After a lot of contemplation, trial and error, low carbing, Medifasting, dabbling in Primal, and winging it, I am heading back to the ol' calorie counting method for a bit. I finally feel ready to do it. For months just the thought of actually measuring and logging everything sent me into a frenzy, feeling like I should be throwing clothes and toiletries into a backpack and running away. "Nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!" was my mantra. I was so burned out on 'dieting' that I really could not do it.
I think I am ready now. At least, I don't have the terrible reaction to the thought of it anymore. It sounds acceptable to me now. Maybe because a lot of the other stressors that have saturated my life for so long have started to settle down a bit. I feel like I have the time and energy and mental resources to put towards a more formal, concrete weight loss effort. So that's what I'll do.
Starting tomorrow morning I will be logging all my food. I'm not really sure how many calories I need to lose weight anymore. So the first week, I'll just log and stay in the 1500-1800 range and see what happens. I am still going to focus on fresh local produce and lean protein but if I want some specific food I will fit it into my calories somehow. Still aiming to avoid inflammatory foods like sugar and wheat and many other grains, although I think oatmeal will be back on the menu unless I find it affects me negatively in some way. I miss oatmeal, especially with fruit or pumpkin in it.
I am itching to get back on my bike, but really I need to wait and let my knee heal up a bit more first.
And tonight, I am going to eat a bowl of fresh salsa and a whole avocado for dinner.
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