Monday, November 19, 2012

Another Day

Today is my second day back on Medifast. Yesterday was fine. Not hard, sort of a relief. I had 2 cups of black coffee, five Medifast meals (hot cocoa, pancake w/sugar free syrup, two shakes, and a brownie), a cup of homemade chicken stock, and a dinner of five ounces of steak with 1.5 cups of green beans simmered in chicken stock. By the way, that is a 100% gluten free menu.

I woke up feeling lousy with a migraine, limped to the kitchen to medicate, had some Medifast cereal with almond milk, took my daughter to school and then went to physical therapy. Last session I was switched to a different therapist and she was very aggressive with the treatment and I have been more sore ever since. Today I had her again but told her of my pain, so she modified the treatment. I still hurt a lot though, and am going to look into switching to a clinic that is certified in ASTYM treatment. Now I am having a Medifast hot cocoa. My day will look very similar to yesterday; I measured out another 5 ounces of beef and 1.5 cups of green beans that I will warm up and have for dinner again. I might have Medifast soup or sloppy Joe for lunch today.

I know part of my low energy and feeling down is from the pain, and part is from my seasonal affective disorder kicking in. I am taking my D3 vitamins but with the hurting feet I am not getting outside much and not taking walks anymore. And I got out my light box (which I use in winter while I eat breakfast) but the light is too much for my migraines. So the light therapy has to wait until I have a headache-free morning.

I hope I start to feel better soon, and I hope I get a result when I get on the scale again on Sunday.

I suppose I should start adding my disclaimer again. Most of this Medifast food I am eating is left over from spring, but I also just got a new box from Medifast with the cereal and pancakes because I didn't really have any breakfast-type foods. Thanks, Medifast.

*FTC-required disclosure: Medifast provided me with its products for my personal use for free.*


Tessie said...

I'm impressed that MF is still working with you! Good job for them, it's a positive shot in the arm that they have certainly not given up on you!! :)

Anonymous said...

I agree with Tessie. The fact that they are standing by you is impressive. I hope this works for you again and you lose the horrible pain.

Susan said...

you really need to be on a good B complex! My migraines are completely gone since going back on B complex. Your body is in constant stress mode and it is obvious you are not getting enough from your diet. I bet if you got a nutritional panel done you will find some deficiencies in other areas as well. Hope you can get this all figured out! Soon!

Anonymous said...

I think that this is a good decision. If it works for you again, my guess is that you're one of those individuals who can only lose weight with extremely low calories and carbs. You've had such a struggle that I wish you the best from the bottom of my heart.

Anonymous said...

Lyn- I've been reading your blog for years and I'm SO SO glad you are doing MF again. It worked and you fely great, remember. I think your plan to transition to Paleo is excellent. I know you will find success with this plan!!

Human In Progress said...

Lyn, I know you're in pain and feeling desperate. I'm also sure that it gets tiring to always have at least one person chiming in to tell you that "you're doing it wrong."

Still, even though I rarely comment, I feel moved to do so today. I just don't see how menus like the following:

2 cups of black coffee
hot cocoa
pancake w/sugar free syrup
two shakes
cup of homemade chicken stock
five ounces of steak with 1.5 cups of green beans simmered in chicken stock

are going to restore you to health. Even if it's gluten-free, low calorie, high protein. It just sounds like a lot of Frankenfood to me; it's not a long-term solution and it will not help you adjust to the (admittedly annoying) work of planning and prepping fresh food for yourself after transition. I think the convenience of doing little more than opening wrappers to serve most "meals" is a huge part of the allure, one I totally get...but something that will trip a person up later when they need to wean off of eating so much convenience food.

Anyway, I've never faced chronic pain, so that's one factor...and I'm no food saint myself. I eat a lot of junk food. I was losing weight slowly before (at almost eight months pregnant, I'm not losing any right now, pretty much maintaining). But I also don't yo-yo, because I refuse to adopt systems that I cannot maintain over the long run.

I'm convinced short-term thinking and desperation keeps many a dieter trapped in a hellish cycle, and I hope that's not what is happening to you right now. Best wishes.

