I'm doing it. I'm fighting that sugar battle again, hopefully for the last time.
I totally understand now why people quit blogging. It is a bit embarrassing and frustrating to be fighting the same battle over and over, making public one's struggle with such a seemingly simple issue. It makes us vulnerable. It feels a little ridiculous to be posting again and again about the same battle with something as silly as a candy bar. But I am convinced it is more common than we think. I know others have the same fight. I know it is easier to just give up. But I am not giving up, I am not going to hide just because someone else might think my battle is silly or that I am weak. I am being strong and not giving up for myself and my children. And I know within a few weeks this *big* issue will shrink back down to its true size. It is a tiny thing in the grand scheme of life but is magnified right now. That's because food, addiction, and obsession can get in the way of life.
That's what happens with an alcoholic, or a gambler, or a sex addict, or an Internet addict. Maybe all those things are fine in moderation for most people. A glass of wine, a lottery ticket or night with the slot machines, a sexual experience, some time online or a slice of cheesecake can be a fun, healthy part of life for many people. But for others, *any* of those things can become addictive. And when any of those things begin to interfere with *life,* you know it is a problem. When the gambling or the drinking or the eating starts eclipsing the important things in your life, it is time to stop. If your spouse or children or job or health is suffering... if the housework remains undone or the finances are going south or you are not finding joy in everyday activities anymore because of the growing time spent on those things, that is when you can be sure it is a bigger problem and you have got to do something to break the addiction.
Today I have had two cups of coffee with sugar free creamer, Medifast pancakes, a Medifast shake, and Medifast chili with a half cup of tomatoes added. I will have two more Medifast meals and for dinner will have either taco salad or taco soup, depending on my mood (using the lean taco meat the kids are having in their tacos). I have a migraine with nausea and am taking Excedrin and just trying to get through the pain today of sugar withdrawal. I feel so much better when my blood sugar is stable, when I eat every 2-3 hours, low carb, high protein. I know if I stick this out I will feel so much better in a few days.
Friday Update and Reality Check
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