Friday, September 14, 2012


I had a really hard time last night fighting the food thoughts. It's funny, I don't really care for a lot of junk food these days but some of it still really calls to me, like cupcakes from a bakery. I am PMSing and made the mistake of going to Costco last night. Oh wow, the bakery stuff was just SCREAMING at me. I mean SCREAMING. It was almost deafening. Why do they have the fruit right by the cakes anyway? Well, I got out of that area and went towards the front where out of the corner of my eye I saw that giant candy aisle with all the super ginormous bags of candy in it. Again, I am not a candy bar fan anymore, but those clear plastic bins of chocolate covered nuts and fruits seemed to have long arms and claws reaching at me, trying to jump into my cart. I still crave M&M's too. But I got past it all with my frozen Mahi Mahi fillets and was checking out when I glanced at the line next to me and saw a big, dark, chocolate cake going down the conveyor belt, followed by a plastic container of almond toffee candy. Good heavens. Well I kept on going, right past the little Costco food area with pizza and churros and made it all the way out to the car and back home.

But it took a toll. Do you know what I mean? How you can be fine, not hungry, not really craving anything and then ALL THAT STIMULATION and exposure from a supermarket or a restaurant or whatever just triggers something... some strong desire to have it ALL. I dunno, it was nuts. I came home and had dinner and when the kids went to bed, I was practically pacing the floors wanting all that junk I saw at Costco. Wanting to bake a pan of cookies and eat them all myself in the night. Wanting pizza and salty stuff. PMSing in overdrive. Finally I made myself a salty-and-sweet indulgence plate.

I had
1 ounce of sharp cheddar cheese
4 green olives
2 thin slices of bacon (35 calories each)
1/2 ounce of pistachios
1 teaspoon of roasted pumpkin seeds
1/2 tablespoon of peanut butter spread on 1 square of 90% dark chocolate
water with lemon juice in it

Then I felt better.

This morning I ate my oatmeal and went to the gym for half an hour to strength train. My hint of a cold seems to be gone and the kids are much improved. Peach smoothies and magic chicken soup are working wonders.

Have a good weekend!


Claire said...

Lyn - good for you for resisting the temptation at CostCo!
I had a similar experience but didn't quite resist: I have been doing the Paleo diet for over 2 months - and 4 weeks into it I decided that I would go to CostCo and get the essentials - meat, seafood (lump crabmeat), vegetables, fruit, big jar of Macadamia nuts, etc. Then I went past the dreaded food court, and decided to get not one - but TWO pieces of combination pizza (with sausage, pepperoni and veggies) and just eat the tops - no crust. I did just that - hunkered down in my car and ate the tops off of 2 pieces of combo CostCo pizza. The first slice of topping tasted delicious - and the second tasted less good. And then an hour later I was very sick to my stomach. Whether it was the contact with the wheat crust, or all the preservatives in the meat, or just because my system wasn't used to it- it made me think long and hard about "cheating" even on the Paleo diet - food that isn't clean or whole is definitely not good for me. Needless to say, I haven't been tempted to do another CostCo pizza cheat again.

Marc said...

Costco does make good cupcakes. The problem is quantity. I mean unless you are sending them to school with your kid to share with the class, who needs to buy 48 cupcakes at a time? And what am I going to do with 5 gallons of mayonnaise? Now if you were able to just buy 1 and then split it with someone, would that have been the end of the world as we know it? For

MargieAnne said...

I know the feeling well. And like you my solution is eat cheese and meat until satiated. Some days those supermarkets are like walking through a minefield.

You did well.


Anonymous said...

There are actually some who have broken a stall while ketogenic dieting by breaking down and carbing up for a day. Course this, if only one meal or one day only fills the liver with glycogen and does something or another. A person with an already glycogen filled liver will have an instant surplus, then bad things happen. With me if I cheat I can only cheat big, like three days big and I never get back on track till the edema hurts my breathing and heart after about 48 to 72 hours. Targeted keto doesn't work for me because of this. Not disciplined enough to stop cheating soon enough and not athletic enough to burn the glucose off safely. That plate you made sounds tasty.

timothy said...

i do the same thing, i try to go around the outsde of the store and avoid the middle , i just have to look straight ahaed and speedwalk the bakery corner! lol one biscuit equals the whole bag/can/sleeve in my binge/crave filled world it's better to skip it altogether!

Anonymous said...

It's marketing Lyn and that's how these corporations make their profits, selling huge amounts of stuff that is very very cheap to make. We don't have the same volume of rubbish food to buy here in Australia but the marketing push is certainly there. Good on you for resisting!

Vickie said...

Now that you mention it, every grocery store floor plan I can remember seeing has bakery next to produce.

16 blessings'mom said...

Lyn, you made it through the minefield! Good for you. I can hear that screaming sometimes, loud and clear. I was shopping with my older daughter yesterday, and saw Pumpkin Spice Pop-Tarts. Now,I do not eat Pop-Tarts anymore, ever. But they looked so good! I asked Emily if they looked good to her, and she said, "nah, I am not hungry in the morning." I don't think time of day has anything to do with it for me, that kind of stuff really still calls to me. I can smell the bakery, which IS next to the produce...I filled my cart with plums and spinach, but I always always hear the call of the cranberry walnut muffins. I just tell myself that just because I am tempted, doesn't mean I have to give in. Will it ever go away for me? I don't know, I hope it so. I have been working at this New Lifestyle, aka diet, for almost a year and a half, and I am smartening up a little bit, but I think I will have a battle for the rest of my life. Thank you for sharing, I am glad I am not the only one who hears those screams! Keep up the good work, and know that you are not alone!!!


Karen said...

The longer you stay away from that stuff, the less of a pull that it has. The smell of the bakery smells good to me when costco bakes bread, cinnamon rolls ,but all of that stuff would make me really sick and would make my clothes not fit in a few weeks. Knowing that I want to come out of costco feeling as good as I did walking in is important. This includes my house , and parties too.

Stopping all consumption of "thrill foods", trigger foods, was key to getting food sober. I know you know this ( think the End of overeating book). The end to my over eating was steering clear of processed foods and battling the lies I told myself. ( hint : the lemon pound cake was not to take to a pot luck for work, it was to feed my food problem with the leftovers)

The longer you can go without triggering yourself, the higher the chance at recovery and your health goals-IMO I had to get food sober before I could addresses the slippery slope thinking. Karen P