I am back from my trip! How did it go?
Had coffee and a Medifast meal at home before leaving. Brought lots of water and enough Medifast food for 2-3 days and planned for dinner out. Brought 2 kids and my pup with me and brought snacks for them as well. I had my mid-morning meal as I drove, and when we stopped for lunch I had my Medifast meal. Stayed on plan. Dinner was at a restaurant. I splurged (birthday meal a bit early) on a nice 6oz fillet Mignon with a side of fresh green beans, a side of steamed broccoli, and a wedge salad with Iceberg lettuce, tomatoes, a little bacon bits and blue cheese crumbles, dressing on the side which I just dipped my fork into a few times. Iced tea with lemon to drink. Yum yum!
Then when I got back to the hotel and took the pup for a walk, my kids came back to the room with.... freshly baked cookies. Yes, from the lobby. Yes, the hotel bakes cookies every evening and sets them out with coffee and tea and hot cider and such. The cookies were still warm and fragrant. As we were getting ready to go swimming in the hotel pool, I had a minor breakdown and ate one of the cookies. Not the best idea in the world. My hands hurt like heck the next morning from the sugar (which causes inflammation and makes my arthritis flare up). I could blame PMS and travel stress, but either way, I am glad it was only one, normal-sized, cookie.
We went to swim and the water was soooo cold. It was so cold the kids would not get in. (Indoor pool, and maybe the heater was broken). I was bummed because I wanted to get some exercise. Instead we lounged in the hot tub. I did get about 2 miles of walking in this day at various locations, including a nice little hike in the woods along a river.
Woke up and went down to the hotel's free breakfast. This was not so bad. They had hard boiled eggs but no other sugarless protein sources. I already had my wall down from the cookie last night. I decided to have a regular-food day but try and keep my blood sugar from spiking by not eating sugary crap. This was probably an excuse to eat off plan, really. Not sure if it was stress, PMS, what, but anyway... I had 2 hard boiled eggs with a little sausage gravy on top. It was soooo good. Lots of salt, but yum. And the protein was very satisfying. I had 2 cups of coffee with it.
An aside... I noticed something as we were crowded into a small area with the tables close together. I noticed in the 15 minutes we were there that the thin people were eating yogurt and fruit. All 4 of them, and they were not sitting together and didn't know each other. But all of the ladies who I would say were a size 4-6 or so were eating one yogurt and some fruit, and some of them also had coffee or tea. And the larger people, who I would guess to be a size 24-30, who were also sitting at different tables and didn't seem to know each other, were eating waffles with syrup AND biscuits and gravy. Granted there were only 2 larger ladies. But they both made the same choice. A large plate of waffles and a large plate of biscuits and gravy. Interesting? I know that was also my default hotel breakfast most of my life.
Then we were off early to the hospital. Took family member in, checked in, waited a bit, then left. They said the surgeon would call my cell when they wanted me to come back for pickup. It would be about 6-7 hours. So I took the pup and the kids and we visited several local parks, did a lot of walking... probably 3-4 miles. I did not bring enough water. I was so parched by the end of the day! I drank from water fountains but left my empty water bottle in the car. Whoops! But we really had fun exploring.
Lunch was a burger with the bun removed, a large ice water, and some fries. I ate a few, didn't like them. They were super salty. I dipped some in Ranch which used to be my "omg this is heaven" thing to eat (tons of fries dipped in loads of Ranch) but it didn't do much for me. I threw the rest away. (Why did I order fries? I dunno, I wanted to have some, and this really is a learning experience for me, and what I am learning is I don't particularly like the foods I used to like, and don't even want them anymore). Then we went out to play some more.
We stopped for ice cream at one point on this hot day, and I got myself a small shake. And it wasn't good. I probably would have thrown it away if I had not been hot and thirsty, but I was on a roll with the junk I suppose. After I drank it, I wished I had ordered a big ice water instead!
Finally around 4:30 we went back to the hospital, picked up family member, and started our way home. We drove straight through this time because my daughter fell asleep in her car seat. We did stop near dinnertime at a gas station, at which point I was actually worried I was going to fall asleep driving. I got a Coke, can you believe it? I was already having the sugar crash from the earlier milkshake. I cannot BELIEVE how it made me feel. About 2 hours after I drank that shake, I had this sudden feeling of exhaustion. I honestly felt like laying my head down on the steering wheel and going to sleep! It was nuts. Thus the Coke... caffeine and sugar... ridiculous... this is how I used to HAVE to live. Ingesting sugar every 2-3 hours to be able to function. Insane! I also ate some chips out of my son's bag.
We got home late and had pizza and then the little one needed her bath and was up til 10:30 since she'd slept in the car the whole time. I got to bed very late, close to 1 a.m.. My body is obviously freaking out and retaining a ton of water (which happens when you don't drink enough water, when you travel, when you eat carbs, when you eat salt...).
So, yeah, not an ideal eating experience, but back to the basics today, drinking loads of water and eating on plan. You know, I really am glad I had this experience though. Nothing I ate off-plan tasted that great. I was just sort of "meh" about all of it. That is like a miracle to me. I have dreamed and fantasized on occasion how awesome a milkshake or a cookie would taste. But it didn't taste that awesome. It was just... sweet. And the thing is, when you have these warped memories of how super-duper-awesome a junky food used to taste, THAT is the memory that bugs you and sets up cravings to go back to that food. But when you have this kind of reality check, where you actually KNOW and BELIEVE and EXPERIENCE that a salad tastes better than a fry, that a glass of plain iced tea tastes better than a soda, that a plate of broccoli actually DOES taste better than chips, well, *that* is a mindset I have wished for and dreamed of.
Back to regular life :)
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