Wednesday, May 16, 2012

214, 30 Days, No Excuses

It was August 2008 when I first hit the exciting milestone of seeing 214 pounds on the scale. It had taken me 10 months to lose 60 pounds, and nearly two months to lose another four pounds to see 214. And there, I got stuck... for a very long time. I went back up a bit and you may remember that it took me TWENTY MONTHS to get back down to 218 again, when I posted these pictures in April 2010. And now, here I am a year later, once again looking at 214 pounds on the scale.

What is it about this weight? I got lower, I regained. I always seem to stick and settle here. And it is frustrating. Yes, it's a far cry better than 278 pounds, but it is not where I want to be. I have even tried to "accept" it and thought about whether I could just stay at this weight and be okay with that. But the answer is NO. And today I sat down and thought about all the reasons/excuses (depending on your vantage point, I guess, because to *me* they seem like reasons while to some they may sound like excuses) that I have not been losing weight.

I am sick.
I am in pain.
Whenever I ramp up my exercise, I end up with knee pain/shoulder pain/foot pain.
I am too busy.
I like food for comfort.
I don't want to give up xyz.
I stay on plan and the scale doesn't move.
I am so tired.

And so forth. But the thing is, I can keep letting these reasons BE... even if I truly feel they are valid reasons... and they *will* continue to keep me fat and I *will* look up and another 2 years will have gone by and the scale will still say 214 pounds. That is a choice I can make. Even if I truly believe the reasons are real and insurmountable, the result is the same.

I want a different result. I am not going to be a victim to my reasons anymore.

I made a promise to myself this morning... and now I will share it with you... that I will put forth my very best, no excuses/reasons, 100% effort for the next 30 days *regardless* of how sick, tired, or busy I am. I will give it my all whether I feel like it or not. I do not care what it takes, I have got to get some momentum going on this weight loss thing. I have been comfortable for way too long.

31 comments:

Taryl said...

Yay! Commit and do your very best, Lyn! That's all you can ask of yourself and I believe it will pay off.

Linda Claxson said...

Problem is, you cannot exercise if you're feeling sick and/or tired hun, it simply will not work and then you're setting yourself up for a massive fall.
Sometimes I believe there comes a point where our entire world revolves around weightloss and exercise, we pile extreme demands on ourselves and wallow in guilt trips. When that point comes I firmly believe that the only thing to do is to take a break.
Losing weight and exercise are never going to be easy - heck you know that - but nor should they be making your emotional life such hell.
Give yourself permission to let up for a while, have a break and do something fun!
You may put a bit of weight back on ( I hear that intake of breath you know lol) BUT you will soon lose it again.
There is no point going through all this just to hate life at the end of it as much as you did when you were overweight.

You're doing great but me thinks you need a break.

Take care

Linda
http://skinnygirlwhereartthou.blogspot.co.uk/

Tiffany Campiotti said...

Go for it!

i should be full said...

I've always found there to be certain weights that my body gravitates towards: 216; 172; and 158. I've never been able to break through any of those thresholds easily, and frankly, I've never been able to get below and then stay below 158. Ever. It can be so frustrating to get on the scale and see those same numbers over and over again. Sometimes, just seeing a different number (any different number) can be a relief because it helps me realize the scale isn't broken! (And neither am I!)

I was reading a book by a doctor who says that our bodies remember the weights that we've sat at and gravitates back to them because they are comfortable. Breaking through is hard but not impossible. You have come this far and you can continue to achieve.

I admire your commitment to yourself and to your plan of action. Your journey is inspiring mine.

Lori said...

Lyn,
I will join you in that commitment. I seem to be stuck as well. I've gained and lost the same 10-15 too many times to count in the last two years. I feel like I've tried everything and nothing works. The thing is, I think most anything reasonable works. It seems like something happens to derail my efforts. Maybe we can hold each other accountable this time and break those barriers once and for all.
Lori

Margaret said...

I'm with you!

I've been on a plateau for over a month...maybe six weeks? Er... ok, eight? And it's time to break it. In my case, that means skipping more workouts. For some reason, with me, exercise doesn't change the scale (exercise=weight loss is a total myth in my case). Exercise holds me where I am. Only changing my eating changes the numbers.

So, that's what it's going to be. I've been reading blogs for motivation and now it's here. Time to get going.

Lyn said...

Thanks all for the encouragement!

