Several years ago, back in 2008, I had a nightmare visit with my gynecologist. I had gone in for a cervical biopsy because my pap came back bad, and instead of doing the biopsy, he took a look and told me that the area of pre-cancerous/cancerous cells was just too large, and I'd have to come back and have the section cut out completely. I was terrified. My mother died of ovarian cancer in her mid-50's, and I had a very real sense of impending doom about my tests. I was so afraid I would not be around to raise my children. But after the LEEP procedure, they said they'd gotten it all and I should be fine. And every pap since has been good.
Not long after, I had my first (baseline) mammogram. They found some "suspicious looking spots" and for awhile, I had to have follow-up mammograms every 6 months to a year to be sure they were not growing. They weren't.
And then last year, there were some concerns which resulted in an ultrasound that found both a uterine fibroid and an ovarian cyst. I was once again terrified, even though these are generally nothing to get terribly concerned about. I am a little sensitive about reproductive cancers and it scared me even *more* when the doctors said to wait a year before doing any follow up.
And so it was with trepidation that I went to my yearly exam this morning, worried about the possibilities. Would there be cervical cancer cells? A lump in my breast? Would they order an ultrasound and see the cyst growing into a huge tumor or the fibroid becoming large or multiplying? I was really, really anxious about my appointment this morning. Probably way more anxious than most people would be, but you know, it's one of my biggest fears.
Well, the doctor was great. She looked over all the reports and did an exam and told me I truly have nothing to worry about with the cyst and the fibroid. She'd only order another ultrasound if I was having painful cramps or irregular bleeding or my uterus felt enlarged... and none of that is true so she's certain all is well. She did the pap, told me they'd call asap if anything is wrong, and ordered the mammogram. I feel *so* reassured by her. All my nervousness and anxiety is gone. Thank goodness for good doctors.
The weight gain since last year is, of course, of concern. We talked about that; she advised me to increase the intensity of my workouts. My blood pressure was also once again elevated, as it was in my last two doctor's visits (140/90ish) so they are going to keep an eye on that too. Crazy, but my blood pressure seems to be directly related to my weight and/or diet. When I got under 200 pounds my generally high blood pressure normalized without medication. I am hoping this will be the case again. I wonder if higher carbs can contribute to having higher blood pressure, too; I may need to keep a closer eye on my carb level if the blood pressure doesn't come down quite soon.
That's my update for today! I am just getting housework done and enjoying the great sense of relief about the doctor appointment. I have a review I may post later on, if I have time. Enjoy your Thursday!
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