I got on the scale this morning and I weigh 214 pounds. That means I gained 25 pounds in less than 3 months.
I also took new measurements. From my low weight (175) in October 2010, I gained:
.75" on my neck
.25" on each wrist
1.5" on each upper arm
1.5" on each calf
3.5" on each thigh
3.5" on my bust
6" on my hips
and 7" on my waist.
As you can imagine, I don't like the way I feel. I went from a size 10 jeans to a 16, my knees and feet hurt, and it takes more effort to move. I have less energy and confidence and do not like the sensation of just *being larger* and taking up more space.
That's why I have turned it around, as I posted yesterday. I started this morning as if I were beginning anew, with weights and measures and a completely fresh mindset.
What I am doing now: well, to tell you the truth, I am stressed out and frustrated because I don't know WHAT to do. There have only been three methods in my lifetime of weight loss efforts that resulted in a loss of more than 30 pounds: calorie counting, South Beach diet, and Medifast. I know those three things "work" if I stick with them, and they do not "work" if I go off plan, binge, overeat, etc. Frankly, right now I do not have the brain power, the energy, nor the commitment level to sort out a new plan. I am trying to make it through my least favorite month, get through the holidays and their temptations, get some of this weight off so I feel better and my clothes fit and I can let the success motivate me to keep going. The easiest thing for me to do is Medifast. I already have the foods here (Medifast has continued to send me my food for free, through all my waffling and difficulties, even though I am not exactly a poster girl for Medifast weight loss lately), it is easy to do if you DO it and I have a slew of healthy recipes already figured out for my dinners on the Medifast plan. So I am doing that right now. That said, I have been messing around with Medifast for a loooong time. I started on March 1, 2010. I went off for awhile earlier this year. More than once actually. But really, I look at the calendar and realize that in March it will be two YEARS since I started Medifast. That is just... well, I should be done by now. So I am making a commitment today as part of my new start: if I am not on plan and losing weight ACTIVELY on Medifast, making *real* progress by March 1, 2012, I will quit trying to make Medifast work for me and do something else. I may change plans sooner, but that date is my line in the sand for either giving Medifast 100% or doing something else. I do NOT know what to do. I get a lot of comments telling me to just "eat whole foods" but I have done that, right here on this blog, and gained weight. I think I will need to do some combination of whole foods, calorie counting, and low carb. I definitely need a plan. I can get that plan via Medifast Transition if I can make it that far, but like I said, two years is long enough. If I can't make it work anymore for whatever reason, I will do something else.
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