Sunday, October 30, 2011

Clean the Toilet

Doing okay today. The nice thing is I am not in a frenzy or obsessing about food. Getting off sugar is the key to that. However, I still start thinking about eating stuff between meals when I am trying to avoid something. Doesn't seem to matter what it is: housework, laundry, talking to a son about an emotional issue, thinking about how I will get certain things done, or being sad about something. Whatever I am trying to avoid, emotion or activity, is a catalyst for my turning to food.

It's just simple avoidance behavior. Some people use alcohol, some use drugs, some use gambling and others use sex. Sometimes I use the Internet. But food, or even just *the struggle*, is really excellent at getting my mind off something unpleasant. It isn't very helpful though, so I am learning to sit with the feelings and then do something about it instead of avoiding. It is far easier to just clean the darn toilet than it is to spend all that energy and effort *avoiding* cleaning the toilet. And that can be taken figuratively, too. We all have toilets we need to scrub. And the longer you let it go, the more it stinks. Just clean your emotional toilet already.

Today's food:
6am: 2c coffee, 2 Tbsp sugar free creamer
8am: Medifast peach oatmeal, 1/4 c unsweetened almond milk
11am: Medifast dark chocolate shake, 1 ounce of cheese
1pm: Medifast spice pancake made into a muffin, 1 c coffee, 1 Tbsp sugar free creamer
It is after 3, time for another Medifast meal and one at 8:30. One will be Hot Cocoa, not sure about the other yet. Dinner is Chicken Taco Soup.

Time to take the dog out. Catch you later!

10 comments:

timothy said...

sounds like a revelation to me! KNOWING what you're doin is key to STOP doing it! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Desert Singer said...

Amen. Just do the thing, or talk to the person, or start the project, or do 15 minutes toward working down the pile of projects... love this post! ♥

Forty Pound Sack said...

Your toilet analogy made me laugh out loud. I have a feeling I'll be hearing it in my head in the future.

Anne H said...

Isn't it amazing that when the sugar stops, the cravings stop too? People can say it and say it and we never really get it till we try... Often many times! ;D

Lori said...

That is a revelation for me too!
Lori

Anonymous said...

oolong tea......supposed to be better at burning fat than green tea..check it out

katie said...

Reading your blog I note that your daughter and you are 'sick' alot.
Have your pediatrician do a strep culture on both of you...it can be a chronic infection that lays low with repeated flare -ups including sinus issues symptoms. Moms often attribute chronic strep to 'colds' ..but it's strep.

tastydiet said...

I did some emotional "toilet cleaning" today, and you're right, it's so much better to just do it than to try to avoid it or have obsessive thinking about it. Thanks for the reminder!

Mrs. Chupchake said...

I clean my emotional toilet more often than my physical one lol.

I just jotted down your recipe for tortellini soup. I have beef broth from a roast to use and canned tomatoes from the summer garden. I'm really looking forward to cooking today.

prettyphat said...

Lol!! I am currently avoiding cleaning my REAL toilet!! And while avoiding, managed to eat 4 fun sized Milky Ways...groan...