Just wanted to sit down with a cup of tea and relax a bit between Easter activities, so here I am! I hope you are having a wonderful holiday or non-holiday weekend. We are! My days have been filled with things that bring me joy: dyeing and painting hard boiled eggs together, watching my little girl's face light up when she saw her lavender-gingham-lined Easter basket this morning filled with shiny stickers, a little toy bunny, some bunny ears, a necklace, glitter glue, and a chocolate bunny, taking walks to play at the park in the spring sunshine, baking a fresh strawberry cake, and playing tug games with my happily wagging pup. It is such a blessing to have a home filled with love. Even the dogs feel it and I am so happy to have my children around me. I am very thankful.
Recap of this week: there were some triumphs and some weaknesses. What I am most proud of is that I stuck to my exercise plan even when I was extremely tired and didn't feel like it. I pushed through and *made* myself exercise, with the goal of making it a habit that will not be broken. I walked about 9 miles this week, biked 100 minutes, and did my physical therapy exercises on two days. I did an exhausting hour of fast-moving agility and several more hours of slower training with my pup. I was also more active in general, making sure I was moving a good part of the time. This was, by far, my most active week in a year and a half.
By yesterday my body was hurting pretty badly... mainly my feet, but also shin splints. Plantar fasciitis has returned and makes it very painful to walk. I limp a lot when I first get up. I am taking something for the pain and resting today. Honestly I am not sure I can continue with the walking if this pain doesn't let up. I might cut back to 1/2 - 1 mile a day max and increase the biking to 25 minutes/day this week. It is frustrating to have pain limit what I can do.
Another triumph this week is that I finally have weaned myself off all sweeteners in my coffee! This is a huge deal to me. Just a few weeks ago I thought I could never do it. I have always hated black coffee. But I like to sit down and have a cup in the morning. I enjoy the smell of coffee even more than the flavor. But over the last couple weeks, I slowly cut back the Splenda in my coffee and now I don't need *any*! I still use a tablespoon of half and half in my coffee, but I am also going to try and cut that back as well until I like it black. One side effect of drinking non-sweet coffee is I crave it less. I don't want 3 or 4 cups a day. I have my one cup in the morning and maybe another later in the day, and that's it. I like the fact that I am training my taste buds away from sweet drinks completely, and eventually I want to be artificial sweetener FREE.
My eating this week wasn't as good as last week. I did eat fewer grains/wheat/gluten this week but had some sugar (which is probably a contributing factor to my pain). I am not terribly pleased with my nutritional choices this past week (not enough veggies but lots of fruit, too many nuts, too many processed foods and not enough protein). I would estimate I ate 1700 calories a day on average.
I would expect to see a loss, even a small one, for the increased activity and fairly reasonable eating but the scale is up 2 pounds from last Sunday. It's one of those moments when you get on the scale and think, "I am in all this pain from pushing myself to exercise. And for what?" But I had to answer myself, "For my health." Because the exercise has to stay and be part of my life whether I am thin or fat, eating perfectly or horribly, losing or gaining. I cannot let the scale dictate whether I stay active or not; I am just staying active. So for the coming week, I will stop winging it with the eyeballing and counting calories in my head. Even though I *think* I am pretty accurate, I may not be. Plus, just the act of keeping a true tally in writing seems to curb my eating a bit.
Time for our Easter egg hunt in the yard! Bye for now!
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