I AM going to find a way to balance all of this, somehow.
I have to get enough sleep and that is not happening, mainly due to stress, partly due to a daughter who still wakes in the night and dogs who turn into roosters at 6am regardless of what day it is. Last night I went to bed early (well, 10pm is early for me) but I laid there for an hour and a half thinking about all the *stuff* that is going on. But this has got to stop, I just have to get enough sleep. I already have one of my sons letting the dogs out and feeding them at 6, but when he leaves for school they think it is time for me to get up, so they start making noise. My daughter is almost always up at 6:30 anyway. So sleeping in the morning is not the answer. I told my daughter that from now on, if she wakes in the night she may quietly tiptoe into my room and IF she does not wake me up, she can get into my bed and go to sleep. That should help (she usually wakes me up and either asks for me to tuck her back in bed or asks for permission to get into mine). And I need to find a way to quiet my mind in the evening and get to sleep sooner instead of staying up late worrying. I dunno... I think about just getting in bed with a good book at 9 and drifting off by 10. But, like tonight. I have a kid out with a 10pm curfew. I want to be up when he gets home. So I dunno. I need sleep. Heck, I need a sleep aid and a nanny.
Without enough sleep, the scale is not moving much. It is wavering half a pound this way and that, but not a significant loss. I will still weigh "officially" on Sunday but this stress and lack of sleep is impacting the scale. I am limping in pain so my activity level is back to low. I have been tempted this week to stop eating 'real food' and just do shakes instead because I don't want to even deal with eating right now, but I know that would not be healthy. So I eat. I have 6 days on plan and then today I sort of blew it. I say "sort of" because having too much half and half in my coffee, too many packets of Splenda, a few ounces too much protein, and being short on vegetables is not exactly a ruined day. But it is off plan, and tonight I also ate a Clementine (you know, those little oranges) because my kids were eating them and they smelled soooo good. Is a 35-calorie piece of fruit something to stress about? Oh, I dunno. I go back and forth about how perfect I have to be on this plan. Really. A Clementine. Some half and half. Okay, I will count it as an off plan day, but I really don't feel horrible about it. I think tomorrow will be easier. No school and all.
Sorry for the rambling... I am sure you can tell how tired I am! My son should be home within the next 4 minutes (or else!) and then I can try to get to bed, and get some of that sleep I so desperately need.
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