I have had some crazy desperate thoughts this week as I have battled craving after craving and way too much hunger. (No, my calories have not been too low. Probably too high, as I got on the scale and it bumped back up a pound). I started wondering what I could "take" to kill my appetite. You know that desperation... the place I was 4 years ago when I was 278 pounds and nothing seemed to "work" and I was Googling everything from "how to lose weight fast" to "diet pills that work." I was ready to do almost anything and pay as much as I had to to get the weight off back then. Yet everything I tried... Weight Watchers, OA, Jenny Craig, Atkins, Eat Right 4 Your Type, Carb Blocker chews, Dexatrim, Slim Fast, the Weigh Down Diet, Fat Busters, and so many other methods... did not "work." I know, lots of people will say "diets don't work" but I am a believer that "any reasonable, healthy diet works IF YOU WORK IT." Some of those things I tried were not reasonable, some were not healthy, but some work for lots of other people who lose weight and keep it off. It is really a matter, in my opinion, of trying various (healthy) things until you find something that works for YOU and yields better health as measured by your doctor and yourself. Over all these years of trying to lose weight, only 3 things "worked" for me and got approval from my doctor:
1. South Beach Diet. And I do not mean using their products. I just mean eating according to their food lists: good carbs, good fats, that kind of thing. I lost about 40 pounds on SBD several years back. Of course, I gained it all back when I started eating cake and ice cream in huge quantities again, which will happen regardless of how you lose weight.
2. Calorie counting. I used the free site, Sparkpeople.com, to log my calories and stay in a range from 1400-1800 per day. This is how I lost the first big chunk of weight on this journey as you can see by reading my blog archives. It's simple, free, and you can eat whatever fits into your calories for the day, although I did try to make healthier choices and eat lots of veggies. This method fell apart for me after 64 pounds lost and I started having a hard time staying away from junk food.
3. Medifast. This is, by far, the easiest way I have ever found to lose weight. It got me out of a 20-month stall and I lost 59 pounds before I stopped following the program and started a regain. Yes, they sent me the food for free. However I have been blatantly honest about what I feel are the positives and negatives of this program, and my opinion remains that this is THE best "system/diet" out there (calorie counting aside, which is free and available to everyone).
So the other day I was thinking that if I could find an appetite suppressant pill I would think about taking it. I am feeling that desperate. I started Googling appetite suppressants and was reminded of all the health risks and dangers of those kinds of things. And then I remembered something. When I was doing the Medifast 5&1 plan, I had very little appetite. Kind of how it is on South Beach phase 1 or Atkins... you go into some stage of ketosis (very mild on Medifast but a stronger state on Atkins because of ingesting far fewer carbs). And that ketosis gets rid of cravings. In fact there were times on Medifast when I almost forgot to eat. I just did not get hungry. Well, I want that back. I think I need to cut the fruit and yogurt back out. They have just been making me hungry/cravey. But really, why would I even consider taking an appetite suppressant when I can get the same effect without the health risks just by cutting out fruit and dairy? So that's my plan. Back to 5&1.
Frankly I am sick of this merry-go-round and just want to get the weight off already with one method and quit screwing around trying stuff that may or may not "work."
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