Saturday, November 3, 2012

Through It All

I can't help but feel really good about where I am right now with my eating. Sure, there is stuff to tweak. There is always room for improvement... more veggies every day, for example. But wow, compared to how I used to eat when I started this blog, it is amazing. And now that the scale is moving again, it just confirms I am on the right path here.

I am 43 years old. I don't want to spend these awesome years of my life being tired and overweight and worried about dieting. I just want to get to a weight where my quality of life is optimized, where my weight no longer affects my ability to do the things I want to do. I don't want to spend another five years dieting.

I feel like I have given this 100%. Over all the years of my blogging, I have had wonderful support from kind people who read. I also get my share of criticism. It comes in waves. Funny thing, when I am in a stall or a plateau, I get a lot of emails and comments telling me I am doing it wrong, I am not serious, I certainly must be eating more than I say I am or I'd be losing weight. But when I am actively losing, I get lots of compliments on figuring it out, and people telling me I inspire them.

I guess from my perspective, it is all one journey. The active losing, the stalls, the bits of regain, the looong plateaus. Trying different things, adding exercise, changing what I eat... all of it is my one journey. To me, this past 12 months is no different than the 18 months from September 2008 through March 2010 where I had a regain and then stalled out, unable to get back to my low of 214 that I hit in the summer of 2008. I remember it well, because I was working hard on my eating and exercise, yet people doubted. They thought surely I must not be trying hard enough, if I was not losing weight for a year and a half. But I was doing my best. I never gave up, I tried and worked through ALL those months... and then finally I started losing again. Here I am again in a long stall, but not giving up, still working at it daily. I think if I could impart one bit of knowledge to people who read my blog it would be that weight loss is not always a linear thing. Ups and downs and plateaus happen and it does not always mean the person gave up or isn't trying or is fibbing about their intake. Sure, there are people who do that... people who eat a pan of brownies and just conveniently leave it out of their blogging and complain about gaining weight from their chicken and salad. But that is not always the case. Some people's bodies are just resilient, I think... resistant to dropping weight because we have gone up and down the scale so many times that our metabolism sort of 'learns' to be more efficient with the calories. I think I am loving proof of that. Here I am, blogging through it. Experiencing it. Knowing this is a lot more complex than I ever imagined. But I also know and believe that persistence pays off and healthy, moderate eating over time WILL yield weight loss. Time. That is what I am counting on.

Thank you so much for the support, through the exciting losses, the boring stalls, and the frustrating gains. It means a lot to me, and I think it won't be too much longer before I start seeing results. It's just a feeling I have. We'll see.

8 comments:

timothy said...

i'm glad you're in a good place physically and emotionally, i KNOW how difficult the journey can be but it makes it a bit easier havin good friends along with you for the journey! xoxoxo

16 blessings'mom said...

Lyn, you don't know me, but I have been praying for you that you would break through this long plateau and see that scale number drop. I am so encouraged by your perseverance. I am also experiencing that weight loss doesn't mean seeing pounds lost week after week. For me, it is like the Bunny Hop, forward backward hop hop hop. Lose two pounds, gain one back, finally lose the other one again...it goes so slowly. I am not giving up either though! Keep on going, and keep sharing - through the ups and downs, because you are so real! Thank you, and I am happy for you!

Della

Anonymous said...

"I think I am loving proof of that." This is the perfect "Freudian slip" typo. I do think you are living proof of loving yourself. You don't give up, you keep at it and you make it work for you. Love your blog!

Lyn said...

Thank you so much, guys!! Your kind words lift me up and help me keep going. Della thank you so much for your prayers, they are much welcome!

Greta said...

Your positive attitude through all this is the reason I always come back to read more. Personally, I think you're an inspiration even when the weight isn't coming off!

Tracie said...

Lyn, you are an inspiration. I found your blog searching the internet regarding Medifast. I read your whole blog back to your Medifast days. I find your journey similar to mine and am so inspired and uplifted to know that others struggle too. You are amazing in your quest to NEVER give up!!! Keep chugging along, you are doing great! And..thank you so much for sharing your story so openly and honestly with all of us :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn,
I have been reading your blog for almost a year now,found it when I started Medifast June 2011.I used to be one of those people that would look at an overweight person and think "why can't he/she just stop eating junk and exercise,and stop being lazy,then the weight will come off". I was always conscious of what I ate and exercised all the time,at 5'8" I was anywhere from a low of 140 to my high of 155. Everything changed when I went through menopause,I developed a thyroid condition and gained over 25 pds in 2 years all the while dieting and exercising.I was a mess,humilated when I would see people I hadn't seen in awhile,I wanted to shout out"its not my fault! I'm not overeating,I'm exercising!" I hid as much as I could,made excuses for not going out socially and when I had to was a basket case trying to find clothes that fit,I went from a size 8 to a 12,I weighed 174 a pregnancy weight for me!I know that doesn't sound like a lot to some but for me who always prided herself on my figure it was devasting. Fast forward 2 years,I got on the right thyroid meds after fighting with my endo and having to go to an alternative dr and going on Medifast,and lost all the weight,reaching a low of 144. I have gained a little back and still fight with my weight,Im 54 and realize that I will never have the body I once did and that for my age I look pretty good,but with my self esteem issues its sometimes hard to deal with it. I just wanted to say I admire your perservance and that you are right some people for whatever reason will have a hard time losing,that its not a "one size fits all",what works for one person will not work for another.Gaining all that weight for me has given me a new perspective and compassion for those who struggle with weight,and in a way I'm glad it happened to me,it opened my eyes and my heart.

Teresa said...

This post helped me today. This is my 3rd week and I lost my "spark" when I looked in the mirror this morning. Your determination inspires me to keep on keeping on.
Best wishes to you much gratitude.
Thanks for blogging all your ups and downs.
~ t.