Wednesday, January 2, 2013

2012 Weight Loss. Er... Um... Gain.

I figured I'd take a look back and see how I did in 2012.

First, December was a maintain. I weighed 218 on December 1 and 218 on December 31, too. I had gotten down to 211, but then had that lovely, rapid regain this past week.

Second, 2012 gave me a net gain of 17 pounds. That sucks!!! I have weighed very close to 217-218 every single month since I developed plantar fasciitis in March. It frustrates me because when 2012 was just starting, my goal was to focus on fitness and be more active and fit than ever. I got off to a good start, but somewhere along the lines I hurt my feet... and they have never healed. I did not meet my fitness goals at all.

I know weight loss... and keeping it off... can take time. I am proof of that. I am glad I have kept off 60 pounds over these years; that is a big accomplishment. But I would be lying if I said I mean to let this drag on forever. I don't want to be 60 years old and still hacking away at the same five pounds! This is my sixth year blogging, and once again I look at the coming year and just want to be done with this... with the weight loss. With the dieting. I want to move on to maintenance with Primal eating. I am patient, but I am starting to lose it! I need to be finished, and I cannot imagine sitting here in January 2014 saying "oh well, at least I lost ten pounds in 2013!" You know?? I just can't.


9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Don't give up. You've come so far and usually when people give up they go back to square one and even gain more. You can do this, maybe start a journal to track your intake. Even with low carbb tracking helps.

You are an inspiration to a lot of folks and you have the BEST Meatloaf recipe ever

Fair Enough said...

I think it's really important to become ok with the process and totally comfortable with it. Find comfort in it as well. Really enjoy the foods that you are able to eat.

I know it is hard but you can't keep thinking about how much you want it to end, how much you want all the weight to be gone, how much you want to be eating "normally", and so on. You have to come to terms with and accept the fact that this is going to take a long time, and you need to take it one day at a time. You have not been perfect in the past and now it is going to take longer than originally planner-that's just life-and you can't change that. Make the best of now and really try to steer clear of time-related thoughts. Focus on sticking to plan 100%.

The above general ay of thinking helped me and continues to help me when I'm feeling low about things.

Now that major holidays are going to be over for a while, it's a really good time to seriously focus, with less temptations in your way. Make a goal of having a perfect month and see where it goes from there?

Traveling Light said...

LOL!!!

Considering the fact that I'll be 61 years old in about a week, I thoroughly know what you mean. snicker.

And as far as being comfortable with the process... I understand exactly what Fair Enough means, and she is right, BUT there comes a time when we need to look around and realize that we've become WAY TOOOOO COMFORTABLE with our version of this particular process.

My grandmother used to say, "Well a person can get used to hanging if they hang long enough." She would say that when someone would talk about needing to get "used to" something that no one ought to be expected to put up with under any circumstance. We ought not to get comfortable with the process we've been hanging with these past two years.

It has been torturously miserable--a lot of work and stress and grief to gain weight rather than lose it.

I, for one, have "hung" long enough. I think I'd like to untie myself and climb down now. I want to get used to sticking on plan and losing weight.

But I really do know what FE meant. And, yes, we need to enjoy the journey--it just needs to be a journey in the right direction.

Traveling light,

Deb

Fair Enough said...

I meant more or less to be comfortable with the actual process of LOSING weight and sticking to plan-not the process of trying to lose weight but not really seriously sticking to it 100%. Being comfortable/patient with being quite strict with your lifestyle/eating isn't easy but I think it's pretty necessary when one has a significant amount of weight to lose. It's going to take a lot of time and dedication.

It seems to me Lyn has never really truly become "ok" with the actual process of losing weight and staying in that cycle...the weight loss starts and stops and cycles over and over again. Doing the mundane things necessary to lose, and doing them constantly (exercising, eating to plan, etc) are vital.

Sorry for such a long response. I know what you mean and do agree you can't grow comfortable with doing the things that don't really work, or trying at something halfway. You have to go ALL the way and be really serious about it-it takes long enough and is hard enough to lose a lot of weight, period, don't make it taken even LONGER by fudging around.

Desert Singer said...

I haven't been online reading blogs regularly, so I don't know if you've tried swimming? Is there a resource you could use to get in your fitness that way?

I gained back 30 lbs this year... and 15 of them have been since October. I was transfering my calendar birthdays to my new calendar for 2013 and February of 2012 I was my lowest weight ever.

I am angry at myself. I was trying to analyze it this morning, and I think some of it has to do with it happening so fast... which is fabulous at the time, but now I look back and (as much as my head knows differently, my heart is what is speaking) it feels like *I* didn't actually do it.

Hang in there. It sucks. But this is what it is right now, and we are doing the best we can with what we have, where we are. Good Grief it sucks, sucks, sucks.

Lyn said...

Desert Singer~

I was swimming for awhile when I had a 3 month gym membership (special price, but now it would be about triple to join!) and I also can swim once or twice a week in the summer at an outdoor pool I can travel to. But no luck at the moment, unless the gym offers a New Years deal.

CarrieHales said...

The fact that you are still here fighting says so much abut your determination. Sure you may not have had the results you wanted, but you could have given up months..even years ago. You WILL get there in the end!

Taryl said...

In some ways it is such a blessing that, in the process of losing weight, I've had TWO pregnancies now. I have had to get used to the notion of continuing on with healthy habits with no scale feedback of reliability, because after a certain point in pregnancy it WILL go up every week regardless of my intake. Thus, I spend each day just making good choices because it's the thing to do, not worrying about the number or my size or anything else. And then even postpartum it becomes a much more peaceful relationship with my scale, just getting data from it and not judge my success, failure, or even progress by those numbers.

The alternative to continuing on even if the scale isn't moving is not an option for you OR me, so making peace with the process and not itching for maintenance is probably going t be in your best interest for peace of mind. That said, I KNOW it can be frustrating and getting to that point of scale zen isn't particularly easy. Still, keep hacking away at the pounds and don't neglect the head work, you may very well find that, like me, the time spent losing is good enough for it's own merit and the journey worth the effort expended. Don't give into frustration. It's not worth it!

Cathy said...

I gained back 20% of what I lost recently, and do not feel awesome about it. But yes, losing 60 lbs and keeping it off is still amazing, and we can never give up. I don't know that I will ever be "done" with weight loss. At this point I don't know that I expect to be.