Monday, May 7, 2012


I was still feeling pretty sick this morning, having a Medifast fruit punch and a bowl of Cream of Wheat for breakfast to ease into settling my stomach... but after a busy day now I am STARVING and all I want is meat. Looks like I may be stopping at the grocery store for some beef, green peppers, and onions to make a nice stir fry for dinner! It'll be put onto hoagie rolls with cheese for the kids. Yummy.

I have begun to accept that if I want to get this weight off sometime this century, I will just have to be more consistent with what I am doing. I don't like to count calories, but I am still all over the place with my intentions. Avoid wheat... well, except when I want some toast or hot cereal. Avoid sugar... oh maybe a little bit here and there won't hurt. Eat more veggies... except when I don't feel like it. You get the idea. I am in an "avoid structure" kind of mindset lately (aka diet burnout), but that doesn't mean I can't make some general guidelines for myself and stick to them *all the time.* I am mulling over which things are truly important to me and which ones are just fluff rules. Obviously portion sizes matter, but I do need to make a decision about whether or not I am going to eat, say, pasta... or rice... or oatmeal... so that I do not always feel like I am bending or breaking my own rules. There is nothing inherently evil about pasta or rice or oatmeal; I just have to DECIDE what I personally want to do about them, and stick with that, at least long enough to see if what I am doing is working. So that's next on my agenda: firm up my eating guidelines and stick to it for at least a month before changing anything.

Still too tired to exercise, still not seeing anything good on the scale, but my pants are definitely looser so we'll go with that. Off to get my daughter now!


Anonymous said...

Diet burnout-Trust me, I get it, but you have to swing back into reality sometime. Everyone does that wants to/needs to continue to lose weight. It can't be used as an excuse forever. I have burnout for a lot of things but I have to force myself to stick to them because I know it will help me in the end. It's kind of a sucky thing about being an adult. I'm still learning.

In my opinion, if you really aren't going to exercise for whatever health/foot/etc reasons and aren't going to have some sort of basic plan...then you HAVE to count calories. You haven't kept the weight off for long enough to just intuitively "know" how much to eat, I really really don't think so. It takes a lot of time to develop that sense, especially when issues with past binge eating & obesity and such come into the picture. I'm not saying to count calories for life, because I surely don't agree with that, but when you are still actively trying to lose substantial weight and struggle I think it's really important. If you had other things set, such as exercising x days per week, a basic food system that doesn't change much, etc then I'd say maybe ease up on counting. Just my thoughts and I say that with the kind of firmness that I try to apply to myself-not negativity but maybe a jab in the ribs to get one thinking.


Wencked said...

I feel your pain. I feel like I need to make so many changes at once that I get totally overwhelmed.

Elizabeth said...

Hi Lyn Love love love your blog. I think we may be sisters...seriously. I am also battling this weight loss albatross, and have been for a very long time. I have just decided to go wheat/gluten free and sugar free again and I have to say I felt better from day 1. I am now up to day 29 and I have lost 4.5 kilo(I am an aussie)approx 9 pound. I am feeling really good. I have achieved really good results with doing this in the past, and then it is usually sugar that is my trigger and downfall. So I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this struggle. Thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

Lyn I have followed you since last March when I started on Medifast. Since then I took off 50 lbs, went through transition, and am now a few pounds up as I try to maintain my weight loss. Like you I'm trying to figure out the new "rules" and keep the weight off. I guess as I read your post, it made me sad to hear you still struggling with the same issues again and again. trust me, you will have the rest of your life to figure out how to bring the rules to bear. I can't help but think "Damn it Lyn, just get the flippin' weight OFF, then start playing around with rules!" I only say this because I too have struggled with these pounds again and again my whole life and now FULLY understand how this time I need to say "enough". Please reconsider Medifast. It works if you work it. Just get the weight OFF. It's easier to get it off than keep it off, and I see you struggling to get it off which makes me sad to think about how you're one day going to really struggle to keep it off, if you don't give up along the way. It seems that you're going in circles and it's now frustrating even me so I can't imagine how it feels for you. Please think about just saying "F it, I'm doing this now". Set realistic goals, and do everything in your power to meet them. Week after week, day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute. No regrets.

timothy said...

i feel like barking at you, but honestly it's me i wanna bark at much like you i'm just sick of losing the same weight over and over. i think i'm gonna go back to strict induction and stay there. i only ever stopped out of boredom cause i was eating the same stuff all the time and i was bored with routine, but i think boredom for thinness is an acceptable trade off at this point i need to simply eat to live and be done with it! feel better sweetie, and just do whatever you need to do if medifast, calorie counting etc etc. it's not easy but it's worth it cause YOU ARE WORTH IT!

Amy said...

I think it is a good thing that you are devising a plan that works for you, instead of trying to fit into someone else's plan. You are the one who knows what works for you and what doesn't. Everyone's body responds differently to different foods. Taking this time to define your goals will have positive results.
Glad you are finally starting to feel better!!

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