So the calorie counting went great yesterday, at least until evening. I stuck with my plan and was under 1400 calories after our yummy wild salmon dinner, but as always, I wanted to eat eat eat at night. It's a really bad habit. One sugar-free ice cream bar and an ounce of macadamia nuts later, I was up to 1750 calories. Still under my 'ceiling' of 1800, but still.
Back when I was counting calories before, I always had a rule: no eating after dinner, at all, *unless* I was truly stomach-growling hungry to the point it might interfere with sleep. Then I could have up to 100 calories, usually almonds or a light string cheese. Sometimes I could get by just sipping calorie-free hot herbal tea or eating a sugar free Jello, but in general I just quit eating after dinner, brushed my teeth, and that was it. It saved me a *lot* of calories. I would guess in the past 3 months, about 30% of my calories have been eaten after 7pm.
Why do I get so antsy to eat after dinner? It's not usually hunger. It's just my way to 'relax' and enjoy my time alone when my daughter's asleep and the dogs are chilling out, all is quiet and I am winding down for bed. But it's just a habit, one I can break again. I am going back to the old rule of not eating after dinner except for 100 calories if I am truly hungry. This is going to be a challenge for me. I think actually a lot of emotions crop up in the evening when I am alone and it is so quiet. I might start to think about recent losses, or other things in my life that are stressful or upsetting. And I use food to quiet those thoughts down. I guess I need to go back to feeling the feelings. I am not looking forward to that, but an evening sobbing on my bed is probably a better use of my time than sitting on the couch eating a bunch of random stuff. And once the feelings are out and dealt with, I can use that quiet evening time to resolve anything that is bothering me. That way, my quiet hours will become productive, rather than destructive.
I am experimenting with different breakfasts to see what works, what feels good, what keeps me full longer. I was eating eggs pretty much every morning lately and am a bit burned out on them. Today I had oatmeal with slivered almonds and half a banana cooked in, with skim milk on top. It was very good but not filling. It only had 8 grams of protein in the entire meal, so if I have oatmeal again I will cut back on the oats and add more protein, maybe in the form of egg whites cooked in or Greek yogurt stirred in at the end instead of milk.
My kind neighbor gave me a huge bag of spinach from her garden, so that is on the menu for today. I'll probably make one of those yummy spinach salads with the sliced hard boiled eggs and crumbled bacon and a homemade vinaigrette. The rest will get cooked into an omelet for tomorrow's breakfast.
I've started my PT exercises again and am finally able to walk up AND down stairs normally (but slowly). I only do a few at a time, but I am getting there! I also will do some upper body strength training this afternoon. Three times a week is my goal.