I am in a lot of pain but wanted to write anyway, so please forgive me if I sound a little off.
First order of business: I did get on the scale this morning and saw 222. That is up 3 pounds from my last weigh in on November 1. You already know how I feel about that.
Second: I mentioned I have a 2-day detox plan I committed to reviewing. I haven't been doing many reviews at all, but when this was offered I was curious. I've heard about detox plans but never tried one... didn't want to spend the $200ish dollars. But to try one for free? Hey, that might be interesting. And I really do enjoy writing reviews on products like this. I think there aren't enough *truly honest* and informative reviews out there on diet/health products, and I hope my reviews help others. They are fun to write, too... my last review on Sensa sprinkles has been pretty popular and I enjoyed writing it. Anyway, I always check ingredients and since this detox plan is gluten free and doesn't appear to have any crazy, harmful ingredients, I agreed to try it. It's only two days after all, and claims to possibly help speed up metabolism, break a weight plateau, cleanse and detoxify the system, and increase energy. Yeah, I take those claims with a grain of salt, but we'll see, right?
I was planning to do the detox today and tomorrow but I woke up feeling quite bad and I think if I do this detox while I am still sick I am going to regret it. It wouldn't really be a fair review because I already feel like crap. It's just going to have to wait, which sucks, because I wanted to get it done and focus on Medifast. Instead, I am doing the best with what I have and I think the best option is to just start Medifast now and fit the detox in when I am feeling better.
Also, I wanted to repeat something I said in the comments on my last post. Unless you've experienced chronic, daily pain for an extended period of time, I think it's hard to understand just how much it can affect a person... not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. My pain is not mild, it is at least moderate and often severe on a daily basis and has been for most of the last 7 months. It hurts to stand, to walk, to do anything at all on my feet. Add to that the headaches that have recently come back to plague me, and you have a person who is starting to feel very beat down and hopeless. All I want at this point is to escape the pain. Escaping the obesity is connected, but secondary. The pain is part of what is driving me to make my choices right now. Frankly, I am desperate. I am back to taking all manner of pain medications, doing physical therapy twice a week and the prescribed exercises daily, sleeping (very little) with uncomfortable big plastic splints on my feet, limiting activity, and keeping lights off and blinds drawn to attempt to keep migraines at bay. Some days I just want to go to bed and not get up. The pain is affecting me deeply.
I know that when I was on Medifast before, my headaches were gone completely and I stopped getting sick. I know that when I weighed less, I did not have this foot pain. It is my last straw of hope and if this is not the answer I don't know what I am going to do. I can keep low carbing but losing a pound or two a month is not going to cut it. I need results and I need them now, because I am convinced that weight loss results will bring an end to my pain, too. If I am wrong, I don't know what I will do.
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