Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Facing Stuff

I just got back from a nice, peaceful rainy-day walk with the pup. I love how the air feels and smells in the light mist of a rain. My daughter says it smells like the ocean, and it does.

I feel good about the changes I have made and am making in my life. Sometimes I think sick eating is a sign of a sick life. I don't mean that in a judgemental way, but it's certainly been true in my own case. When things are all out of kilter in my relationships or with the way I am handling things in general life, my eating reflects that. Buying and eating ice cream or sugar free cookies is a definite warning signal that something *else* needs my attention. And sticking to my exercise plan or eating a protein-and-veggie rich dinner are signs that my *life* is on a healthy plane. Sure, there are good days and bad, as well as bad moments in a good day. But it's like the state of my house: if you walk in and see clutter, you know something else is going on. If you see me eating more than I should or things that are not best for my body, it's generally due to other *stuff* going on. As someone once said to me, "Face your stuff. Don't stuff your face."

Sometimes all we need to do to *stop the insane eating* is to put the food down and stand up and tackle whatever THING is driving us to eat. It's usually one THING, for me. Some THING I am avoiding dealing with. And it's funny, as soon as I deal with that THING (which looked huge while I was avoiding it but turned out to be kinda small), I immediately walk over and start clearing my clutter, putting things away, creating a neat happy space to be in. And then I make a healthy dinner.

Tonight's dinner will be taco salad made with lean grass fed beef, Romaine, peppers, black olives, salsa, avocado, and any other random veggies I find in the fridge. Looking forward to it!


Anonymous said...

Lyn, I've had such epiphanies while I was reading through your blog from beginning to end, several months ago! I remember that in one of your entries, you ridiculed the idea of eating when one was stressed about some life event. With your gentle sense of humor you pointed out that 3 slices of pizza are in no way connected to your car breaking down (not exact example, but I do not recall the specifics). You were so right!
When you were feeling good and strong about your dedication to your health, you were able to, not only make those analogies but to follow through. You pointed out, as I imagine you may have done as a parent who probably used natural and logical consequences in order to discipline your kids, that we need to separate the eating/nutrition/feeding of our bodies, from life events. I remember thinking "yes, I would not go and break my neighbor's car window in a blind rage because the cable guy kept me waiting all day and never showed up". Ridiculous example and intentionally so but you were the one who pointed out this obvious truth.
It is good to see that, despite the occasional difficulty with applying this logic in the midst of chaos or stress, you remember it.
I wish you the very best,

Lindsey said...

I just started reading the book, When Food is Love by Geena Roth. I am really resonating with this book.

Shihtzux2 said...

another great post I so can relate to. thanks for the insights.

MizFit said...

and yet sometimes that tackling can just feel like too much.

Paleo Gal said...

Me too. Seems like it's:

A: All coming together,

B: All falling apart.

And my eating habits are one component of that. Trying to let go of the obsession with food and weight that takes up so much of my time and energy.

When I have a stressful day and don't have enough in it that's truly fulfilling, I'm setting myself up. Yesterday was a day like that and I ate too much. All healthy stuff, but too much.

I'm trying to reorganize my behavior so that I've got protection built into each day. I think, for me, what that's going to take is planning my days. Going to go do that now!

Diandra said...

Maybe it also works the other way round... eating healthy and exercising to regain control over other aspects of our lives?

(When I am really down and overwhelmed, I usually start by making bread. And the rest falls into place somehow.)

Lyn said...


that is so true! Sometimes forcing myself to just *get on the bike already* is all it takes for me to become motivated to deal with the other stuff. Good insight!

Anonymous said...

Lyn - going back to your migraine question. I too suffer from them badly. I have eliminated wheat and yeast and it's made a huge difference.