Today was a little better. No more vomit, minimal diarrhea, and a nice plumber. But I am feeling drained. My eating went whacko yesterday afternoon and has not settled back yet. What I mean by "whacko" is: not eating according to my new healthy habits. Very few veggies, very little lean protein, a lot of grab and go, and too much processed junk. Like that Red Baron frozen pizza we ate last night because it was easy and available. Like that toasted half of an English muffin I had a half hour ago that tasted pasty and bland (thus I didn't eat the other half). My coffee is still black, but I didn't get in enough water. I ate a donut. I find myself grabbing a handful of salted almonds or a slice of regular cheese or a cup of sweetened yogurt or a banana *just because.* Not so much because I am hungry or my body needs it, but because OMG I am so overwhelmed and this distracts me from being housebound and exhausted. You know? Ah... old habits die hard! It's like the old habits can come back at any instant and overshadow the new ones.
So now my joints hurt, I feel icky and foggy (well, I am still sick so it could be partly that) and am actually looking very much forward to getting my act together tomorrow, going back to my eggs and fruit for breakfast and a big salad full of fresh veggies for lunch. I feel so much better eating that way. And I also noted today that I feel much better when I let my stomach *rest* between meals rather than constantly shoving bits of this and that in there so I am *constantly* digesting something. That is exhausting.
I wish I could find a way to eat correctly for my body without a lot of thought and effort. I'd like healthy eating to be as natural and habitual as grabbing a soda for my thirst used to be long ago. I *have* made some things natural; I don't even think about what to drink anymore. I just grab water or tea without a thought. I hope someday, when I am housebound and stressed I just reach and grab an apple instead of some other random crap. I still am not there yet. When I am on autopilot an apple is not even on my radar. Practice will get me there in time, I think. I hope.
Okay, I am coughing up a storm so I am going to take something and try to get some sleep. Goodnight!
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