Doing okay today. The nice thing is I am not in a frenzy or obsessing about food. Getting off sugar is the key to that. However, I still start thinking about eating stuff between meals when I am trying to avoid something. Doesn't seem to matter what it is: housework, laundry, talking to a son about an emotional issue, thinking about how I will get certain things done, or being sad about something. Whatever I am trying to avoid, emotion or activity, is a catalyst for my turning to food.
It's just simple avoidance behavior. Some people use alcohol, some use drugs, some use gambling and others use sex. Sometimes I use the Internet. But food, or even just *the struggle*, is really excellent at getting my mind off something unpleasant. It isn't very helpful though, so I am learning to sit with the feelings and then do something about it instead of avoiding. It is far easier to just clean the darn toilet than it is to spend all that energy and effort *avoiding* cleaning the toilet. And that can be taken figuratively, too. We all have toilets we need to scrub. And the longer you let it go, the more it stinks. Just clean your emotional toilet already.
6am: 2c coffee, 2 Tbsp sugar free creamer
8am: Medifast peach oatmeal, 1/4 c unsweetened almond milk
11am: Medifast dark chocolate shake, 1 ounce of cheese
1pm: Medifast spice pancake made into a muffin, 1 c coffee, 1 Tbsp sugar free creamer
It is after 3, time for another Medifast meal and one at 8:30. One will be Hot Cocoa, not sure about the other yet. Dinner is Chicken Taco Soup.
Time to take the dog out. Catch you later!
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