It's true. The new found freedom of eating things I was not "supposed" to eat before, without guilt, has resulted in my inner fatgirl raging for donuts. Give the girl a banana, she wants a cake. Tell her she no longer is limited to three measured condiments a day, and she will slather her turkey burger in mayonnaise and ketchup. Let her eat acorn squash, she thinks potato chips must be okay (hey! I am "allowed" to eat white potatoes, salt, and oil, right?? Right??) All this justification and rationalization pops up. Hey, a hot dog is meat, right? Can a bun be a condiment?
I know it sounds silly. Just because I loosened the reigns a little is no reason to plunge off the deep end. Yet that is just how my mind is trying to get what it wants. Instead of remembering some very basic rules (measure and weigh the food, limit even healthy fats, and don't eat grains in ANY form), I have intrusive thoughts of eating stuff that I have no business eating. I know if I eat one cookie, it triggers something insane. I want more cookies, and a bunch of other processed junk. So it really is best for me not to have one cookie.
Before, thoughts of kicking myself out of ketosis were enough to keep me away from anything carb-laden, or even a few extra condiments. Now, that is not an issue. I have not been counting *anything* except portions and servings. Not calories, not carbs, not fat grams. And I don't *need* to, technically. The program takes care of itself. If I eat what Transition prescribes, I land in the range of 1200ish calories right now... more like 1300 with the optional snack I always take. But since I am tossing in a little butter here and light mayo there, I am closer to 1400 every day. With only mild exercise so far, this ought to be enough to keep my weight from going up, even if it doesn't go down right away as my body gets used to the changes. But the scale bumped up a bit today. Salt? Bloat? I dunno. I have to fight myself not to freak out and "do something" about it. I am determined to ride this out, all six weeks, adding in food groups and upping exercise slowly. I am doing this for my health, which is not only about the scale. So I accept that the scale might be a little scary until things stabilize and I get into a food and exercise routine.
I am thinking about adding in the dairy earlier than Monday. Since I already eat from the "meatless options" list which includes low fat cheese and Greek yogurt, the only actual dairy I will be adding in is a cup of low fat milk and/or regular yogurt. I have been super hungry the last two days, and I hope that when I do add dairy back it will give me sufficient protein to quell my hunger. That way I can have that Greek yogurt and berries for breakfast and still have a full 6-ounce serving of chicken breast with dinner.
I am trying to sort through all the info on Paleo, Primal, Dukan, etc that you kindly left me in the comments of the last post. It is all very interesting. I want to figure out if ALL grains are inflammatory/unhealthy or if it is primarily wheat. Are oats bad too? Because I do miss having oatmeal for breakfast. How about rice? Quinoa? And the whole legume thing... I need to do more reading on that. I had hoped to eventually be eating *less* meat and more beans. But I have to do some research on which would be better for my health. I do want to avoid foods that cause inflammation, as my arthritis can be very painful if I eat the wrong things, especially sugar and white flour.
I have a lot of *stuff* going on in my personal life right now, including two kids with sinus infections and a house that has decided to need a gazillion repairs at once. I also have a life-threatening allergy to certain stinging insects that have suddenly started appearing not only *around* my home but IN it. So I am off to take care of things, included arranging a series of allergy shots that could end up saving my life if I get stung. I have a Superfoods Challenge post half written but I think it's just going to have to wait til next Monday. Keep on keeping on with the Superfoods we already covered, though! Try something new this week!
Ice Ice Baby
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