, I, too, like a hot cup of something around. It's comforting -- for my tummy, my hands, and my heart. : - )

Anonymous said...

Ugh, I had PF twice, both times I injured it by trying to do a Couch to 5K (I eventually learned that I should only run if being chased). It takes forever to heal from and it's super easy to re-injure. I have essentially given up heels and all foolish footwear on the alter of PF. Does your doc have you sleeping in a boot? Are you icing it when you can? I'm sure you know all of this, but I thought I'd put it out there. Good luck with your recovery.

Lyn said...

Anonymous~

yep, got the boot (night splint) and slept in it quite a bit, but lately I am propping my feet up at the correct angle with pillows instead. As long as I don't move around too much, that works well and is more comfortable. Plenty of ice too! Thanks :)