I am still not feeling so great, very tired and headachy. My eating is okay... lean pork roast in the crock pot tonight and maybe some roasted green beans with garlic. My flavored coffees taste really good black, so those are my new "treat." I am eating about 1200 calories a day. I got a stomach ache from the cauliflower pizza last night, not sure why. I am drinking a lot of liquid meals like EAS low carb shakes and Medifast hot cocoa. It feels harder to digest solids sometimes.
Lately, I go back and forth between determination and frustration. I have worked really hard over the past several months to change my eating to low carb and grain free. I have cut way back on dairy, too. I've exercised, except for this past week and a half being sick and not going to the gym. I am going to PT twice a week and STILL in tremendous pain on a daily basis. I am happy with the changes I have made but not happy with the results. I'm just not.
It's been more than six months since I transitioned off of Medifast. When I started adding carbs back, the weight started coming back on. In March, I added fruit, dairy, beans, legumes, whole grains, and starchy vegetables like peas, corn, and potatoes back into my diet just like the Transition Plan told me to, and in that one month I gained nine pounds... not on junk, but on carbs. Obviously I am carb sensitive and don't do well on 200 grams of carbs a day, even from natural "healthy" foods. And something else happened in March, too, according to my little calendar notebook: my feet started to hurt. Yes, I have been suffering this plantar fasciitis pain ever since then, and I have weighed about 215-220 pounds every month since then, too.
Maybe what I need for my feet to heal and this pain to end is just to weigh less. Maybe at 205 or 199 my feet could finally heal. I am SO TIRED of being in pain every step I take. It is exhausting. Chronic pain just DRAINS you. The PT is not helping yet. I will keep going, but I just cannot live in this much pain anymore. It has changed my lifestyle so much. It just has to stop, somehow.
I am thinking of weighing on Sunday and seeing where I'm at. I am thinking of doing a two day "detox" program I have been asked to review, and I am thinking of using the last few weeks worth of Medifast foods I have left from spring to try and get myself back down below 199, and then transition *without* adding any grains, beans, dairy, or starchy veggies back in. I think if I do that, my feet might have a chance to heal and once I am pain free again I will be able to be more active (and not feel so crappy because of being in pain every day) and if I carefully track and keep my carbs under 100, I believe I will continue to lose.
I am going to sleep on it, think about it, formulate a timeline for what I am doing and make a decision this weekend.
Clear Blue Sky
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