Friday, November 30, 2012

Struggling a Bit

Last night and this morning I am struggling. My brain keeps thinking about stuff I want to eat. It is hard to ignore. I've been staying on plan... yesterday afternoon was when I started craving things like candy bars and crackers and sandwiches and all the sugary and wheat based stuff I've been avoiding. I even split my dinner into two different meals to push back the hunger and cravings; earlier in the day I had a small bowl of chili (no beans) made simply of lean beef, peppers, tomatoes, beef broth, and celery, and then later in the evening I had a whole small can of water-packed tuna mixed with light mayo and eaten on cucumber slices. Yeah, I really wanted that tuna salad to be on Ritz crackers, but the cucumbers were a better bet. None of that made my cravings go away and there was seriously a short period of time that if I'd had a bag of mini Snickers in the house I would have eaten several. I even had a flash of a thought where I imagined making up some excuse to run to the store to get a Snickers bar. But I held out.

This morning I woke up thinking of cookies and lattes and sandwiches, and I am fighting my brain to NOT just go get the things I am craving and eat them. The little voice says "you can get right back on plan tomorrow!" But we know exactly where that little voice leads us, right? I don't want to go there.

So I am posting here instead, hoping that admitting it and having people 'watching' me will help me be strong and not eat things that are harmful to me. I don't need the extra pain and joint inflammation from the sugar and wheat. I don't need to see a higher number on the scale. I don't need to indulge myself in a pity party of potato chips and ice cream today. I need to stay focused and eat healthy so I can feel better. Really, 90% of my days it is pretty easy to choose healthy foods. I just have to power through the other 10% when I want to eat the old, favorite crap foods.

Off to take my daughter to school and NOT pick up a latte.

17 comments:

Theresa said...

This always happens before the scale drops. Hang on Lyn!! :)

Anonymous said...

Just wondering if your sugar cravings are related to the increased sugar from the 2-day detox?
Melissa

jacq said...

Good luck today!!! I know this monster can be very hard to fight. Keep up the good work and your reward will be so much better than a cookie and a latte!
Jacqueline

Anonymous said...

Ok Lynn. Im watching you. Ok? And Im here to remind you that the first place your body dumps glycogen fuel is in the muscles. After the muscles get depleted, your body begins feasting on the glycogen stored in your liver. After the liver is depleted, then for a time you are going to crave carbs terribly. Your body is used to burning glycigen and it wants that easily accessible energy.



Were the cravings begin is were the beauty of transitioning to fat burning begins. Rejoice in your cravings. They are a sure sign you are quickly becoming ketotic and will soon become a fat burning beast! Another bright side to all of this is the effect of autophagy. Autophagy is the hungry body using apoptosis to literally eat inferior protiens like old worn out cells for duel. Many studies have shown that when allow ourselves to be hungry our brilliant systems gorge on a multitude of cells and tissues that without that housecleaning would eventually cause us disease. Sorta like why caloric restricted diets lenthen life. This hungry period could possibly burn up the future makings of cancer or arthritis or any number of the chronic illnesses of old age. Wouldnt passing at a nice old age with no discernable chronic disease be the ideal? It used to happen quite frequently back before our food culture took over.

HEALTHY AMELIA said...

Boy do I know the feeling! I find that trying to beat down cravings with just willpower alone doesn’t work for me, personally. I also find that they crop up when I’m not including enough fat in my diet. Sometimes when I feel that way, I do my best to eat some high quality fat like coconut oil, butter, bacon, salami, spoonful of nut-butter, etc. I find that those “bad food cravings” can be satisfied that way, even if I don’t “think” that’s what I want. I hope it passes soon!

Anonymous said...


Lyn
All of 'want' goodies. But we say to ourselves "No. I have a plan and a goal and eating goodies doesn't support me needs"
I suggest you write a similar statement on an index card and put it in your pocket. Read it all day whenever the cravings hit.
Like "I am in excrutiating pain 24hrs a day exacerbated by my weight. Eating goodies will keep me in this crappy place deteriorating quality of life"

Lyn said...

Melissa~

very well could be! I wasz probably a bit over 100g carbs on those days with all the juice.

Thank you all! I love blogging. It is keeping me from jumping off the deep end into a pool of Snickers :)

Alana in Canada said...

Protein is satieating, and protein plus a little fat even more so. What a bout a snack that fits your plan but includes a bit of both (Instead of tuna next time for lunch, try a little ground beef fried up with green and red peppers and chili spice. Just a thought.)

Lori said...

Be strong. You've got this.
Lori

Anonymous said...

Lyn, from a fellow SAD sufferer, these carb cravings are a classic symptom of SAD. Anything you can do to treat your SAD will also help with the cravings, which are your body's attempt to manufacture some serotonin.

Anonymous said...

Lyn - ditto what Lori said. You know all the nutrition and scientific stuff. You know what to do. I have a little sheet of paper on my file cabinet,with the letters in about 36 font, that says "What do I REALLY want?" Hm..wonder who I got that from? : ) You may want the junk (and I understand) but what you REALLY want is to have your life back. I'm "watching", and fighting making the same decisions with you. ErinK

lasting success said...

Dear Lynn, I am sending you prayers. No one can know how hard, sneaky and persistent those horrid cravings can be-unless they have been there. Those of us who have are here for you, sending love and support.

Anonymous said...

i think this is one of the more honest posts you have written. well done for recognizing your weaknesses and taking steps to overcome them.

MargieAnne said...

Hang in there. If it's from the detox another 24 hours and you should be free.

Eat more stuff on cucumber. I tried avocado mashed with lemon, dash of chilli, pepper and salt yesterday. You've gotta know I'm desperate when I eat Cucumber 'crackers' even if they ate delish.

Blessings

Lyn said...

Anonymous~

thank you, but all of my posts are honest. Transparency is the point of this blog.

I definitely have plenty to work on :)

LHA said...

EVERYONE faces these days! Anyone who claims that they started a weight loss program and never suffered withdrawal pangs or food craving is not being truthful, or they are not human. Sometimes I tell myself I can eat those things "tomorrow" or "next week" if I still want them. I never want them then. Or, I find something interesting to do that is a treat or another kind. Maybe a movie or buying a book, or shopping for a purse that I don't really need, or maybe just walking and window shopping. One time I spent a whole weekend drawing designs for my dream house and I was in no way going to build a house! I just enjoyed the creative exercise. Good luck in chasing away those cravings. I know you can do it!

h2oratt said...

It's probably happening because of the detox
The fruit juice
When I am in fatburning I don't have any cravings or obsessions