I was still feeling pretty sick this morning, having a Medifast fruit punch and a bowl of Cream of Wheat for breakfast to ease into settling my stomach... but after a busy day now I am STARVING and all I want is meat. Looks like I may be stopping at the grocery store for some beef, green peppers, and onions to make a nice stir fry for dinner! It'll be put onto hoagie rolls with cheese for the kids. Yummy.
I have begun to accept that if I want to get this weight off sometime this century, I will just have to be more consistent with what I am doing. I don't like to count calories, but I am still all over the place with my intentions. Avoid wheat... well, except when I want some toast or hot cereal. Avoid sugar... oh maybe a little bit here and there won't hurt. Eat more veggies... except when I don't feel like it. You get the idea. I am in an "avoid structure" kind of mindset lately (aka diet burnout), but that doesn't mean I can't make some general guidelines for myself and stick to them *all the time.* I am mulling over which things are truly important to me and which ones are just fluff rules. Obviously portion sizes matter, but I do need to make a decision about whether or not I am going to eat, say, pasta... or rice... or oatmeal... so that I do not always feel like I am bending or breaking my own rules. There is nothing inherently evil about pasta or rice or oatmeal; I just have to DECIDE what I personally want to do about them, and stick with that, at least long enough to see if what I am doing is working. So that's next on my agenda: firm up my eating guidelines and stick to it for at least a month before changing anything.
Still too tired to exercise, still not seeing anything good on the scale, but my pants are definitely looser so we'll go with that. Off to get my daughter now!
Friday Update and Reality Check
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