Linda~

I won't push the exercise while I am sick... you're right about that. I feel so awful today that even going up and down stairs to do laundry feels exhausting. I can focus on my eating though, until I feel better.

Lori & Margaret~

Yes! Let's do this together. In 30 days we will be SO glad we stayed committed! The first few days are the hardest, for me.

Janel said...

I'm with you Lynn and yes you can exercise even when you don't feel the best, even if its only for 5 minutes. When I started my journey 2 years ago, I had the "no excuses" mentality and that is when I did my best! So go for it! I am right there with you:) We got this! Woohoo!!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

I really like xyz, too. If I could give that up, I think I'd be better off... ;)

PaulaMP said...

I wouldn't wait for the exercise cause it sounds like you always put it off. If you have arthritis it's an absolute necessity to keep your joints "oiled" and you can only do that by moving them

Tami said...

I love reading your your blogs. I am in on your 30 day challenge. I'm just worried about memorial day wkd. We are goi.g camping with several other people so I font know easy it will be but I guess if we really want something it isn't going to be easy. I always think of that saying...if it was easy then everyone would do it! We got this. And as long as we aren't gaining then we are going in the right direction.

Marilyn said...

Thanks for the link to the photos of your body at 214 in the past, Lyn. I was very impressed with how much SMALLER you look in the 2010 pix than those taken in 2008. I wouldn't be surprised if you were smaller/firmer NOW than in 2010, even at the same weight.

Having pretty much plateau-ed myself for 16 months, I empathize completely with your impatience and frustration - and I have every confidence that you WILL break through this coming month! XOXO - M

Sara said...

30 Days -- I'm in!!! Perfect timing as I need to get consistent so I am right here with you all... Sara

dlamb said...

Lyn, you are right. About EVERYTHING. May I suggest that you add one more component to your effort? Please, read your archives. Each and every one of your entries.
It is so difficult to see how you've been struggling while I lost 50 pounds since Sept., ALL DUE TO YOUR BLOG. COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY DUE TO READING YOUR BLOG. There is absolutely nothing I can do to reciprocate except to direct you to your own blog. I know, I am repeating the same thing. It is intentional. There is nothing you need to know that is not contained in your posts.

As always, wishing you the best!
m/b

Anonymous said...

To the person saying "wait it out, take a break, have fun, etc"...NO NO NOOO. Maybe if you were at a healthy weight or even 15 pounds overweight. Maybe if you didn't have health problems. Maybe if you were in your 20s. Maybe if you had consistently stable blood pressure. But NO. No more breaks, no more bs, you're right. The time is now, your health is too important. Regardless of what anyone says, 214 is not a healthy weight, even if you were mega tall. You know that...I think this is definitely the time to buckle down.

CAH

timothy said...

BRAVO! and you know what i'm gonna join you. we'll make it a 30 day challenge and i challenge all your followers to jump on board too! there's strength in numbers and support is great so lets do it. it's a month so you should definately ask people to do this together. lemme know how you want to do it, you could do a daily update and we comment on that. i;m getting excited 30 days can change the world!

Anonymous said...

I completely disagree with the commenter who said you can't work out when you are tired. I have fibromyalgia and I am exhausted and in pain every single day.

If I let that keep me from working out I would never get off the couch. I force myself to do it, and I always feel better after I do. And I also am healthier and feel better in the long run because I am in shape as a result.

I've yet to come across anyone who cannot do SOME form of exercise, even with injury or disability. This includes people with fractures.

You can either make excuses or make it happen.

Rampaige said...

Hi - I'm also in. Actually started an 8 week plan on Monday but would love to be part of the 30 day gang.

Moosecat said...

I also disagree with the comments re. not exercising when tired/in pain. I have had RA for 25 years and it's when I'm most tired/pain when I need to move, do something, even a 10 min walk/bike ride, some lightish upper body weights, anything to get me out of that hollow in the couch.

And good luck Lyn! I'm sure you'll rock it!

Anonymous said...

Everybody is different, but words like "commitments" and "plans" and "new year's resolutions" don't help me at all. It is just way too easy for me to say that I "will" do something tomorrow, or this week, or this month, but those are just meaningless words when I say them. All they do is give me more time until I have to think up more excuses and new "commitments."

