Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Sloppy

Someone took a few pictures of me in the park the other day. They were candid shots; I had no idea I was being photographed (I was in a group). This friend of mine sent me copies of the pictures today and I am really dismayed. I look really bad. There are pictures from all angles and behind. Wow, I look thick in the waist. I have some fat roll action going on. My arms are atrocious. It is also clear to me that I need to work on my posture.

I am not saying this to be self-deprecating. I am saying this because once again, the image I have of myself in my head is disjointed from reality. While I still love my body and appreciate all the good things each part has done for me over the past 42 years, I can see that I have not returned the favor. I have not done as much good for it as it has done for me. And yes, in my own opinion, I look bad. Sloppy.

I don't like it. I look at my 100 Pounds Gone pictures and want to get back there again.

I guess I will use those images as motivation/appetite suppressants and keep working my way back down.

7 comments:

Deb Willbefree said...

Well, once again, I hear you.

I just posted photos taken while on vacation. :o

While I am well aware that I've gained 30 pounds, somehow I've let myself think that I don't look quite as fat as I did the last time I weighed 210. The pictures (when clicked on to enlarge) say that I do.

I was thinking as I looked at them that they'd be good before shots. sigh.

Deb

Lily Fluffbottom said...

Do you have any recent pictures posted for the rest of us? We are all our own worst critic. Hopefully you can see the amazing changes you've gone through with strength and dignity.

Good luck.

Thrice Blessed said...

Candid shots can be the worst, you don't have a chance to stand up straight, suck in your stomach, fix your hair, or anything! Don't be too hard on yourself, just keep working toward your goals!

Darcy Winters said...

I feel your pain. My SIL once used an imprompt picture of me and the Hubby in her geneology book. I was mortified.

Since then - I am ever vigilant at get-togethers and watch for people taking pictures. I have stunned a few people by refusing to allow them to take my photo and have even turned away or moved behind someone to get out of the shot. Sad because I know you should embrace yourself no matter what your size, but I'm just too embarrassed to let it happen.

Forty Pound Sack said...

Yesterday, I received a photo taken on vacation last month. I was in the background, and I had to blow the photo up to make sure it was me. Sadly, it was. Funny how seeing yourself from another perspective really can be a wake up call, you know? I mean, I look at myself every day when I get dressed but somehow, never saw this before. I'm calling it motivation, and hopefully soon I will also call it a memory of something no longer there.

Niecy said...

Pictures can be brutal sometimes. They can also be a motivator. I have all the same issues as you, Lyn, and need to get a hold of it myself. Let's do it!

InWeighOverMyHead said...

I hate that. Seeing myself in pics is the worst.