It was August 2008 when I first hit the exciting milestone of seeing 214 pounds on the scale. It had taken me 10 months to lose 60 pounds, and nearly two months to lose another four pounds to see 214. And there, I got stuck... for a very long time. I went back up a bit and you may remember that it took me TWENTY MONTHS to get back down to 218 again, when I posted these pictures in April 2010. And now, here I am a year later, once again looking at 214 pounds on the scale.
What is it about this weight? I got lower, I regained. I always seem to stick and settle here. And it is frustrating. Yes, it's a far cry better than 278 pounds, but it is not where I want to be. I have even tried to "accept" it and thought about whether I could just stay at this weight and be okay with that. But the answer is NO. And today I sat down and thought about all the reasons/excuses (depending on your vantage point, I guess, because to *me* they seem like reasons while to some they may sound like excuses) that I have not been losing weight.
I am sick.
I am in pain.
Whenever I ramp up my exercise, I end up with knee pain/shoulder pain/foot pain.
I am too busy.
I like food for comfort.
I don't want to give up xyz.
I stay on plan and the scale doesn't move.
I am so tired.
And so forth. But the thing is, I can keep letting these reasons BE... even if I truly feel they are valid reasons... and they *will* continue to keep me fat and I *will* look up and another 2 years will have gone by and the scale will still say 214 pounds. That is a choice I can make. Even if I truly believe the reasons are real and insurmountable, the result is the same.
I want a different result. I am not going to be a victim to my reasons anymore.
I made a promise to myself this morning... and now I will share it with you... that I will put forth my very best, no excuses/reasons, 100% effort for the next 30 days *regardless* of how sick, tired, or busy I am. I will give it my all whether I feel like it or not. I do not care what it takes, I have got to get some momentum going on this weight loss thing. I have been comfortable for way too long.
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