Monday, June 11, 2012

Doctor

I am in a lot of pain. Didn't sleep last night. I went to another doctor today and had some new x-rays taken to rule out bone-related issues, and the doctor decided I have bursitis of the knee and possible quadriceps tendinitis. So, I have a new compression sleeve for my knee area, high-dose anti-inflammatory drugs, and painkillers. I am alternating ice with heat, trying to stay off it, and walking very, very slowly if at all.

I have had no appetite for days and have been unable to get to the store for fresh produce, so last night's dinner was hard boiled eggs, a celery stalk, and some raw broccoli and cauliflower. Today will be taco meat over lettuce. I have pretty much gone back to using protein shakes (leftover Medifast packets) for the rest of the day. That and black coffee make up my day. Hopefully soon I will be able to shop, prep and cook more but right now the pain is making me nauseous and I don't even want to eat.

The knee sleeve had XXXL printed on the inside of it. I hate that. I have always carried a lot of my weight in my legs. No doubt, my weight is an issue with the continued knee/joint/foot issues. I am pretty much in pain 24/7, literally. Hardly slept last night from the pain, so hopefully the painkillers tonight will allow me to sleep.

My weight should be going down. I hope it is. This is not the life I was meant to live.

17 comments:

MargieAnne said...

Glad you managed to get to the doctor. Hope the treatment and advice helps.

Hope you feel well enough to shop soon.

Blessings

Lori said...

I am so sorry that you're having all these issues. Hopefully now you've gotten the right treatment and are on the mend.

On the upside, you have got to have lost some weight.

I hope you're back feeling healthy and strong soon.
Lori

Alessandra said...

I hope you will feel better soon. I know how it is being not skinny and having knee issues. Did your doctor recommend any specific diet that would improve or be less inflammatory related diet? High protein, refine sugars tend to make things worse. Resting that knee and having it over padded surfaces should help relieve the symptoms.
You work so hard to reach your goal, wishing you the best so you can keep going on.

Ale

Deb Willbefree said...

Oh, Lyn. Sometimes anything anyone can say just sounds trite. This is one of those times.

I hope you can get help with our daughter so that you can, at least, take advantage of your medically necessary rest and relaxation.

Just take that deep breath and go with it. Conquer the world next week.

Deb

LHA said...

Wow, this is such a difficult situation for you. I know that most of us reading this, including me, wish we lived next door to you and could bring you a load of fresh vegetables and something healthy and home made for dinner...help you with errands and child care for your little girl...do anything to make your life a little easier right now.

I agree with Deb that everything sounds trite at this point but please take care of yourself as much as possible and do what is needed to get well. Better days are coming for you.

timothy said...

hang in there darlin hopefully now that you know what it is they can do something about it! as always youre in my prayers!

Lyn said...

Thank you. I wish we could create a bloggers' commune and live there to support each other. I know you would make good neighbors...

I think this is what they call 'rock bottom.' I am greiving my dog, getting ready to send one of my boys on visitation for the summer, trying to help my sick son, barely able to walk, and in pain. Yeah, this is pretty much rock bottom.

Kristine said...

I hope you feel better soon.
I hope you really look into eating Paleo. I feel that you would really benefit from it. I think that a lot of your issues are related to your unhealthy diet. Get mad all you want at that last line but it is true.
feel better soon.

Cee said...

Ugh, I am sorry you are suffering like that. Hope the pain killers work! I know knee pain too, it sucks!

Anonymous said...

Pain really narrows the focus and makes everything seem so overwhelming. I was in a five car pile up a couple months ago and do to a knee injury from it I had no choice but to surrender to a beefy almost zero carb diet. Its turning out to be the best thing thats ever happened to my health. Im so grateful to that injury. Not Rxing you, just sharing. I NEVER lost weight like this while exercising. Even my bp and bs are both laveling out. NEVER GIVE UP LYNN!!!!! We are all here for you. You are so kind to share your life like this. Wish I could be so brave and open. *hugs*

Anonymous said...

Is surgery of any sort an option for what you're going through? (bursitis) or is losing weight generally enough?

Betsey C. said...

I could cry for you. I know what bursitis pain feels like, I have had it in my hip. Please rest, that is the best treatment.

I know you feel that you have hit rock bottom, well then -- the only way is up. Keep your chin up, Lyn. I have been reading your blog for years, and I think of you as a friend. I am hurting for you and pulling for you.

Try to eat some healthy, easy foods while you heal. Now that you have the proper meds, I know you will heal up quickly.

Hang in there! We love you.

Betsey in Chicago

Lyn said...

Anonymous~

this doctor didn't mention surgery but told me to come back if it is not improving in a week... we'll see. I looked it up online and one 'risk factor' is weight. I am hoping a lot of this pain will fade as the weight comes back off.

PuffsPlus said...

Hang in there, Lyn. Kudos to you for sticking to your plan even when life is so difficult. I'm not sure I could have that kind of focus or bravery. *Hugs* and support your way.

Deniz said...

Oh, my dear Lyn. Wish I could help but know I can't. Hope the pain eases very soon and you can begin to cope again.

By the way, putting 'you' first is now a necessity, not a nicety and you are NEVER selfish.

Big Zen hugs from the UK.

Leslie said...

Hi Lyn - I'm late to the commenting here, but wanted to toss in my support. Hopefully the anti-inflammatories will kick in fast. When they do, be careful to not overdo right away. I did that once with a torn meniscus after a couple days of steroids helped the pain miraculously disappear, only to re-injure and set myself back a few days! I send you a big, beautiful, fresh virtual salad!

Tammy said...

I hope you feel better soon!! It sucks being in pain.:(