Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Another Round

Is it bad that I find myself not really caring about weight loss, food, and exercise right now?

I keep asking myself that...

Maybe I am just at a point I am comfortable with myself and not in an urgent "need to work on this" state. Maybe I am slightly burned out thinking about it *at all* after nearly 4 years blogging.
Not sure.

The only thing that keeps me going with the weight loss is the fact that I need to drop another 20-30 pounds *for my health.* It is essential, especially since I am not getting any younger, here, and it only gets harder to lose weight as we age. Besides, 10 years ago (or even 4 years ago when I had 130ish pounds to lose), if someone had told me they had *only* 20 pounds to lose I would have slapped them silly. Just do it already! Twenty pounds is NOTHING! That's what I'd have said...

I have not gotten on the scale this week, not since that trip out of town for medical stuff. My focus all week was on the trip, the medical stuff, and then returning and preparing for/having/recovering from a large birthday party. After a long weekend of dog sports and two days cleaning my disaster of a house, I finally feel my brain turning back to weight loss. It is sort of a running background music in my life most of the time... I have good habits that I don't have to think about, like drinking lots of water, eating veggies, getting plenty of protein, and walking a couple of miles a day. But it is harder than I thought tackling these last 'measly' 20ish pounds! I need to pay more attention and stop being sloppy with my eating.

Here we go... time for another focused round of pounds off before I go off camping on my vacation!


Leah (The Kind Weight Watcher) said...

I hear ya. I have about 8 pounds left to lose, and I am just getting so comfortable with the way that I am now that I am not motivated to lose weight some days.

Anonymous said...

I know you can do it. You've been at it so long and this is the last bit before maintaining. Just imagine your new blog title, "Obesity Escapee Maintains her Healthy Weight"...or something like that. You are so close!!

ssm said...

I think it's always difficult, no matter what--whether you are maintaining your weight or losing weight or just trying to eat healthier. Sometimes thinking about food just gets old, right?

Jill said...

It really can get tiring thinking about food each and every meal, each and every day. The thought of taking a break though, is just not possible for me. I will gain weight if I don't think about what I am doing. I wish it were different, but it is not. I have tried not thinking and all it got me was 5 pounds. You can do this- it is not always easy, but you have the strength in you to do it! Finish what you started!!

BigFire said...

Keep at it. I got another 15 more pounds to go on my revised plan. and 3 more weeks until my surgery anniversary. The last couple have been slow.

Undercover Dieting said...

Have you thought about taking a small break and just maintain your current weight for a couple of weeks? Maybe by just relaxing and taking a vacation from dieting, you'll get your motivation back?

Whatever you decide, good luck! :)

Lyn said...


I did that already :)

In fact I did various forms of break-taking over the holidays and into the spring, including an attempt at calorie counting and a couple weeks of just trying to eat reasonably. All blogged, and I didn't like the results!

Leslie said...

Maybe you can coast for awhile - keeping your good habits going in a maintenance kind of way while avoiding your trigger foods. I think it's fine to take a break, as long as we don't backslide!

Niecy said...

I definitely agree with some others - take a careful break. Eat in moderation, but eat some things you really want, but wouldn't let yourself have normally. Be easy and understanding of yourself and your needs.

Hey, you've done great. You should feel so proud. This day-in, day-out focus with food can be very tiring.

jmak said...

I just discovered your blog yesterday and have tried to read back as far as possible. You seem to be at a crossroads, which I can only imagine after the efforts you have put in to get where you are!!! Since I am only half way to my goal, I have no advice, but I did have a poem that I want to share.I currently spend time between chapters three and four in my life struggles with food. My goal is to reach chapter five in my story. Sounds like yours is too. :)

Copyright 1993, Portia Nelson from the book, There’s a Hole in My Sidewalk, Beyond Words Publishing, Hillsboro, Oregon. Autobiography in Five Short Chapters.

Chapter One:
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost…
I am helpless.
It is not my fault.
It takes forever to find my way out.
Chapter Two:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter Three:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I still fall in…It’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
Chapter Four:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
Chapter Five:
I walk down another street.

LHA said...

I share you feeling about getting tired of the struggle of weight loss! Sometimes I feel like it has consumed my whole life to the exclusion of too many other things. My solution is to try to put food and all its related baggage in its place...important but not the defining feature of my being. I even find that when I don't think about it, obsess about it, and torture myself about it I actually eat less. Good luck on the continuation of your journey.

Lyn said...


very cool poem, and thought provoking. Thank you.

Theresa said...

I'm still fighting that fight or flight fear from weight loss. After getting within SIX pounds of goal and getting soooooooo much attention from people about my success I prompty freaked out and regained ten pounds. Maybe even twelve. I couldn't handle the attention. The comments. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Lyn, you have done so much research and study on weight loss. Any thoughts? Is this where you are at or are you more in the "meh" stage?

Lyn said...


yes! I relate! and am writing a blog post about this kind of thing right now :)

lisa~sunshine said...

I've been struggling to lose more weight and hit my goal since last year.. about the same time as you Lynn.. Octoberish.. I've been moving forwards little by little now but I had to rethink about my goals.. I was at a place like you were I felt good.. and I had to really think about WHAT exactly I wanted for goals and WHY.. when things are wishy washy and you just say well I want to 145.. that doesn't help you when you are getting ready to binge.. You have to be able to have something concrete get yourself past it.. and if you think about where you are now.. you may already be at your goal and not know it..

I agree with the other ladies though.. you have done a lot of research on this.. you know yourself.. and you know when you will be able to jump back on the wagon again.. and maybe.. just maybe.. you have to start a new plan or try something new.. The freshness of it might get you moving.. I've swithced up stuff throughout my weightloss.. it's went on stages of losing.. maintaining.. losing.. maintaining.. for over 2 years.. but I will say I feel like I can maintain now which a huge success..