Anonymous said...


If eating a diet of earthworms and peanuts would help Lyn get the weight off I would encourage it. ANYTHING has to be better than remaining obese.

To many of the people who chime in that "you are doing it wrong" forget that it is better to eat "frankenfoods" and lose 20 lbs than it is to eat "whole/natural" foods and carry that 20 lbs around. Doubt it? Go pick up 2 1/2 gallons of milk and take it on a mile walk. It is imperative to get the weight off your knees and feet. At 220 versus 175 lbs (that's 45 lbs more), Lyn is carrying the equivalent of 5 1/2 GALLONS of milk around. No wonder it hurts to walk. That is a LOT of extra weight for her feet.

Do whatever you need to do Lyn to get the weight off. If you needed to eat Medifast for the rest of your life to lose the weight and keep the weight off, it would be worth it to your health.

Not only is being overweight physically difficult, it is a huge quality of life issue.

You CAN do this Lyn.

h2oratt said...

Lyn, you have my full support. I have been on Medifast since Jan 2012
I have lost 65 lbs, I found your blog by looking for ways to jazz up the medifast.

What people dont realize this is a means to an end.
For me, I am a person with an overeating complusion, Medifast has helped me in a way no other eating plan has. It took all my focus off food. I use food to live and I am not living to eat anymore.
I am very close to goal. I realize the food isnt "natural" but i have been tested by my chiropracter and the food is very good for me. When we transition off the medifast food we go to whole natural foods.
I just am not a normal eater and this has finally given the power to change my eating habits. I love medifast, the support we get is wonderful.
Lyn hang in there, I know what is like to be driven to my knees by a hopelessness you cant describe.
you and your family are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

It's the transition part that is going to be the make it or break it. Maintenance is HARD, ask anyone. You DO NOT get to eat that much more than you did during losing, ask anyone that's maintained for a while. You can't change up THAT much, even if you get *bored*. I've been maintaining since 02-03 and I fell into some of these traps within the first 2 years of maintenence-it isn't easy. You seem to get that this time around, transition has to be a lot different. It absolutely has to or you will gain back all the weight loss plus some. When you are on such a structured plan like this where you really don't make any choices for yourself, I just wonder how you will continue the success and momentum once left to fend for yourself. Just something to think about. I know their are MF "counsellors" or whatever but basically I see it as going from all shakes/powders/made-up snacks to real food...and that is a big, big change. I just really hope you prepare better this time around because I'm starting to get deja-vu feelings here reading this entry.

Sara Thornton said...

I work with a nutritionist and personally lost 66 pounds since June on a low-carb and high protein diet. This does NOT mean frankenfood. The foods she is allowed to eat are things you may eat during a diet anyway, just that instead of going to a grocery store having to be confused and tempted and accidentally picking up foods that got you where you are in the first place is eliminated. That is the beauty of a program such as MF (which I just learned about as a new subscriber to this blog).

I don't eat like a rabbit in a low carb high protein diet. I drink protein shakes, eat lots of chicken and red meats for protein, also all the eggs, milk and cheese that I want. I don't watch calories or fat because in a low carb diet generally these fall into place as well.

But I do also take a B12 and a multivitamin just in case. I'm not perfect on my diet either but when I get off track and set a "back to basics" kind of day where I up my protein back up and lower the carb back down not only do I notice less cravings over time, but also the scale starts moving again.

Everyones body is made different so there are many different ways to lose weight and all of them have potential to be very successful. It just depennds on that individual individually. Low carb and high protein may not work for some and for others it's like the miracle diet. It's all just in what works for you both physically and mentally.

There is no right or wrong. We are, after all, beating an addiction. If we find something that helps us with it then by all means go forth with full force. :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lyn,

I've been following your blog for awhile now...I stumbled across it around January of 2011, so almost two years now. At that point, I went through and read through all your archived posts, right from the beginning to the most recent. It took me about one month, I believe, but I was deeply intrigued and desperately in need of insight from a fellow binger. I've greatly enjoyed your elegant prose and thought-provoking anecdotes, but most of all, I admire your character. In maintaining an honest, forthright, and current blog, you've shown yourself to be a person of true integrity. You've never shied away from honestly posting your current figures, no matter how disappointing they may be to you. I read many of the comments and it amazes me the sheer thoughtlessness of some individuals. Some have been downright rude or nasty, some are just overally judgmental, and some nag with (admittedly, probably well-intentioned) advice. You have quite the strength, to face all of those opinions on top of the myriad personal life issues you may be dealing with at any given moment. I wouldn't be able to put myself out there like that!