Instead of "will power," (as in I "will lose" 30 pounds) I need to focus on "did power," (as in "I did" lose 30 pounds"). Forget the "will." After I can say that I "did," only then will I feel truly qualified to advise anybody else.

No will-power for me ... I need me some DID-POWER!

timothy said...

kk so day 1 i did jillian michaels cardio kickboxing and that woman is CRAZY! lol but i did it i didnt stop even when i felt like dying, NO EXCUSES!

Julie said...

Thank you for inspiring me. I am now challenging myself for the next 30 days!

Theresa said...

This is a completely off the wall thought.......

One of the problems you have is deciding what to eat, choosing what healthy is..... Deciding calories etc. what if someone made an eating schedule for you based on what items you like to eat, can afford, or have on hand? Kind of like an online "guest dietitian" . Just a thought..... I know you were looking for ideas for cooler meals. What do you thi k Lyn? Someone else could suggest a days plan based on what you have in the fridge and pantry? Online Chopped??

Anonymous said...

I have learned so much from your blog, as you are the most honest weightloss blogger I've ever found.

I have one question for you. You write a lot about how tired you are, and I believe you've written about your amount of sleep at night. I don't think it's the recommended 7 - 9 hours, though. What would you say is your optimal amount of sleep? And what can/could you do to get that amount? While of course you have to attend to your daughter's needs during the night if she wakes up and needs you, what about the dog (do you have more than one?). I know you think the dog is great for exercise, but if it's the cause of your sleep loss, is it worth it? (Don't flame me here; I'm not an animal lover and am just wondering why you'd get a dog and have further stress/responsibility)

InWeighOverMyHead said...

I just want to say I am here for you!

Liz said...

Count me in too!! I already started this morning eating right instead of getting up and eating whatever!!

Lyn said...

I am SO excited to have so many folks doing this WITH me! We will keep each other accountable. Please come and leave updates in the comments each day or when you can! I think we can ALL see some good progress in 30 days.

So far my 'exercise' if you can even call it that, is getting up and outside with the pup and walking a bit. Maybe a half mile per day right now. I will add biking when I feel well enough. The walking DOES still cause my pain but I am being careful not to push it too far.

Theresa~

That is an interesting idea. I know there are free 'menu planners' online where you can specify calorie/carb/fat goals and any foods you dislike. I will look at those. At the very least I could write up my OWN menus a few days ahead and stick to that.

Anonymous~

I seem to need more sleep now than I did in my 20's and 30's. I think 8 hours of good sollid sleep would be optimal, but even 7 would be okay. It has gotten better this month (except for getting up with sick kids) so I am generally getting 6 hours I'd say. Last month there were many days I only got 4 or so. Not good! As for the pup, she is absolutely worth it! She is my activity partner and I love her to bits. We have big plans for more dog sports as I am able. It's mainly the old dog who barks me awake in the mornings and takes more work, but he is worth it too :)

Anonymous said...

Poataoes will raise your serum glucose much faster than beans...beans are not the enemy :)

Anonymous said...

I know what you feel. I am on my weight loss journey as well and sometimes things seem to get too difficult and out of hand and it is easier to hide behind excuses. Just yesterday I got blisters from walking and today I was almost going to gove up on my daily 10000 steps brisk walk but I tried to remember every time I got upset, insulted, laughed at, mocked at because pf my weight and the pain of the blisters seemed to fade away in
comparison.

Anonymous said...

WOOOOOHOOOOO!

You can do it!!!

I'm cheering for you -- go Lyn GO!

beerab said...

*hugs* I feel you, I've been stuck in the early 200s for weeks. But what has helped me is preparing a lot of stuff in advance, I'll buy a 3-4 pounds of chicken, cook it, then freeze half of it, and the other half I take out 6 oz a day to eat and add it to my foods :) It's helped me eat healthier. Then when I want something, say like some sort of asian chicken I just chop up the chicken and coat it in whatever spices I want (like hoisin and sriracha), toss it, heat it, and then add it to my salad or tortilla or whatever else I'm eating. So far in the past week I've managed to make myself get back into onederland this way :) I also have bought romaine lettuce, whole bunches, and then I'll make all the fixings for salads and put them together in tupperware packs so when I want to make a salad I just throw it all together and it takes two minutes to make a salad after some prep work on Sunday :)

I would worry about the eating and not the exercise (or just light exercise) if you can for now. :)

Good luck girl- I know you can get back down :)