Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Six Days

Today marks six days on plan. I finally am feeling really good and in control of my eating again. I still have my moments; yesterday when I was slicing cheese for my little girl, I almost had a breakdown because I wanted some so bad. It went like this:

I want some cheese!
No, it's for the Princess.
I want some too!
No, you have been on plan for five days. Don't screw it up now.
It won't screw anything up! It has no carbs, it will be fine, it won't throw off your carb count at all.
It has calories.
Ugh, just one slice, 100 calories! It would taste SO GOOD!
You won't stop with one slice. You'll eat 500 calories of cheese and not lose weight.
But I won't GAIN...
No.
Ugh...

I didn't eat it. I just gathered myself for a split second... just long enough to get it put away and move on.

My poor daughter can't catch a break. Sinus issues, cough, strep tests, ear infection with severe pain, and now the antibiotic gave her watery diarrhea. I have spent 2 days cleaning up a lot of messes. Medication switch is happening now. I love my kids and being a Mom but it is hard not being able to get out much when the weather is so nice. Hopefully she will be better soon and we will have no more sickness for awhile.

That's all for now. I should have some kind of reasonable weigh-in on the first.

12 comments:

Ex Yo-Yo Dieter Debbie said...

I have conversations like this all the time with myself - the addict vs. the voice of reason.

I'm glad for you that the "voice of reason" won out. For me, if I could even just stop at the cheese, it wouldn't be too bad, but usually allowing that first tempting food opens the floodgates of so many other things.

Hope you have a great WI and hope your little one gets well soon.

He Took MY Last Name said...

Somedays I like the arguments with myself. I think it shows a lot of introspection and the fact that I can tell when I am being 'crazy' means I have come a long way. When I have one of those 'what the hell am I doing' moments, I know I am nuts and take a step back.

Anonymous said...

Ugh! I have maintained my weight loss for 2 1/2 years and I still go through that battle every day.

Does it ever end??

Leslie said...

That sounds eerily like many conversations that go on in my head. Alas - they don't all have the positive outcome yours did - but some do. Some better than none!

Nancy said...

I didn't mean for the above post to sound so discouraging. I have learned that the more you exercise your willpower, the stronger it gets, and you do win almost every time.

But it would be nice if the battle went away!

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Good for you for being strong! Every little victory is huge! I'm hoping for a great weigh in for ya. :)

~Margene

Sandy "Sugarspice76" said...

I am the same way! I love cheese! I am glad you didn't give in. You feel so much better about yourself when you don't give in to temptations like that. It will all pay off in the end!

claire said...

Putting your daughter on probiotics could help curb the infections! and also help with the antibiotics since they kill the good bacteria aswell!

Anonymous said...

Great for not giving into the evil voices! I hear them all the time too. Hang in there!

Amy

~ Lyndsay The Kitchen Witch said...

I like what Debbie said - I use something from Dr. Drew when I get like that and it really helps. I tell myself "This is your addiction talking, you don't want this."

Hope your little one is feeling better soon.

Susan said...

Way to go, overcoming that voice, I battle with it daily, too.

And thanks for yesterday's tuna melt recipe - had it for lunch today and it was very satisfying!

rach said...

for what it worth i heard on a medical radio show that they dont treat ear infections with anti-biotics in europe and they dont use tubes either. there is not a higher deafness rate in europe.

not that im preaching or anything, its just something i heard.