I've battled body/food issues since I can remember...I was the fat kid. While no one was usually outright cruel, I still caught snatches of whispered comments and snarky giggles. It hurt then, and does even still, although I'm no longer obviously overweight (medically, by a bit). I am terrified of the judgments of others. It impairs me on so many levels it's actually ridiculous...I have no friends, because I'm paranoid they will talk about me behind my back. I have issues trusting others, and accepting genuine compliments. I always, always assume compliments are out of pity. Anyway, not to go off on a tangent about myself. But I relate to so much of the hurt and fear and disappointment and desperation you write about.

Binge eating has been my weapon of choice for many years. I go on and off, up and down. Whenever I feel like I'm just on the brink of success, I collapse down into my self-destructive ways. Reading your blog, your descriptions, felt like home. It's not a place many people can understand. I felt - and feel - a little less bad knowing that you are out there, waging the same secret war day after day too. We fight our bodies, our minds, our emotions, our every thread of will we can one knows our thoughts and how anguishing it is to weigh a simple choice of, "should I eat this?" How many times you go back and forth, the pros and the cons..the bargaining begins, and there it goes. All the good intentions and will power and self-love, down into the hole, right there after that seemingly irresistable treat. And the cycle of abuse begins, only these bruises imprint our souls..

I don't have any advice to offer you, which may come as a relief- seeing as there's plenty of that out there already. I can only give you a sincere thank you, for giving this issue a consistent spotlight. Please never give up...your courage is sorely needed, for those of us who are too afraid or too ashamed to put it all out there for the world to mercilessly dissect and critique. You are our spokesperson...I would honestly say, our hero :)


Anonymous said...

what is the nutritional breakdown of your MF day? Think about the difference in fat percentages between MF and what you were eating.

While high fat diet satiates, it seems that even healthy fat does not spur weight gain in your body (nor mine). If you need that feeling of fullness or satisfaction, you could use this MF time to look at low fat plant based eating. Maybe you can have carbs (since MF doesn't appear to be low-carb to me), just not gluten. (other people avoid casein as well). Note, I am recommending this as an option for maintenance - right now, concentrate on the MF plan so it works for you. Good luck.

Janel said...

True, maintaining is hard....the key to successful maintenance is to transition SLOWLY! Yes, you can eat at maintenance calories (around 1800-2000) and maintain but you can't jump to that immediately if you have been eating 900-1000 calories a day for sustained amount of time otherwise the body will hold on to the extra you are eating because your metabolism has adjusted to eating the lower amount of calories. It is why I personally will not follow a very low calorie plan. However, I do agree that whatever plan works for Lyn to get the weight off is what she should do...she can worry about maintenance when she gets to that point. Her focus right now, needs to be getting the weight off so she can regain some quality of life. You can do this Lyn! Don't give up hun!!!

MrsEd said...

Lyn - your blog has been a great resource for me since starting Medifast in August. My own plantar fasciitis is what prompted me to star Medifast. I had suffered from chronic PF pain for 8 or 9 months prior to starting MF. I was 237 when I first started and had difficulty just going about my daily life due to the pain. Once I was down about 20lbs I noticed my pain was less and less. This week I weighed in at 201 and I am virtually pain-free. I've been walking daily for the past month and have not had any issues from PF. Also, my migraines have improved greatly - they are less frequent and much shorter in duration. I know you have been through this before and I know everyone is different, but I've had such great improvement in my feet and I hope you w I'll have the same or similar results! Just ignore the naysayers and keep putting one foot in front of the other. I wish you the best of luck in this journey and I congratulate you for taking the first step and recommitting to Medfast. I look forward to following your journey.