How are things? Here's how...
This week, I reinstituted the habit of having unsweetened iced green tea with lunch. I ditched sodas. I switched from sugar free coffee creamer to using a tablespoon of half and half and a Splenda placket. I am gradually cutting the Splenda back (partial packets to half packets to small amounts and then eliminate it).
My son was sick with a cold last week and I have gotten it myself. Sore throat and headache, congestion. But hey, I got my taxes done!
Been thinking a lot about things lately. I am really getting it, now, why so many people a) become obese b) stay fat c) regain the weight they lost. The statistics aren't that great. Permanent weight loss has become some kind of holy grail. People are willing to do anything, pay big bucks, take all kinds of pills, have surgery, whatever it takes. And that's because it is not easy.
It seems easy when you have "lost weight." Lots of people do that. Lose a chunk of weight over a couple months or a year. But then most of them regain it, or at least part of it. And lots of people yo yo. You know why? Time. Time unravels a lot of things and people and plans.
You can find a lot of people who've lost 30 or 50 or even 80 pounds last year. But you don't find as many who lost 30 or 50 or 80 pounds five years ago. Or ten. That is a whole different level of commitment... of *true* lifestyle change.
I remember how, a few months in when I had lost a good chunk of weight, people would say to me, "that's nice, but let's see where you are five years from now." I find that terribly obnoxious. I'd never say that to anyone losing weight; it almost sounds like you're dooming them to failure. You never can tell which person will keep it off. Only time can tell. But now at least I understand why they said that.
It is one thing to lose weight.
It is another thing to lose weight and keep it off for the rest of your life.
And the only thing we can say for sure is how we are doing *so far.*
So far, I am doing better than average. Keeping off 80 pounds for several years, that's something. It speaks to my level of commitment and the real changes I have made in my life. But not actively losing weight right now, not getting the rest off, that also speaks to my level of commitment.and the lifestyle changes I still need to make.
I am frustrated right now. I ate stuff that was off plan today. Granted, part of it was healthy stuff like salmon and eggs and pomegranate, but part of it was not. What gets me is, I *know* where eating "on plan" 80% of the time gets me: maintenance. Which would be nice if I was at a maintenance weight, but I'm not. It feels like walking in circles sometimes. I keep going past the same spot over and over and over.
Well, the good thing is that aside from my weight, my personal life is very good. Less stress, happier kids, dogs are doing well, I am happy. Aside from the weight, I am in a pretty good place.
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